mrs. perfect

It's all right,
The coast is clear
Mother's gone;
Never fear
Nothing to worry about
This is the perfect time
This is the perfect place and
You are the perfect one, for me
You're the perfect woman
You're the perfect one
Really it's okay;
We are alone.
Don't worry about the door;
Don't worry about the phone.
Pay attention to me.
One: the two of us can be.
Just look at me
I am all you need to see.
There's nothing to worry about
This is the perfect time
This is the perfect place and
You are the perfect one, for me
You're the prefect woman
You're the perfect one
Of course it's all right
There's no danger here
You are with me
You're protected, dear.
Just relax
And lean on me
Come on over
Come close to me
Oh believe it
I want to hold you
Can you conceive it
How much I want to
No matter when it's done
Oh I want you so much
No matter where we are
How I long for your touch
And there's nothing to worry about--
This is the perfect time
This is the perfect place and
You are the perefect one, for me
You're the perfect woman
You're the perfect one
Because it's okay
Well with you it's always been
Trust me when I say
On me you can depend
Let's stay close together now
Let's make our love complete
Nothing I'd rather do
Let's feed off each other's heat
Cozy by the fire
You'll be purring like a cat
Soon we'll both perspire
Would you like some wine with that?
My fantasies turn so real
Oh the affects
You are all I want to feel
You're so perfect;
Mrs. Perfect--
You're so perfect
You are so wonderful
Barely comprehending just how amazing
You are so beautiful
How you do this to me
How do you do it I can't tell
Just a look and you had wooed me
Did you put me under some kind of spell
Unbelievably perfect
I never felt this way before
Unbelievable my pet
Tell me when can I come back for more
I hope it's very soon
I want you again
Again this afternoon
I hope it never ends
'Cause there's never any need for worry
This is the perfect time
This is the perfect place and
You are the perfect one, for me
You're the perfect woman
You're the perfect one
So good looking honey
You've a power over me
If I had enough money
Well guess where we would be
I would take you anywhere
To see all you wanted to see
Well I would do anything
As long as it made you happy
'Cause you're the best
You're so perfect
You make me so happy
So remarkably happy
And when we're alone
You make me even happier
When we're at home
You make me feel so much better
There's never need to worry
This is the perfect time
This is the perfect place and
You are the perfect one, for me
You're the perfect woman
You're the perfect one
I'd do anything for you
What would you do for me
Would you grant a wish
Just for you to hold me
I only want to feel
As perfect as you are
As perfect as you look
As perfect as you make me feel . . .
Don't worry about it
This is the perfect time
This is the perfect place and
You are the perfect one, for me
You're the perfect woman
You're the perfect one
It's all right,
I've made it clear.
You're the perfect
One, my dear.


("copywrite" 2:20 pm friday june 17 1994)

hell

The seconds tick
The minutes pass
The days add up and
The weeks go fast
The years flew by
And there was life's end--
But you didn't want to die . . . !

Death is always so hard to understand
The final breath so hard to comprehend
You knew one day you'd have to leave your life
Did you know your choices would condemn you
To an eternity of strife?
So you have been a good man
Yet also very bad
Maybe you did the best you could
You may have done the best you can
But now you'll see all you did wrong
And be subject to forces of a higher hand . . .

All that you've been told
How could you have known
You tell me; tell Him
I think you know
And now it's too late
It's time to face your fate

The light at the end of the tunnel
Well you saw that it was dim
You saw the door was closed;
They wouldn't let you in
Everything disappeared
Your life flashed before your eyes . . .
(Did you think about your mother?)
Shades of the intangible past . . .
(Did you think about your wife?)
Pictures of years gone by . . .
(Did you think about your children?)
Apparently too good to last . . .
(Did you think about the meaning of life?)
And now you are nowhere
Something doesn't seem right

Do you know where you are?
Are you feeling uncomfortable?
Can you see anything, can you tell how far
Are you how high are you how long
Are you going to be here for a long long time?
How are you? Are you scared?
Are you nervous, are you queasy?
What are you paying for?
Do you know why you're here?
Are you truly innocent, poor (thing) . . . ?
Are you guilty?

But you were so uneducated;
How were you to know you were to be ill-fated?

Can you feel overwhelming guilt?
Can you feel it, can you feel it?
Are you guilty?
Oh tell the rest of us, we're all listening--
Are you guilty?

Probably.

You know you're not alone
You're one of many
You hurt you start to moan
And well so do they
You can hear yourself
You must hear the rest
You all are beyond help
But that you might have guessed

Now can you hear them scream
Can you hear them fall
Can you feel the heat
Surrounding you all
Do you think you're blind
Can't see the fire you feel
Do you know the kind
That showed you hell is real . . . ?

Do you feel the pain
Of being torn apart
Do you long for rain
To cool you in the dark
Did you once wish to fly
And now you feel regret
Did you know you would die
And fly without a net . . . ?

Can you feel the darkness
Eating at your flesh
Sense the evil presence
Spreading like a rash
Now are you feeling numb
You'll never be healed
Do you know the One
Who shows you hell is real . . . ?

Can you hear anything
But screaming burning souls
Can you ever think
How deep is this hole
Does it ever end
Will it last how much longer
So can you comprehend
That hell is forever . . . ?

Do you know the kind
That showed you hell is real?
Did you think you would find
The story was a crooked deal?
You thought it was a lie
Till you began to feel
Like you were slowly dying
And it was all-too real
Continuously dying
That's all that you can feel
Do you know the kind
That showed you hell is real?
Do you know the One . . .
Do you know the One
Do you know the One
Who shows you hell is real?

. . . Are you guilty?
Well we all are.
But we all determine our own fate
That's what you have done
You make your own choices . . .
Yes it is your fault.

. . . Forever.
You just keep on falling.


("copywrite" 2:09 pm tuesday june 14 1994)

self-esteem

I'm exhausted
I've exhausted
All my energy
All this time
Trying to make you like me
I tried
I tried to like me
Goals aspired to
Never achieved

I never did anything to you
Why did you do that to me?
So I'm quiet it's nothing new
You just never took the time to see
All those days I was only being me
Over all these years we grew
Still you did those things to me
And how could I make you get a clue
You just never took the time to see
Everybody needs a little self-esteem

Who's obnoxious?
Your obnoxious
Efforts to hurt me
All this time
I'll never forget those days
I tried
I tried to make me
Better for you
Was just a dream

All the time I suffered
How could you sit back and watch?
One after another
How could you join everyone
How could you make fun
How could you, how could you
Not think it was wrong to do
How could you, why did you
Say things about me that weren't true

'Cause I never did anything to you
Why did you have to do that to me?
Found it fun to be so crude
You just never took the time to see
Giving me pain I didn't need
My emotions deeply bruised
Still you did those things to me
You had to do all you could do
You just never took the time to see
Everybody needs a little self-esteem

I am snobbish
I'm conceited
I'm patronizing
All these things
That's just the way that it seems
I tried
To show the real me
You wouldn't let me
See you made me

That's why I never look you in the eye
That's why I never speak
That's why I never said hello and
That's why I never said goodbye
That's why I seem so weak
That's why I'm always so mellow and
That's why I always hide
That's why I am so meek
That's why I'm such a freak
And you know that you're the one who made me
The one who rejected me
How can I expect
Anyone to accept me now?
How can I be charismatic
How can I work such magic
When I've just never known how
That's just the way it is now

When I never did anything to you
Why did you have to do that to me?
Say we just have different views
You never took the time to see
How much you could make me bleed
Friends I have just too few
Still you did those things to me
And I did nothing that's not news
You just never took the time to see
Everybody needs a little self-esteem

And I never did anything to you
Why did you have to do that to me?
Isolation is nothing new
You just never took the time to see
How it is when I feel defeat
Still you did all you could do
Still you did those things to me
Pretending not to suffer outside my room
You just never took the time to see
Everybody needs a little self-esteem

I'm exhausted
I've exhausted
All my energy
All this time
Trying to make you like me
I tried
I tried to make me
Better for you
Dreams never achieved . . .

I never did anything to you
Why did you have to do that to me?
I'm a freak it's nothing new
You just never took the time to see
Just myself is all I can be
Over all these years I knew
I know you're someone I just don't need
You're just one of those people who
Just never took the time to see
Everybody needs a little self-esteem.


("copywrite" 10:46 pm wednesday april 5 1995)

cyber ant farm

watch them work, watch them work
see the paths they make, the paths they take
low in murk, wait and lurk
feel the tenstion heavy, the buttons ready
introduce them to the jerk

shake it up, shake it up
laugh and squeal sadistic
back and forth, up and down
try to remain mystic
push the power, pull the lever
type in the helplessness
shake it up, shake forever
here in cyber ant farm

they stay home, in comfort zones
all other ways, a complex maze
they're not in control, predestined souls
the almighty hand, plug in program
till everything is gone
watch them work, prepare the quirk
and if they don't pray, they're gonna pay
they don't know why they hurt
and they don't know why--they're gonna die
they try their best to work

(shake it up, shake it up . . .)

created thus they are
amazingly come this far
only to fall again
hands of another One
decide how everything ends

(shake it up, shake it up . . .)

back and forth, up and down
everyone's jerked around
wait for the tone and everything's gone . . .

shake it up, shake it up
shake it up, shake forever
shake it up, shake it up . . .


("copywrite" 5:59 pm thursday november 2 1995)

don't get upset

Now don't get upset
But I think you're the most pathetic person
That I've ever met
I've got a girlfriend, I've got friends
A life full of excitement
Experiences that just never end
Don't get upset
But I see your family is all you've got
I have plenty problems but at least I'm not
As lonely as you . . .
I've got a girlfriend, I've got friends
And more friends and more friends
And more and more and more
And so much more than you . . .

I've lost nearly everything
But I think I'm making it through
Still got places to go and
Still got things to do
And look at you
Nowhere to go and
Nothing to do
Now don't get upset
But I'm sick of seeing you sit over there . . .
("Resume the position")
I think you'd die without that chair . . .
I have plenty problems
But at least I've got a life
Don't get upset
But that's just the way I see it . . .

Well I dare you to get a girlfriend
Dare you to get some friends
I think it's easier than you think . . .
(And I'm sick of seeing you sit over there . . .)
Just jump in and I'll watch you sink . . .
(There are alternatives everywhere . . .)
Don't get upset
But I just don't understand you
'Cause it's so easy . . .
Just can't comprehend how you
Can just stay lonely . . .
You do nothing and
I think maybe you're just lazy . . .
That's just the way I come across . . .

Now please don't get upset
But I think you're the most pathetic person
That I've ever met
("Resume the position")
Where do the letters go
Who do you talk to
And who responds . . .
Where do you want to go
What do you want to do
Just get out there and do it!

I'm sick of seeing you sit over there . . .
I think you'd die without that chair . . .


("copywrite" 10:48 am saturday december 2 1995)

piss off

Ladies and gentlemen
Boys and girls
The most wonderful
Show in the world
Where I must sit up front . . .
So everyone can make fun . . .
Ask me why I'm quiet
Tell me that I'm weird
Then treat me like shit and
See if I'll be scared
See if I'll be scared
See if I'll be frightened
See if I'll be scared . . .
See if I'll be scared
See if I'll be scared
See if I'll be threatened
See if I'll be scared
When you treat me like shit
'Cause you think I'm a little bit
Too different
Ask me about my silence
Ask me about my hair
Wonder why I take it and
Act like I don't care . . .
Test my tolerance
See how long it will take
Test my patience
See if I can break
See if I'll be frightened
See if I'll be scared

And spread the word and tell the world
And everyone said I looked like a girl
And everyone thinks I never care
Everyone thinks I'd never dare
Tell the world what it is that I think.

I'm gonna be what I want to be
Well I'm gonna do what I want to do
So piss off, piss off
'Cause I'm gonna do what I want to do
And I'm gonna be what I want to be
Well I'm gonna say what I want to say
So piss off, piss off
'Cause I'm gonna say what I want to say

Ladies and gentlemen
Boys and girls
The most wonderful
Show in the world
Where I'm the starred attraction . . .
I'm the starred attraction . . .
Ask me of my sex and
Ask me if I'm queer
Then treat me like shit but
Tell me why you care
Tell me why you care
See that I'm not threatened
Tell me why you care . . .
Tell me why you care
Tell me why you care
See that I'm not frightened
See that I'm not scared
When you treat me like shit
'Cause you think that I'm a little bit
Too different
Wonder about my actions
And about what I wear
Wonder why I take it and
Wonder if I'm scared . . .
Test my tolerance--
Test my resistance
Test my tolerance
Test my patience
Decide that I am weak and
Decide I've got no guts
But see that I'm not frightened
See that I'm not scared

And spread the word and tell the world
And see if they care that I've had no girls
And everyone thinks that I don't mind
Everyone thinks they'd never find me
Telling the world what it is that I think

Oh I'm gonna be what I want to be
I'm gonna do what I want to do
So piss off, piss off
'Cause I'm gonna do what I want to do
And I'm gonna be what I want to be
I'm gonna say what I want to say
So piss off, piss off
'Cause I'm gonna say what I want to say

So spread the word and tell the world
Piss off, piss off
Oh spread the word and tell the world
Piss off, piss off
See if I'm scared

I'll tell the world what it is that I think
Telling the world what it is that I think
So piss off, piss off
That's what I think
That's what I say
Piss off.


("copywrite" 8:35 am monday january 23 1995