Title - A Chance to Remember (2/4)
Story six In the Doors and Walls Universe
Author - Katrinka
Authors Email: Katrinka@flash.net
Rating - R
Classification - MSR 
Spoilers - Requiem
Timing: This story takes place three days after Reflections in the Waves
Keywords - A/U what if 
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Authors note: In this story, Mulder and Scully deal with becoming Tomorrow People, but it
is not a crossover. 
Summary: After returning to work, Scully must deal with her amnesia. Mulder must make the hardest choice in his life. 

What can I do?
Pictures of you still make me cry
Trying to live without your love
It's so hard to do
Some nights I'll wake up
I'll look at your pillow
Hoping that I'll see you there
But I get up each day, not much to say
I've nowhere to go
Loneliness fills me up inside
'Cause I'm missing you
So if you'll give us a chance to remember
The love we had once together
Wait and see
Time is all that we really need
Don't Let It End By Dennis DeYoung

As the credits for the Princess Bride rolled, Scully asked Mulder if he would like to stay the night. Mulder agreed, but he had insisted on sleeping on the couch. His partner had enough to worry about without Mulder's problems.  The dreams, he didn't want to wake her with one of his nightmares. 

The nightmare came soon after Mulder fell asleep. 

Christmas, a time that they should have been together. Mulder could see Scully putting ornaments on a small tree. She was alone in her apartment. Mulder had made it a tradition to find a reason to spend the night when she decorated her apartment. Perhaps it was because he had never had a tree when he was a child. Perhaps he was fascinated by a holiday he had never celebrated. Perhaps it was another way for him to be closer to his partner. She had always seemed interested in sharing his holiday with him. 

Now Scully was alone, going through the motions of a tradition that they shared. Scully's hand went to her growing stomach, caressing the babies within. *Daddy would be here if he could. *

*I miss him so much. *

There was a tapping at her door. Scully went and got it. Standing there was Byers. "Hey Byers."

"Can I come in?" Byers was holding a present.

"Of course," Scully moved to let him in. 

"I'm surprised to find you here. I thought you would be going to your mothers house."

"Not after what happened at Thanksgiving." Scully shut and locked the door.

"What happened?"

"I had to spend the day listening to my brother ranting and raving about the self-centered bastard that knocked me up then ran out on me." Scully turned back to the tree, and picked up an ornament. 

"I'm sorry."

"Not your fault." 

"You wouldn't want to spend Christmas with Langly, Frohike and me would you?" Byers paused. "I won't call Mulder a bastard once."

Scully nodded. "Sounds perfect."

"I think you need to know something about Mulder." 

"What?" Scully picked up the menorah that she had bought for her partner. She put it on the dining room table. She would light the candles for her partner. The way he had in years past.

Byers took the candles from Scully, and put them in the holder. "Mulder had a premonition about Oregon."

"Oh really." Scully couldn't keep the skepticism out of her voice. 

"He gave himself to the aliens." 

"He *let* himself be taken?" Scully demanded.

"He knew it would happen."

"Damn it!" Scully hit the table hard. "Why didn't he do something to keep himself from being kidnapped?"

"Scully..."

"He should have brought me with him!" Tears stung her eyes. "I might have been able to protect him."

"You don't know that."

"He dumped me again." The tears began to flow. "My brother's right. He ran off and left me. I might never get him back."

"Mulder was given the choice, you and the babies, or him." Byers said softly. "He had to choose himself."

"Mulder didn't know I was pregnant!"

"He knew, I don't know how he knew, but he did." Byers reached out and touched Scully. "He loved you. That's why he gave himself up."

The scene shifted, Scully was lying on a bed, her arms and legs restrained to the bed. In the distance, she could hear the wail of babies. An alien showed her a basinette. Inside two human babies lay, moving around in discomfort. She could hear in her mind. *These are your children. *

"My babies." Scully gasped. "I need my babies."

*Your children will be fulfilling a scientific need, as you will be. *

A drill lowered from the ceiling. Scully horrified watched the drill coming towards her, and then it began to cut her chest. Scully screamed.

Mulder woke in a cold sweat. He looked around the room. Scully's apartment, he was back inside his partner's apartment. He had been dreaming again. The dream had given him the choice again. His life or the life of the woman he loved. The choice frightened him. He didn't know if he was strong enough to give himself up for testing. 

Mulder got off the couch. He folded the blankets, then he went into Scully's bedroom. She was sleeping soundly. He knelt beside her, brushing hair off her face. "I can't let them hurt you."

Scully moaned in her sleep. He couldn't tell Scully she was pregnant. It was too soon since conception. *My dreams might not be true. * His hand went to her stomach. He could feel the life force of the twins. 

*Our babies. * He telepathed to them. *Your mommy's going to be surprised when she finds out about you. *

*Miracle children. * He kissed Scully gently and left the room.

**********************


The very idea of having to stay at a hospital terrified Scully. She knew it was an irrational fear, but the fact remained that she was afraid.  Scully couldn't remember why she would be afraid of a medical center, she just knew she was. 

*This is ridiculous. I'm a doctor. I shouldn't be afraid of hospitals. * Scully told herself.

When Scully woke, she found herself alone in the apartment. Mulder's pillow and
Blankets were folded neatly on the couch. On top of that, was a piece of paper.

Lady,
I had to run an errand. I'll be back in a few minutes.
Love
Mulder

Scully decided that she needed coffee. She went to the kitchenette. She looked to see where she kept her coffee. It wasn't in its usual place. 

*Perhaps I am going crazy. *

* I don't even know were the coffee is! *

Scully began to hunt for the coffee. She found an electric coffee grinder where her plates used to be. Then the search began for the coffee. Scully hunted and hunted, but couldn't find even a coffee bean. 

*Let's see if there is any juice."*

Scully opened the refrigerator. Inside, on one of the door shelves was a package of whole
bean coffee. She picked it up. "Mochichino crunch" read the package. Scully had a brief flash of memory. Mulder had given her the coffee, and the grinder as 
a present. She could remember his smile as she told him that she appreciated
 it. They had kissed afterwards. She could still remember the hunger in his kiss.  

Then just as suddenly, the memory was gone. 

*Coffee. * She reminded herself. 

A few minutes later, the room was filled with the smell of fresh coffee. 
Scully poured herself a cup, added some milk, and then took a sip. It was good,
 if she did say so herself. She went to the couch, refolded the blanket,
 then sat down. She turned on the morning news. 

An election ad played. A small thing, but one more reminder that Scully had 
lost over a year. 

Mulder suddenly appeared in the living room. He held a bag full of take
 out food. Scully jumped about three inches. "Mulder don't do that!"

"What's wrong?" There was concern in his eyes.

"Popping in like that!"

"Its called teleporting." Mulder set the food on the coffee table. "Can I 
have some coffee?"

"Sure." Scully shrugged.

Mulder went to the coffeepot, and poured himself a cup. Then he went back 
to Scully, he put the blankets on the floor, and sat down. 

"The blankets don't live on the floor." Scully pointed out.

"I'll put them up after breakfast." Mulder promised.

"So what's for breakfast?"

Mulder opened the bag. "Authentic Japanese food." 

"Japanese food for breakfast?" Scully raised an eyebrow.

"Don't beat it until you tried it." Mulder smiled at her. He handed her a box. 

Scully opened it. She had to admit that Mulder had gotten her favorite 
dish. "So what place would be open this early?" She asked as she took 
a bite. "This is really good." 

"It's not early in Tokyo." Mulder shrugged. 

"You can't really say you went to Tokyo." Scully said skeptically.

"Yes I did." Mulder gave a half smile as he began eating. "That's the 
good thing about being a Tomorrow Person, the world's you home."

"Let me guess, you went to Tokyo to get the latest Godzilla movie, and
 decided to buy me breakfast."

Mulder took a DVD out of his jacket pocket. He set it on the table. 
"Godzilla 2000 with subtitles." 

"Your incorrigible." Scully told him.

"I know." Mulder smiled.

***************

Ng Hsui Tai was the name of the doctor that Scully would be under the 
care of. For some reason, Mulder seemed to be a lot less worried about
 Scully going into the hospital. Mulder drove Scully to the mental
 hospital. Scully had volunteered at a mental hospital before. She knew 
what a horrible place that lived behind the walls.

The hospital that Mulder took her to didn't really look like a hospital.
 Instead it looked like an Edwardian mansion. 

"The FBI doesn't usually send people here, do they?" Scully asked.

"I have connections." Mulder said with a half grin.

"We have to do what Skinner ordered us to. That means us going to the 
appropriate hospital." She reminded him.

Mulder shrugged. "Well, Skinner did sign the authorization for you to
 come here."

"What did you do to him to make him sign the forms?"

Mulder shrugged. "Nothing! I simply asked him to sign the form."

Scully looked at the small sign that was attached to the wall beside the 
front door. "Shansu Mental Health Clinic." 

*What kind of place is this? *

"Are we going to go in, or are we just going to sit here?" Mulder asked her.

Scully came to a decision. "We better go in." 

***************

Scully wasn't in a hurry to come into the clinic. She followed Mulder,
 almost a full pace behind him. Her partner carried her overnight
 case. She wondered why he would do that. It would be taken away 
from her when she checked in. 

A Monk sat at the reception desk. He looked up to Mulder. "Can I help you?"

"Yes, Dana Scully to check in."

"Yes, we've been expecting her." The man touched a button. "I'll have 
a monk show you to your room."

"Don't I need to complete paperwork?" Scully asked.

"No, that's all ready been completed." 

Another Monk came into the room. "You must be Scully. I'll show you to
 your room."

"I expect you want my bag."

"No, keep it." 

"Can I come with her?" Mulder asked.

"Of course." The second Monk said. 

Scully followed Mulder and the Monk. The rooms she passed looked more like dorms
then mental hospital rooms. Residents watched television or read books. 

The Monk stopped at a door. He opened it. "This will be your room Dr. Scully."

Scully couldn't help but notice that the outside of the door didn't have 
a lock. She went inside. The room looked nice. A bed, television, there 
was even a computer. Mulder put the suitcase on the bed. 

"There's something wrong with this place." Scully told Mulder.

"What's wrong?"

"I've worked in mental hospitals. They don't look like this." Scully 
looked at the man. "Where is my real room?"

"I don't understand." the Monk sounded confused.

"I am a doctor. I know what a real mental hospital room looks like. What
 their procedures are. This place doesn't have any of them."

"That's because Dr. Ng's clinic is different from other mental hospitals." 
The man explained. "The Brotherhood believes in kindness." 

"The brotherhood?" Scully asked.

"The Brotherhood of Shansu. They work very closely with Dr. Ng. We 
believe in good works." The Monk looked at both of them. "I'll leave 
you to say your good-byes." With that, the Monk left.

"The monks of Shansu." Scully said. "Didn't I read something in one of your files about that?" 


"Yes, you probably did. A Tibetan religion. They used to believe in 
child gods, keeping the gods in seclusion until they were burnt at
 puberty." Mulder explained. "They gave it all up in 1978, they now 
dedicate themselves to doing good works, in the names of their
Gods."

"Are you sure they stopped their child murders?" Scully asked.

"I'm positive of it." Mulder said firmly. "I've investigated them."

"What happens if they aren't what they say they are?"

"If something happens, you can teleport away." Mulder told her. 

"I'll end up in the ocean." she reminded him. "I can't control my 
teleporting yet."

"If that happens, call me. I'll fish you out." Mulder promised. He kissed her very gently. The contact between them was electrifying. Then her partner pulled away from her. "I need to go."

Scully realized what she needed. She needed to feel her partner's touch again. She went to him, putting her arms around him. Mulder stiffened slightly under the touch. "Kiss me again."

"I can't" there was regret in his voice. 

"Every time you touch me, I remember something else. I need you. Please."

Mulder looked into her eyes, thinking. His fingers went to her cheek, caressing it. Then his lips descended onto hers. As her mouth opened into the kiss, memories flooded into her mind. She could feel Mulder's arms tighten around her, crushing her to him. She could feel the passions he was holding back. He had missed her in his bed. This emptiness was as hard on him as it was on her. 

Then Mulder was holding her in his arms, her head tucked under his chin. "I'm sorry, I can't do anymore. I'm afraid. I'll force you into doing something you don't want to." Mulder's fingers caressed her hair; his lips brushed her forehead. "I can't force you to love me. I want you to do it on your own."

"It's okay, I understand."

There was a slight tapping on the door. Mulder's arms tightened around Scully. "What is it?"

"It is time for you to go." A monk told him. "It is almost time for Ms. Scully's appointment with Dr. Ng."

Mulder pulled away from Scully. There was regret in his eyes. "If you need me, just call."

"I will." Scully promised.

*I love you. * Mulder told her telepathically.

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