Your primary self as an "I am", is sustained by your temperament or disposition make-up. Your first true awareness of this spiritual being will occur within your physical body usually in the area of your aorta or heart. It can happen any time in your life. The spirit affects your solar plexus located near your sternum, which is a network of nerves situated at the upper part of the abdomen, behind the stomach wall. A physical or mental blow to that part of the body effects this nerve center. When you fall in love, the love feeling is strongly felt in this part of your structure. It's like surrendering your mind, (brain) to your soul, (heart) the center of your being. If you spread your legs and raise your arms out and above your head you will see that the solar plexus is the center of your body. The activity of observing yourself primarily is to focus your attention on this part of your body. The manifestation of feeling yourself as a person is proclaimed in that part of your organism. That is why we say we had a change of heart when we change our mind, etc. In learning to meditate by repeating a mantra, such as OM or at the end of a prayer saying Amen is like declaring to yourself, I Am. Meditation is a way of contacting the center of your being which is not a physical entity but rather is, from your center, it is the very space field extending outwardly, in all directions around you, infinitely.
When Moses ask God, "Behold, when I come unto the children of Israel, and shall say unto them, The God of your fathers hath sent me unto you; and they shall say to me, What is his name? what shall I say unto them? And God said unto Moses, I AM THAT I AM: and he said, Thus shalt thou say unto the children of Israel, I AM hath sent me unto you." Exodus 3; 13, 14 We as enlighten human beings are a part of that Spirit and we must stand up for ourselves and say to the world I AM. The bible may be thought of as a record of how God's Spirit, through years of association with the Israelite people sought to gain control of those people. Making covenants, giving them laws to abide by. Finally He appeared among them in the form of Jesus Christ, so that they may have the eternal life that was taken away from them, which is told in the Adam and Eve story. Now we, also, through that sacrifice of God in Christ, may enjoy the prospects of an eternal life when we believe in God and his message to us through Jesus Christ.
To the Gentiles among us, it is interesting to note that ancient Gentiles worship God. The Gentile king, Melchizedek, was a priest. Genesis, Chap.14, 18 "And Melchizedek king of Salem brought forth bread and wine: and he was the priest of the most high God. (Heb. El Elyon) His priesthood was very important for the Jews. The Apostle Paul proclaimed that Jesus was made a high priest after the order of Melchizedek. Heb. 6, 20. The interpretation of his name was "King of righteousness. King of Salem which is King of peace. Heb. Chapter 7 gives much more information on this King and how he is related to the priesthood of God.
The physical and mental instinctual habits, desire, needs and thoughts all make their demands for your undivided attention and you must decide to whom you will pay attention. The demands they make upon you may clutter and dismay this inner self that has to make the decision as to which direction you are going to travel in your life. Left to its own devises the physical desires will win out over the more saner thoughts, on balance. Then too, our daily life may become so overwhelmingly complex that we are swept along in a semi-conscious hazy state of being to a point where our environment takes over rendering us in a hypnotic state to such a degree that we become almost like zombies doing the biding of every one but our selves. Therefore, I say observe yourself. Step back and take a look at ourself. What are you doing and where are you going. Are you the one in control of yourself? Are you the one that has decided who you are today? Have you left it to another to make that decision for you? Think about it for a moment and make your own observations.
