Chapter 33
August 1, 2002 (Next Day)
"Okay sweetie? I'm really sorry, but they called me at the last minute. I know we had plans to go out and everything, but I want to go back and do a few shoots." Kim kissed the sleepy Justin in the corner of his mouth, then pulled the covers up higher around him. "You aren't mad at me are you, Justin?" His breaths were relaxed and calm. He was so gorgeous when he slept. "Okay, you and Jade be good. And have some fun today! I'M GOING, JUSTIN!" She turned back to go, but Justin snatched her arm to him and pulled her on top of him. "Whoa boy!"
"Where are you going?" He asked, not knowing because he was sleep during the time she told him.
She giggled. "I'm going to my modeling agency. I'm going to do some photo shoots today."
His eyes squinted in questioning. "But...I thought you didn't have to go back for a few weeks."
"I told you, they call last night and asked me could I come in. I told them yes, because they are complaining about the amount of offers stacking up. So many people want me to wear their clothes, and on top of that Chanel wants me to model their stuff, so..."
"So you aren't going to spend the day with me and Jade?"
She balled the covers up and her hand and shook her head. "Um, no. I'm really sorry, Justin. You aren't mad at me for it, are you?"
"No." He closed his eyes after he spoke.
She kissed him on the cheek and then turned the volume up on the television before leaving. "Justin, you should take a look at the morning news. Your all over it." She walked out of the bedroom laughing.
Justin opened his eyes and sat up briefly to look at the TV.
"And as our top story, Justin Timberlake of Nsync was spotted at grocery store, here in the Orlando area, shouting for his wife to be, Kim. It is rumored that he is suffering a break up with Kim, and that their daughter will be living with him."
Justin rolled his eyes and cut the TV off. "Bullshit." He got comfortable and attempted to go back to sleep.
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"Justin, I'm home!" Kim shouted, as she stumbled upstairs excitedly. She went into Jade's room, to check on her first. Her eyes widened when she saw the room was filled with new toys and teddy bears. She shook her head. "I'm going to kill Justin. I've told him about this." She peeked her head over the side of the oval-shaped crib. Jade was sleeping peacefully with her arms and legs spread out on both sides. A dribble of milk was trailing out of her mouth, which proved she was full.
Kim bend down and kissed the child on her nose. "Good night, baby girl. Mommy just wanted to say hi." She kissed her again, and then coved her up well, so she could sleep. Hopefully all through the night, like she had been doing. She was such a good baby. Kim left Jade and walked into the master bedroom and put her bag down on the dresser. Justin was right beside her, changing from his outdoor/dressy clothes. "Hey, Justin."
"Hey." He said with his head down because he was unbuckling his jeans.
"How long have you been home?" She asked trying to make conversation.
"About two hours. YOU are just now getting home?"
She sighed. "Yeah. The agency made me drive out to a location. A beach. I had to do a shoot at a beach that is like and hour from here. It took all day."
"Uh huh. I called you. I called your cell phone six times. You didn't answer the phone, or you didn't bother to call and check on Jade."
She stared at him remorsefully "I was really busy. I'm sorry."
He stopped undressing after he took off his belt. He left the rest of his clothes on. "Whatever." He said with a shrug. He looked her over and she watched him do it, quietly. "Aww, just look at you. You look so...so..."
She smiled as he thought of the perfect word to describe her.
He snapped his fingers to help him think. "Oh, you look so Britney-ed out. You have the bra for a shirt thing goin'. And your jeans are cut so damn low you should have pubic hair showing. Don't you dare pinch me for saying damn either."
She frowned. "Okay." She looked away from him and mumbled. "So, I wax! What is HIS problem?"
Justin's eyebrow raised. "What was that, Kim?"
"Nothing." The last thing she wanted to do, was fight with him. "So, what did you and Jade do today?" She asked nicely. She turned around to catch a glimpse of his expression.
"Stuff."
She nodded. "Oh I see. What kind of 'stuff'?"
"Things you do when you are not at home."
She rested her hands on her hips. "CAN YOU ELABORATE? What THINGS did you do today Justin, with Jade, while you were not at home?"
He partially rolled his eyes. "That's between, Jade and I."
She sat down on the edge of the bed. She needed to cool down some of her building anger and aggravation. "Okay." She said simply. She rubbed her foot into the carpet and locked her eyes in the area. "What's for dinner? I'm starving." Slowly her eyes stammered up Justin's long figure.
"Sorry." He told her walking across the room and laying on his side of the bed. "Jade and I already ate."
She stood up quickly, then stretched to release more anger. "AND WHAT DID YOU HAVE? CAN YOU TELL ME THAT?" She chewed her lip after she asked the question.
"Chinese."
Since he didn't even think of getting her something to eat, she changed the subject to TRY to prevent a fight with him. He was pushing her. Pushing her few buttons and she hated when he did. He was upset and mad because she chose to do a modeling shoot instead of spending the day with him and Jade, he was really upset about that. She could just tell. He was being too rude and obnoxious not to be. He was in one of his moods. One of the moods she hated most. "Justin. I can see you brought Jade a ton of toys and teddy bears. What have I told you about that, Justin? She's two months old for God's sake. She doesn't need all of that stuff now. You waste so much money on stupid things. You spend so much money on things Jade doesn't even need. She has enough toys to last her until she is five. That is pathetic, Justin. That is obser..." She stopped talking when she saw the look upon his face. "Um..."
He folded his hand and placed them in his lap. He then turned his head to the side to curse he out calmly. "You can't tell me how much is too much for my daughter. I'LL SPEND HOWEVER MUCH MONEY I WANT ON HER. I'll buy her ever damn toy in the toy store if I please. And you talk all that shit about me spending too much on stupid things. WHAT ABOUT ALL OF THE MONEY YOU SPEND ON STUPID THINGS? WHAT ABOUT ALL OF THE MONEY YOU SPEND ON CLOTHES?? AND JADE! YOU BUY HER MORE CLOTHES THAN SHE NEEDS. HELL, SHE HAS MORE CLOTHES THAN THE BOTH OF US PUT TOGETHER! IT'S NOT LIKE WE CAN'T AFFORD THE THINGS I GET HER. SO WHATEVER YOU DO, DON'T SAY ANYTHING LIKE THAT TO ME AGAIN. I'LL BUY HER HOW MUCH OF WHATEVER THE FUCK I WANT!" He crossed his arms and sat there.
Kim was blown away by his reaction, and actions all together. "Well, bite my head off why don't you. What's with the attitude?"
"Attitude? What attitude?"
"Oh come on, Justin. I walk in here. We did stuff, that's between me and Jade. Oh, we ate already. Oh, you should have pubic hair showing with those pants on. What is that? What IS IT? You are being so mean to me, and so brief. What did I do? Why are you mad at me? I don't want to fight with you. I thought we had moved on past that?! And your cursing like crazy."
Justin shifted a little. "I was giving you a compliment about the pants thing. You don't have pubic hair showing, which means you CAN wear them that low. So what if I had Chinese! And about what Jade and I did today, since when do I have to tell you everything?"
She pointed at him and began to walk toward him. "Oh no you didn't. SINCE WHEN DON'T YOU TELL ME EVERYTHING? WHAT? ARE YOU HIDING THINGS FROM ME? OH MY GOD. I CANNOT BELIEVE YOU JUST SAID THAT!"
"Come on sweetheart, I do NOT hide things from you. But I do have a right to keep things to myself, or between other people. I don't have to tell you EVERYTHING!"
She glanced at the wall. "Okay. From now on. I am only going to treat you how you treat me! I guess I don't have to tell you everything either. So, what are you saying, Justin? Are you saying you have a right to keep secrets from me?"
He cleared his throat. "I said I don't have to tell you everything. You are tying to put words in my mouth."
She grew closer to him. "Okay, so if I had dated another guy, while I was pregnant with your baby, during our month break up, you wouldn't be upset if I didn't tell you about it, and you NEVER found out? What if you found out from someone else, wouldn't that make you mad?"
He shook his head. "No, I wouldn't be mad. During that time I was too busy mourning over you for giving me your ring back. Oh yeah, and trying to kill myself by taking an overdose on painkillers." He looked her in the face and smiled.
He hit her with a cold blow to the heart. She didn't know what she was feeling but her eyes became clouded by her arriving tears. "That was so wrong of you, Justin. I didn't deserve that." She stormed out of the room sobbing.
It took a moment for Justin to realize he was intentionally cruel and he made her cry. The look on her face, when he said her last words, was awful enough to anyone cry. He felt bad for his actions. He shot out of bed and headed downstairs after her. She wasn't in the living room which meant she was most-likely in the kitchen.
She was in the kitchen and she was eating a Twisler from a bag she had in her hand, and she was looking through the refrigerator trying to find something to eat. He saw the her nose was red, and she would take a bite of the Twisler every time she let out a cry. "Can't believe I had to come home to that. I wish I would have never went to the photo shoot. We would not be fighting right now."
Justin remained silent because she didn't notice he entered the large kitchen.
"Just when everything is going great we get into a fight somehow. I don't get it. I don't get how he can be amazing one day and so horrible the next." She pulled a bottle of Coke from the refrigerator. "Lets see, I want something that is quick and simple. I'm starving, but I'm tried." She sniffled as hard as she could, hoping that she'd stop crying.
"I'm sorry, Kim." He said looking towards the floor. "I didn't mean to make you cry. I'm sorry baby."
She slammed the refrigerator closed and threw the bag or Twislers and the Coke on the counter. "I'm sorry, Kim. I'm sorry, Kim. GIVE ME A BREAK, JUSTIN! Your no fair with me. I try so hard to keep things neutral with us. But you just insists on fighting with me. And throwing cold things at me. You know you hurt me when you say those things, so why are you sorry? Why are you sorry for saying things you CHOSE to say, and CHOSE to hurt me by saying?"
He looked up into her eyes. What she said made him think.
"You just totally ruined the night, Justin. I was all happy and shit when I first got home, but you just had to play 'I'm going to be a bitch to Kim because I want to'. Keep on playing it, I'm just not going to be near you to tolerate it." She snatched up the bag of Twislers and left the kitchen.
Justin stared at the Coke she left out, then chased after her. "Kim..."
She snarled at him, from the top of the stairs. "DON'T YOU DARE TRY TO PULL THAT, "I love you, baby girl," stuff. You can't keep doing it to me Justin. You can't keep sending me the mixed signals. You can't keep shutting me off and getting mad at me for STUPID things, whenever YOU choose to be mad. I can't...I won't deal with it anymore. it's just not fair! I don't do you like that. And I won't let you do me like it."
Before Justin could go into the bedroom behind her, he came in contact with the door, which she closed in his face. He didn't know he would upset her so much. And he felt terrible. He slowly opened the door. Kim was sitting on the bed, crying harder. "Kim, I..." He honestly didn't know what to say.
She looked up and shook her head at him. "You better not say I'm sorry. Or I'll slap the blue out of your eyes. You don't have to tell me everything, so make that one of the things you don't tell me, okay? We are getting married and you tell me something like that. That's like saying I'm only going to tell you half of the things I do. God, let me shut up." She took a large bite out of a third Twisler.
Justin sat down next to her, but didn't touch her. "Kim, I don't know what to say..."
"Don't say anything to me. Your mean. You are so mean to me and I didn't even do anything, except do my job. Just leave me alone." He placed his hand over her knee. She immediately brushed it off. "DON'T TOUCH ME!"
He put his hand back on her knee. "Kim, I love you." He stole a Twisler from her bag and began to eat it.
She threw the bag on the dresser, then went to her side of the bed. She saw a small hump and pulled the covers back to see a box of Chinese which had the letter CFR on it, unopened, with two packets of soy sauce and a fork on the side. He had got her some food after all. She closed her eyes and smiled to herself.
"I got your favorite." Justin told her. "Chicken fried rice."
To be respectful she thanked him. "Thanks. It was sweet of you." She touched the box and it was still warm, so she moved the things out of her way, then laid down. She put the put the rice on her stomach and prepared to eat it by putting the soy sauce on it. "I'm starving, so, thank you."
"Your welcome." He crept towards her. "Please don't hit me, or slap me or anything like that, because I love you, Kim. And I may have my days, but please don't take them too seriously because I have my mrean moments. I love you so much and I hate it when you cry. I'M SO SORRY, for making you cry. I really didn't mean any of the things I said." He touched her thigh. "Okay?"
She didn't look him in the eyes, but she nodded her head hesitantly.
"I really am, Kim. If it helps any, I took Jade to a meeting that was held at Johnny house. Then I took her to my house, and to the beach there. Then I took her to Toys "R" Us, with security of course. That's what we did today. His hand glided up and down her thigh. "I love you. And I'm not just saying it to lead you on, to just be saying it to be saying it, to convince you to have sex with me. I swear to GOD, I love you with all my heart. I don't know what gets into me sometimes, but no matter what I say, I'll always love you." He laughed. "And all those curse words I said...please pinch me, Kim. I'm begging you to." He saw a smile trying to form from her lips. "PLEASE? I know you want to."
She ate one last fork full of rice, long and slow, then she sat up and gave him a hard pinch on his chest.
"OW!" He yelled rubbing the spot. "Thank you."
She giggled. "Your welcome." She could feel his eyes burning into her, and his hand touching her. She wondered where things would go from where they were. She began to eat more quickly, he made her nervous. "What are you looking at?"
"You! I want to know if you are still mad at me?"
"A little." She said strait forwardly.
He chuckled. "A little? Is there anything I can do to make you not mad?"
Her eyebrow raised playfully and she set her rice aside. "Well, remember last night when I was your slave and you said be still and leave everything to you? If you do that again, I'll never be mad at you again." She winked, because she was just joking." You were so amazing, Justin. I will admit it."
He began to craw over her. "Well, well, well. I think I can make an acception for that." He was looking directly at her lips and was stalling because he was going to kiss them, but he had to make her wait a while. He felt Kim's hands touch his side and he knew it was the right time.
He pulled the covers further away from them and then kissed her lips. No matter what she ate or did, her mouth was always as sweet as candy and he knew he could never get enough of her. Never. It just wasn't possible. His hands felt up her body. And his finger tips met her finger tips and they crossed hands. Justin took it upon himself to raise her hands up over her head, his mouth trailed down to the pit of her neck. Every soft moan that escaped her lips made him want to give her more. "I love you, Justin." She whispered to him, closing her eyes. "I love you baby."
"I love you too." His lips found hers again. Before he could give her his, he received her tongue. He worked with it and turned his head to fit his comfort level. His mouth was sealed tightly around hers.
Kim stopped the kissing action between them, when she sat up. Justin gave her a look to as why she stopped. She returned a look, and hinted him it was okay to move up a level.
He accepted the offer and kissed her lips as he tried to get her short cut shirt off. It was so tight and small he couldn't get it off. "How do you undo this thing?" He asked tugging at the base of the shirt.
She pointed her finger in the direction of her back. "It's zips in the back."
He nodded and once again kissed at her lips. He was able to reach the zipper and unzipped her top easily. When it was loose enough, he pulled it up over her head. He enjoyed just looking at her in her white lace bra. "My God, your so beautiful."
She laid back and he continued to kiss her on her neck. They were both so hot they could barely breath. Kim helped Justin pull his shirt off. His mouth trailed down her neck and met her shoulders which he kissed non-stop, and passionate.
The phone rang.
They were trying to ignore the phone, but the longer they ignored it, the more worrisome they became. "Dang, man. Do we ever get any private time?" He groaned.
Kim sat all the way up and watched Justin grab the phone. "Who is it?" She asked.
He picked up the cordless phone and read the caller ID. "Oh NO! It's my mom. She is going to yell at me, so help me, God. I haven't called her in weeks, Kim. She's going to kill me." He pressed talk to the phone and regretfully put it to his ear. "Hello?"
"JUSTIN RANDALL TIMBERLAKE!"
"I know Ma, I can explain..."
"SUGAR! WHY HAVEN'T YOU CALLED ME? DON'T YOU KNOW MY FLIGHT GETS BACK TOMORROW?"
"I uh. Mom I've been so busy. I just forgot. All of the wedding things, watching Jade. I'm sorry. I hope you understand where I'm coming from."
"Your right. I guess you are pretty busy lately. Justin, honey, why are you breathing so heavily? You sound..."
He coughed on the side. "Um..."
"I didn't interrupt anything did I? It only eight. Where is Kim?"
He cough again, and looked back at her. "Kim?" She was waving her hands telling him No, not to say she was there, but he couldn't lie to his own mother. "She's on the bed."
Lynn giggled a few times. "Okay, let me get this straight? Kim is on the bed. And you breathing heavily...hum. I wonder. Did I interrupt something?"
He swallowed hard. "Well, don't forget mom, I am an adult."
"I know your an adult, I didn't ask you that. I asked you if I interrupted something." She laughed, because it was obvious now.
He scratched his head. "Yeah, Kim and I were...kissing."
"Oh you don't have to admit anything. I'm your mother, I know you, and I've grown to know Kim too. You both have a baby. I'm not stupid..."
"OKAY MA, Okay. You interrupted something. ANYWAY you are getting back tomorrow? What time?"
She was still laughing. "Paul and I will get there around noon. You don't have to meet me at the airport. We are going home for an hour or two, and then heading over your house to see the little one and the new palace. Jade, what a beautiful name. We have A LOT of things for her. You better have plenty of Kleenex. I'm going to cry my eyes out."
Justin was nodding unconsciously. "Okay Ma."
"Don't forget JC's birthday is coming up. What are you going to get him?"