Back For Good
You've been away for a long time, did you ever worry
it was all over for you?
It's difficult to think back and remember exactly how I was feeling, especially because at the moment I've got such drive in me and anything seems possible. I suppose I was scared to leave it too long, but I know I had to go away and spend time changing things around because I'd lost my direction and i could see myself having a couple of flop singles and having to make some kind of cheesy come back, so I had to go away.
Were you worried your fans would forget you?
Yes, a litle, especially because my fan club closed when I changed managers and no one would have got a reply to their letters, which I'd really like to apologise for. But I've a great team of people around me and it motivated me so much, that I think now. This is my time. Let's have it!
You've been away for ages, first inLA and then here in
Italy. Were you ever really lonely and homesick?
When I was in LA I was ok, because I was only there for three weeks and to be honest, I went out there to get fit and live the high life. When I came to I taly it was to work. I was living out in the middle of nowhere on my own, in a villa with a recording studio and it got a bit lonely, but it served it's purpose because I went to bed early and got up early and focused on making the best record I could.
What keeps you awake at night?
I suppose I'm nervous about releasing a single again, but I've learnt to not worry too much about things because I'd have got a positive outlook and everything is cool.
Are you in love at the moment?
With myself!! Ha! Ha! I'm not, no! Have I got a special someone? Well there is someone back in Manchester who I'm very close to but, and I know everyone says this, there really isn't the time or opportunity to meet someone. I used to worry that I was never going to meet someone. I thoght I'd be on my own forever, but now I know something happen when it's meant to, so I don't worry anymore.
Have you ever made any sacrifices for love?
The Greatest sacrifice I've made is spending so much time in solitude, but my ambition will get me through.
Would you give up your career for a girl?
That's a tough question. It would have to be a special circumstance...or a very special girl!
Are you a spiritual person?
Yes, in fact, something 'spiritual' happens to me everyday. What sort of things? Well, coincidences. I see them more as signs, that I'm being guided along a path. My mom's phychic and I believe it's hereditary.
What worries you about your future?
The thing that worries me most is that, if the record takes off, I'm going to have to spend a lot of time on my own. I'm open to negatively when I'm lonely.
What are your hopes for future?
That everything goes well with the record. I'd like to tour with dancer and do the whole shebang and I'm looking forward to releasing my second single which is brilliant, full-on balled. But my greatest hope is that I find true happiness.
What's your worst quality?
pessimism. I also think I'm too honest, but in an ideal world that wouldn't be a bad quality. I used to have real trouble with jealousy too, it's a real Scorpio personality trait and to make it worse, I would just internalise it and it would destroy me from the inside.
And your best?
I thnik it's that I've learnt to enjoy the moment and not worry about tomorrow. It's a difficult thing to do, but I found that I used to worry about a million and one different things and it made me completely negative. So now I try and live for now. It's not easy, but I'm trying.
When was the last time you cried and why?
I can't cry! I find it very difficult. The last time I came close was when I was in Taiwan. I had to leave this chilled-out enviroment in I taly to go back to boring hotel rooms and back to being alone again. It cut me up.
Tell me something you've never told anyone else.
Wow! That's a tough too. I think it's that there's more to me than meets the eye. People have a preconceived idea about ehat I;m like, based on the magazines ot TV, but often it's nothing like me. Hopefully, with this new record, I can show that there's more to me.
What can't you be without?
I know it sounds superficial but it's my mobile phone. Especially when I'm away, it connects me to my friends and family, which is really important because of how lonely I can get.
Do you think you're great?
Of course, I do, yeah. I think you have to in this business because pop can be so fickle and it could be very easy to stop believing in yourself. I don't think you should be cocky about it, but you should be positive.
Are you vain?
I'm happy with the way I look and I like looking good...and knowing that makes me feel good. I think I took in the mirror about a hundred times a day!
How good looking are you?
Some days it's a ten and others it's a two. I wake up sometimes looking like something out of Star wars!
How good a singer are you?
I think I'm a great singer! With the new album, evryone's saying,' WOw! You can really sing!' I've written most of the songs and i 'm happy with them. I'd buy it, if it wasn't me so that's a very good sign.
What's your biggest single regret?
Thay would be releaing Crazy Chance. I hated the song from day one! I still regret not making more of the fact that I wrote seven of the songs on the album. If I could turn back time, I'd make people aware that I write my own songs.
And finally, are you happy with your life at the
Yes, I'm happier now then I've been in the last two or three years. I'm in controlof what happens to me now.
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