Mommaknucks

I have been saved for 12 years..Before I met the LORD I was an I.V. Drug user, and a drunk. I began using just pot when I was 13, and moved on from there.

By the time I was on my own, I was heavily involved in the drug world. When I was 21 years old my nose gave out from snorting too much speed. I tried to drink it in hot coco, and coffee but I was not getting the full benefit. So a friend of mine offered to shot me up for the first time. I was hooked! I spent the next 2 years racing down the road to hell.

I was involved in the motorcycle scene (Harleys Only PLEASE!) The people I ran with were murderers, and hard core criminals...in and out of the penitentiary, I kept in contact with them by writing, and visiting. They came to my apartment, and I went to them. These were the guys in movies...tattooed everywhere...long beards, long hair, levi's and leather. I speak as if I was outside of that.. No I was one of them...leather halters, tattooes, (I have 7 of them) I used, and was used. Thru this lifestyle I eventually hooked up with 2 specific men. They both were deeply involved in the occult. One who claimed to be the son of charles manson ( I will never know if this is the truth, I can only assume it was) gave me drawings all the time...they had alot of demonic stuff in them, I never noticed it! The other, had done acid once and had a visitation by a demon...the demon gave him his own language, and he made a contract in that language and agreed to make me one too! I began by having spirits visit me in my bed...I was touched by them physically, spoken to by them, then PULLED out of my body. At the same time this was happening to me a friend of mine was experiencing her own manifestations of these spirits...(we both knew these two guys) her spirits would hold her down in bed with claws of a monster...hairy hands with long claws...I add this because I want you to understand THE DEVIL IS REAL..DEMONS ARE REAL...this is not a game or a joke my friends...you mess with things you do not understand and this could be your story next! I eventually got so strung out that I lost everything..my car was stolen, my clothes were in my car..My phone book was in my car...I had no shoes, no coat, no pants that fit..I had gotten very thin on the drugs...I am 5'8" tall .... at the worst point I was wearing a size 1... I was certain I looked great! (no one said drugs make you smart!) Those whom I refered to as my friends abandonded me. I was always the one who would do ANYTHING! No one had to ask me twice! I scared guys off with my antics...I was the tuffest, baddest, craziest, wildest, loosest thing running...I made my own rules, and if you couldn't hang...get out of the way! After my car was stolen I was taken to a house by a guy who was "going to help me" He took me into a house where a bike club had their clubhouse...he took me there so I could be killed...someone had marked me as a sntich...the person who did this was also the person who had taken my car! At any rate he took me to this house so I could be taken care of! PERMANENTLY! Well GOD was in this place! I did not know it then...but there is no question in my mind now! The president of the club happened to be someone whom I had written to in prison! I had sent him money weekly, and he had "owed me a favor" He repaid the favor by getting me out of there ALIVE, and to a house where I would be safe. This was another clubs fathers house...I took care of the man there, and had a place to stay in return. I found the mother load! I had all the dope I wanted...I was adored by this man, and my every whim was to be met! Then another knock at the door changed directions for me again. It was a person who had been visited by my mom. He said I did not belong with this crew, that I had a good family, and my mom was worried sick about me...I needed to go home. I did, I agreed to leave the state for 2 weeks with my mom...When we left I had been awake for 9 days...I was admitted to a drug ward with my consent 24 hours after we landed in missouri. I was doing it to appease my mom, and had no intention of sticking to it.

Then as I filled out the paperwork to be admitted Rick walked in (yes, that is my husband) I slept for the first 3 days I was there..They had to cut my jewlery off my hands because They got swollen, and black and blue from lack of dope being shot in them! I could not bend my fingers because of the swelling...they said I was in kidney failure when I arrived there. Yes, I guess I was knocking on the door of death. After a week there I marched out...well stormed out...They did not like me there...and the fact that one of the floor nurses was dating rick did not help me at all! He did not hide his intrest in me, nor did I hide my intrest in him..this girl was fumming and made my life hard...so what!! Remember I did not care! Well to carry on I stayed with my aunt..I slept in her basement...I set up an alter to satan, with candles, and the works..but I said "THE LORDS PRAYER" every night to go to sleep...you see I had been told by a woman at a mystique's shop that "DARKNESS CAN'T STAND THE LIGHT" I burned white candles, at her suggestion! and slept with the lights on, so I would not be visited by the spirits anymore...Well for non-christians out there let me tell you that the devil is a liar! Yes, it is true...darkness can't stand the light...Darkness=satan....and the Light=CHRIST. This is a statement from the bible...found in 2nd Corinthians 6:14. Darkness can have no fellowship with the light!

I again was visited in my aunts basement by demons...This time I was laying down on one of the couch's getting ready to go to sleep...the lights were on, and my mom, and aunt were above me and I could hear them talking. Then I could not move! NOT AN INCH! I was paralyzed...totally from head to toe...The lights dimmed in the room...every piece of furniture in the room raised up, including the couch I was on....slowly to the ceiling...then a voice (who I believed at the time to be the devil himself) said to me: "YOUR MINE" the furniture slowly returned to the floor, the lights came back up, and my ability to move was restored. I fled in terror up the stairs...I could hear my mom, and my aunt talking the whole time this was taking place...this was not a hallucination...this was a last ditch attempt to keep me from the TRUTH!

Within a month I was in southern missouri living with rick, and planning on marrying him as soon as my parents could return for the wedding. We were sitting around one saturday when I asked rick about the end of the world...he said it was in the bible...I had an old bible so we dug it out, and looked up revelation...we read the whole book that day..and only had 3 questions! *s* Ricks mom invited us to church the next day, and we accepted. Now during this time, rick was having to pray nightly with me so I could sleep. He would say THE LORDS PRAYER over and over with me until I fell asleep...I would cry and tell him GOD wouldn't want ME! THE DEVIL SAID I BELONGED TO HIM! Why would a wonderfull GOD want trash like me? I was not good enough to be GODS.

Well GOD DID, AND STILL DOES WANT ME! I recieved CHRIST in a car...rick recieved HIM at the same time! Our lives have never been the same since! I was healed of my desire for drugs...My skin was healed of the marks from the needles! We both began reading the WORD, and daily seeking GODS guidence...HE is wonderful! HE IS ALL FORGIVING! and please know that if I CAN BE FORGIVEN....YOU CAN TOO!!!!!!!!! He that is in me is greater than he that is in the world.

The lord wants you to recieve his mercy! He is loving, and he is forgiving...but he will not FORCE himself into your life...he is the most gracious of GODS...You must request his presence in your life...so today..while you can feel him there...Ask him to come into your heart! Tell him you believe he is JESUS the CHRIST...the SON OF THE LIVING GOD...that he died on a cross FOR YOU! and that you want to accept him as your LORD and SAVIOR!

Then get a bible, and get to a church! Which church? there are many wonderful fellowships...the only thing you need to be sure of is that the church allows you to read the WORD of GOD for yourself...NEVER TAKE SOMEONES WORD FOR WHAT THE BIBLE SAYS!!!! ALWAYS LOOK IT UP!!!! In this way you can avoid the stumbling blocks of the devil! Baptist church's, Church of christ, calvary baptist church...these are all bible believing places to go! You will not be confronted by the "david koresh's" in one of these church's.

Pray, read the WORD, and fellowship with other believers. GOD WILL HEAL YOUR HEART, BODY, and SOUL...GOD BLESS YOU!

Can I answer questions? can I guide you further? Please e-mail me.... It would be my honor!

With LOVE IN CHRIST FOREVER! YOUR SISTER, Betty

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