In my life I've carried many burdens, as we all have. Everyday worldly worries that plague you from the moment you awake from your fitful sleep and weigh you down the entire day.

Crisis after crisis...It was neverending... Parenting Stuff, Kid Stuff, Job Stuff, Car Stuff, the list just went on and on and on.

Until one day, I discovered that no matter how much I "worried" about these things, they always worked out...the way they were supposed to and when they were supposed to.

I was in the shower (I get most of my messages there), when I got the message -- "If you'll just let Me worry about that stuff, I can fix it better than you can."
I thought about that for a little bit, and decided that, yeah it would work. So I did. I handed those burdens right over to Him, with a breath of thanks. Then, in the next few days, everytime I would get that worryness, I'd remind myself that God was taking care of that, and I feel a lightness in my heart and know that I was right. And it works! If you dwell on the negative things that are happening in your life, you just draw more and more negative stuff to you. If instead, you are looking forward to the day, and feel good about what you are doing, then more and more positive things are drawn to you.

Give it a try. Give it up, and let God take care of it. Believe that your prayers will be answered. And they will.

E-Mail From God... Date: Thu, Feb 17, 2000,9:09pm Subject: Don't Worry Good Morning, I am the Lord your God. Today I will be handling all of your problems. Please remember that I do not need your help. If the devil happens to deliver a situation to you that you cannot handle, DO NOT attempt to resolve it. Kindly put it in the SFJTD (Something For Jesus To Do) box. It will be addressed in MY time, not yours. Once the matter is placed into the box, do not hold on to it or attempt to resolve it. Holding on or removal will delay the resolution of your problem. If it is situation that you think you are capable of handling, please consult me in prayer to be sure that it is the proper resolution. Because I do not sleep nor do I slumber, there is no need for you to lose any sleep. Rest my child. If you need to contact me, I am only a payer away. Love Eternally.

March, 2000

This past year has been a difficult one, with Financial Stuff and Home Stuff going on, and there's been quite a few times I had the sneaking suspicion that my faith was being tested. I felt as stretched as I could be. Walking home one morning, feeling quite powerless, unable to do anything about a problem I was dealing with, it was all I could do to not just bust out bawling. But I was steadfast in my faith. I remember thinking, "You can keep trying me, but I will still rely on You. A few more steps taken, I heard the question -- "So, do you still trust Me? Do you still think I'll fix this?" I looked up and answered aloud, with a smile, "Of course, I'm counting on it!"
The very next day, our Home Stuff was taken care of in a much grander way than if I'd tried to figure it all out. This allowed me to take care of the Financial Stuff without a problem.

I'll take this moment to offer up a public "Thank You!" :)

That same night, in the most peaceful sleep I had enjoyed in months, I had a very special dream. I was visited by my paternal grandparents, both of whom have been gone for a very long time. Oh, but they were so much younger than I remember them, but I knew who they were, and their smiles were so beautiful. My grandmother took my face in her hand, even in my sleep I could feel how good and loving my grandparent's spirits are. It was a feeling that I've never felt before, and I would love to feel it again. I can sometimes, like now, when I am writing about it or telling someone about, I feel so much Love.

They wanted to tell me that they had been the ones that helped me get the things I needed to carry on. They had led me to people that would be understanding and help me. That they were proud of me and who I have become, and they loved my children. They told me that my Grandma Baker was busy healing my mother.

And then they were gone, but they left me with a most beautiful feeling.

Please say a prayer for my mother to overcome her pain, to be able to put it behind her, a little every day...and to regain her strength of body.

Update. It is November now, the month to be thankful, and we are so blessed that Mom is still with us. Chemotherapy is hard on a person. She's had tremendous weight fluctuations, good days, and bad days, but the good outweighs the bad by far. When a family member is ill, the whole family suffers with them, not so much physically, but their world doesn't quite spin as it used to, it's a little off balace. Mom's illness has made us realize how important we all are to each other, and to not wait to say "I Love You" but to say it often. To Not hold back hugs and kisses, but to give them freely.

Her pain is not so great as it was, She is regaining her strength of body, slowly but surely. Sure, she has more treatments to endure. And there are still discomforts to go through...but she can sit up straight and tall again.

Please continue to pray for my mother, Jean, for her continuing recovery.

And if there is someone out there that you love, but haven't told time for awhile because "you know they know it," go ahead and give them a call, or better yet, pay them a visit and tell them. It is always nice to hear! Don't wait, regrets have a way of sneaking up on you.

Thank you, and May God bless you and yours! :)

January, 2000. Mom continues to heal. My faith remains strong and true. The emails, cards and prayers we have received are so appreciated. We thank you all for the love and concern we have felt from all of you.

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Mom loves this poem!