At a Wednesday Eucharist a few weeks ago I told about a professor of mine at
seminary who was also an Episcopal nun, The Rev. Sister Rachel Hosmer. She once mentioned
a dream shed had in which a person could mail order Jesus. There was a blond haired,
blue eyed Jesus in a blue robe, or a brown haired, brown eyed Jesus in a red robe. The
surprise was that, instead of getting what you ordered, you got the real thing.
Our idea of how God should act and Gods idea
of how God should act are often two different things. The first Sunday in Lent begins, in
fact, with the devil tempting Jesus to act as we might expect God to act: turn stones into
bread (why doesnt God do something about all the starving people); throw yourself
off the Temple (show us some miracles that will assure us that you are who you say you
are); take your power and reign over all the kingdoms of the world (and show Osama Bin
Laden whos really boss).
We tend to fall into the same trap as St. Peter who
knew Jesus was the Messiah but wanted him to be the conquering king rather than the
suffering servant. His mail order Jesus would not be a crucified Lord who, in the eyes of
the world, was a total failure. Peter wanted a Messiah who would restore Israel, free the
people from their oppressors and rule over a temporal kingdom. But Gods Messiah, the
real thing, would restore all human kind, free us from the bondage of sin, and rule over
an eternal kingdom of which we could forever be a part. When Christ rose from the grave,
Peter probably realized that his mail-order Jesus couldnt begin to match the Messiah
of God.
We too want to have our mail-order Jesus. We have
our own ideas of how he should act and if he would just listen to us, the world
would be so much better off. But time and again Ive heard people say, for instance,
that healing came in a wonderful way but not as they had expected; or they came to
understand things or know people they never would have otherwise if things had gone more
as theyd hoped and prayed. This is not to say that we will always agree with
Gods action (or seeming inaction). It does mean we trust that, by Gods
grace, the darkness of crucifixion will never overwhelm the promise of resurrection.
As we move through the shadows of Lent and Holy Week
into the glorious light of the resurrection, may we be reminded of those moments in our
lives when, although God didnt act as we had hoped, he acted in a way that
ultimately was more profound, loving and gracious than we could have imagined. And may we
be grateful that, instead of our puny idea of Christ, we get the real thing.
Mother Liza Spangler |