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I'M NOT WORTH YOUR TEARS
I'VE BEEN THROUGH
SO MANY THINGS IN MY LIFE
AND NOW ITS TIME TO BE FREE
TO FIND OUT WHO I AM AND WHAT I WANT.
I CAN'T GO ON LIVING LIKE THIS ANYMORE,
FOR THE MORE I GO ON.
I'M GOING TO EXPLODE.
I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU CRY.
FOR BABY, I'M NOT WORTH YOUR TEARS.
FOR, I'VE CAUSED YOU PAIN AND SORROW.
DON'T SHED YOUR TEARS FOR ME.
SOMETIMES I DON'T UNDERSTAND ME.
BUT, JUST MAYBE
ONE OF THESE DAYS I WILL.
I FEEL LONELY AND BLUE INSIDE
AND I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU CRY.
FOR BABY,
I'M NOT WORTH YOUR TEARS.
FOR IF I'VE CAUSED YOU PAIN AND SORROW,
DON'T SHED YOUR TEARS FOR ME.
REMEMBER WHEREVER I GO,
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.
I LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS WILL.
I JUST WANT MY FREEDOM
AND TRY AND FIND OUT WHO I AM.
ITS NOT YOUR FAULT I'M THE WAY I AM.
IT'S ME, NOT YOU.
SO REMEMBER, I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU CRY.
FOR BABY, I'M NOT WORTH YOUR TEARS.
FOR I'VE CAUSED YOU PAIN AND SORROW.
DON'T SHED YOUR TEARS FOR ME.
JUST PLEASE DON'T CRY OVER ME.
I'M NOT WORTH YOUR TEARS
BY MARITA MYLES
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WICKED LADY
I'M A WICKED LADY
YOU USED ME ONCE
YOU'RE GONNA USE ME NO MORE
FOR I'M GONNA GET YOU BACK
AND I'M GONNA MAKE YOU WANT ME
FOR AFTER I'M THROUGH WITH YOU
YOU WON'T WANT HER NO MORE
I'M GONNA TIE YOU UP
WHIP YOU GOOD
TREAT YOU MEAN AND DIRTY
YOU'RE GONNA BEG ME TO STOP
BUT, I'M GONNA KEEP ON HURTING
JUST LIKE YOU HURT ME
SHES GONNA LEAVE YOUR ASS
WONDERING WHAT THE HELL WENT ON
SHE KNOWS YOU MESSED AROUND
FOR I'M THE ONE WHO'S
GONNA HAVE YOU NOW
BY MARITA MYLES
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TOO HARD TO SAY I'M SORRY
JUST TWO WORDS IS ALL
THAT SHE WOULD ASK OF ME
AND I COULD
HAVE THE WORLD
AND ALL THAT IT HOLDS FOR ME.
OF LOVE AND
TENDER CARE,
NOT THE PAIN AND THE SORROW,
THAT WILL BE MINE
TOMMORROW.
BUT I JUST CAN'T SEEM
TO SAY IT, I'M SORRY.
I KNOW
EXACTLY WHAT I SHOULD DO.
ADMIT I'M WRONG.
IT WOULDN'T TAKE
LONG AND
I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT I OUGHT TO SAY,
BUT I'M NOT BUILT
THAT WAY.
I WISH THAT I COULD SAY I'M SORRY.
I'M A MAN, AT LEAST
THATS WHAT I LIKE TO THINK.
A STUBBORN MAN, BUT NOW IS STANDING
ON THE BRINK
OF PAIN AND DESPAIR AND I CARE
AND I'M SORRY AND I OUGHT TO TELL HER.
BUT I JUST CAN'T SEEM TO SAY I'M SORRY.
I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT I SHOULD DO.
BUT I'M A FOOL.
I GUESS I'LL DO THE THINGS FOOLS DO,
I'LL STAND AND IN MY STUBBORN WAYS
AND AS THEY THINK,
I'LL SAY I'M SORRY.
BY MARITA MYLES
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I FEEL LONELY WITHOUT YOU
I SIT HERE ALONE FEELING
SO EMPTY AND LONELY
I THINK OF YOU OFTEN
EVERY MINUTE OF THE DAY
WONDERING HOW YOU ARE
WHAT YOU ARE DOING
WISHING I COULD HOLD YOU
I SIT REMEMBERING ALL WE'VE SHARED
DREAMING OF ALL THAT WILL BE
AND CRYING A TEAR FOR EVERY MINUTE
WE ARE APART
AT TIMES I TELL MYSELF I AM STRONG
AND THE TIME APART WILL GO QUICKLY
YET AT OTHERS I SIT AND CRY
AND WONDER WHY LOVE
MUST HURT THIS WAY
THOUGH SOMEWHERE
IN THE LONELINESS...
SOMEWHERE IN THE EMPTINESS
I FIND MYSELF FEELING VERY LOVED
AND I REALIZE THAT
ITS NOT THE LOVING
THAT HURTS SO MUCH
ITS BEING WITHOUT YOU
BY MARITA MYLES
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TAKE THE TIME
ITS REALLY MUCH TOO
SOON FOR ME TO KNOW
IF THIS LOVE I FEEL WILL GROW
SO IF YOU WANT,
LETS TAKE TONIGHT TO FIND OUT
CAUSE...THE WAY I FEEL TONIGHT
EVERYTHING WILL BE ALL RIGHT
FOR I WILL KEEP YOUR CANDLE BURNING
WHY NOT OPEN UP YOUR HEART TO ME
FOR I CAN SEE
THAT LOVE LIGHT OF YOURS GLOWING
JUST LET ME HELP IT KEEP GLOWING
LETS TAKE THE TIME TONIGHT
FOR THE WAY I FEEL TONIGHT
I LOVE YOU
IF I CAN'T KEEP YOUR LOVE LIGHT GLOWING
THEN LETS TAKE THE TIME TO SEE IF
WE CAN WORK IT OUT
FOR YOU NEVER KNOW,
WE MAY FALL IN LOVE AGAIN
BUT ITS WAY TO MUCH
TO KNOW IF MY LOVE WILL GROW
AND I KNOW ITS GONNA
TAKE TIME FOR YOUR LOVE TO GROW
BUT I REALLY HOPE
WE CAN MAKE THINGS WORK OUT
BY MARITA MYLES
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DON'T UNDERSTAND
I DON'T UNDERSTAND ANYMORE
HE USED TO LOVE ME
NOW HE SAYS HATEFUL WORDS
HE TREATS ME LIKE DIRT
WHATEVER HAPPENED TO THE LOVE
ITS GONE AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW
WHAT WENT WRONG
I CAN'T KEEP ON LOVING HIM
FOR HE HAS HURT ME SO BAD
MENTAL ABUSE IS SO HORRIFYING
HE CALLS ME WORTHLESS, UGLY, AND FAT
WHY THE HARSH WORDS?
WHATEVER HAPPENED
TO THE LOVE WE USED TO HAVE?
ITS GONE AND I'VE BUILT A WALL
THAT CANNOT BE BROKEN DOWN
BY THIS MAN WHO USED TO LOVE ME
BY MARITA MYLES
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BECAUSE OF YOU
I FELL I LOVE, BECAUSE OF YOU
I LEARNED TO BE STRONG,
BECAUSE OF YOU
I HURT, BECAUSE OF YOU
I MOVED ON, BECAUSE OF YOU
BY AMANDA B.
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DON'T SHED TEARS
I DON'T KNOW WHATS COME OVER ME
I SEEM TO CAN'T TALK TO YOU ANYMORE
IS IT ME OR JUST THE WORLD
I DON'T EVEN KNOW
WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS
EVEN IF WE TRIED TO STAY TOGETHER
WOULD IT BE WORTH THE PAINS
BECAUSE I'M THE ONE WHO HURT YOU
YOU DIDN'T HURT ME. I'M TO BLAME
SO, DON'T BLAME THE PROBLEMS ON YOU
DON'T SHED TEARS FOR ME
FOR I'M NOT WORTH
THE SALT IN YOUR TEARS
JUST PLEASE DON'T BE HURT
BUT I KNOW THATS HARD TO DO
AFTER I'VE PUT YOU THROUGH SO MUCH PAIN
PLEASE DON'T GET ATTACHED TO ME
FOR I CANNOT GET ATTACHED TO NO ONE
FOR I AM A LONER, AT LEAST WANT TO BE
SO REMEMBER DON'T GET ATTACHED
TO SOMETHING YOU LOVE, FOR IT
ONLY HURTS YOU,
WHEN THAT SOMETHING YOU LOVE
IS NOT AROUND ANYMORE
FOR SOMETIMES I CAN'T TRUST MYSELF,
NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY
AND I DON'T LIKE TO HURT THINGS
ITS JUST I DON'T KNOW WHAT LOVE IS
AND I REALLY DON'T WANT TO KNOW
FOR LOVE CAUSES PAIN, SORROW,
TEARS, AND LOVE HURTS ALOT
SO DON'T FORCE ME TO LOVE,
FOR I CAN'T
BY MARITA MYLES
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TREASURED LOVE
YOU HOLD ME THE SAME WAY
THAT A MAN IN A ART GALLERY HOLDS
ONTO A MASTERPIECE
YOU LOOK AT ME SOMETIMES,
LIKE A PRINCE FROM A FAIRY TALE,
MIGHT LOOK AT HIS PRINCESS
YOU'VE MADE LOVE ONTO A CEREMONY
THAT REACHES TO THE DEEPEST PART OF MY HEART
ALL I HAD WANTED WAS TO LOVE YOU,
NOT KNOWING YOU'D RETURN A LOVE
FEW DARE TO DREAM ABOUT
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WILL THINGS EVER CHANGE IN MY LIFE
OR WILL IT BE
THE SAME THINGS DAY AFTER DAY.
ALWAYS DOING THE SAME OLD THINGS.
GETTING SO DULL.
CAN'T THINGS GET BETTER FOR ME.
I WANT A BETTER LIFE.
BUT WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO.
I HAVE TO GET UP AND
GET A HOBBY OR GO SOMEWHERE.
I NEED A VACATION,
SO I CAN GET SOME REST
FROM ALL MY WORRIES.
I NEED TO BE ALONE FOR AWHILE TO THINK,
TO GET TO KNOW MYSELF.
I HAVE TO GET AWAY
TO GET TO LIKE MYSELF AGAIN.
I'M GONNA CHANGE.
BY MARITA MYLES
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I DON'T KNOW
I SIT AND I WONDER WHY
HE TREATS ME THE WAY HE DOES
HE SAYS HE LOVES ME,
BUT WHY ALL THE PAIN AND HURT
THE HURTFUL WORDS
CUT ME LIKE A KNIFE
HE USED TO BE
SO SWEET AND KIND
BUT NOW THERES
A ANIMAL UNLEASHED IN HIM
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO
SHOULD I RUN AND HIDE
OR SHOULD I STAY AND FIGHT
I DON'T KNOW ANYMORE
IF HE'S THE SAME
ONE I USED TO LOVE
OR IF HE'S A COMPLETE STRANGER
BUT SOMEDAY I WILL FIND OUT
BUT FOR NOW THE WORDS
CAN KEEP CUTTING ME
MAYBE SOMEDAY HE WILL
BE THE RIGHT GUY AGAIN
ONLY TIME WILL TELL
BY MARITA MYLES
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FRIENDS
FRIENDS COME AND FRIENDS MAY GO
BUT IF YOU HAVE A TRUE FRIEND
THINGS BETWEEN YOU AND
YOUR FRIEND ARE A SECRET
SOME THINGS ARE A SECRET
BUT SOME THINGS AREN'T
FRIENDS WILL BE THERE,
NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS TO YOU
FRIENDS WILL NEVER TREAT YOU LIKE SHIT
BUT SOME FRIENDS DO
AND REMEMBER IF A FRIEND TREATS YOU
LIKE SHIT AND USES YOU,
THEN THAT FRIEND
ISN'T A TRUE FRIEND
BY VALERIE ENTWISTLE
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MAN IS FOOL
AS A RULE, A MAN IS A FOOL
WHEN IT IS HOT, HE WANTS IT COOL
WHEN IT IS COOL, HE WANTS IT HOT
ALWAYS WANTING WHAT IS NOT
BY AMBER JOSEPH
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THE HEART
THE HEART IS NOT A PLAY THING
THE HEART IS NOT A TOY
BUT IF YOU GIVE IT TO A BOY
HE'LL SAY HIS LOVE IS TRUE
BUT WHEN HE FINDS ANOTHER.
ITS TO HELL WITH YOU
BY VALERIE ENTWISTLE
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ALL I EVER WANTED
ALL I EVER WANTED WAS LOVE
ALL I EVER GET IS HURT
HURTING INSIDE
FROM ALL THE HEARTACHES
YOUR WORDS STABBING
THROUGH ME LIKE A KNIFE
WHEN ALL I EVER WANTED WAS LOVE
I CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP
WONDERING WHERE DID ALL MY YEARS GO
NEVER COULD I BE HAPPY
I ONLY WISH
THINGS WOULD OF CHANGED
BUT NOW THEY NEVER WILL
YOU ALWAYS SAY YOU LOVE ME
BUT DEEP DOWN INSIDE
I KNOW THOSE WORDS ARE LIES
YOU NEVER LOVED ME
AND NEVER WILL
FOR YOUR HURTFUL WORDS
CUT ME DOWN ALL THE TIME
NEVER HARDLY DOES
A KIND WORD COME FROM YOU
WHAT HAVE I DONE
TO MAKE YOU AHTE ME SO BAD
ALL I EVER WANTED WAS LOVE
BUT IN THE END
ALL I GOT WAS HURT
WILL I EVER BE LOVED AGAIN
OR WILL IT ALWAYS BE HURT
BY MARITA MYLES
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SOMETIMES I WONDER WHY
I ALWAYS WANT TO CRY
FOR I AM ALWAYS SAD
SOMETIMES SO VERY MAD
WHAT DID ALL THIS HURT DO TO ME
MAYBE ITS ALL BECAUSE OF ME
BUT AGAIN MY PAST IS BAD
AND IT MAKES ME VERY SAD
TO KNOW I WAS ROBBED
OF SO MUCH LIFE
NOW ALL I WANT TO DO IS LAUGH
I WANT TO BE ME
AND FEEL GOOD ABOUT ME
I WANT TO FEEL GOOD
AND BE HEARD
I MUST MAKE MY PAST BE HEARD
EVEN THOUGH IT MAY HURT
PEOPLE NEED TO KNOW
BY MARITA MYLES
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STAR
SOME PEOPLE DON'T REALIZE
THAT WHEN THEY LET
THEIR DOG RUN FREE AND
DON'T WATCH IT,
THEIR PUTTING THEIR DOG AT RISK
TO GET HIT BY A CAR.
ONE DAY IT DID GET HIT BY A CAR.
HOW MUCH LONGER UNTIL IT GETS HIT AGAIN?
HOW MUCH LONGER UNTIL ITS DEAD?
BY VALERIE ENTWISTLE
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MY LITTLE BROTHER
SEEING HIM STANDING THERE
HIS BLONDE HAIR BLOWING IN THE WIND
HIS SMILE ALWAYS BRIGHTENED YOUR DAY
HE WAS THE ONE THAT
COULD MAKE YOU LAUGH AND CRY
HE WAS SO KIND AND GENTLE
REMEMBERING THE BADTIMES
BUT WHAT THE HECK
EVERYONE HAS BAD TIMES
HE WAS THERE WHEN YOU NEEDED HIM
UNTIL ONE TERRIBLE NIGHT
SOMEONE TOOK HIS LIFE
AND DESTROYED SUCH A FINE KID
THEY TOOK HIS LIFE IN COLD BLOOD
SUCH A BRUTAL WAY TO GO
WHY DID THIS HAPPEN TO HIM
WHEN HE WAS SO YOUNG TO GO
BUT HE'S GONE TO BE WITH GOD
AND ONE DAY WE'LL ALL SEE HIM
UNTIL WE MEET
IN HEAVEN LITTLE BROTHER
REST IN PEACE
WE ALL LOVED YOU AND
WILL NEVER EVER FORGET YOU
DEDICATED TO MY LITTLE BROTHER
AFTER HE WAS KILLED
AT THE AGE OF 17 YEARS OLD
MARITA MYLES (HIS SISTER)
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I ALWAYS ASK MYSELF
WHAT DID I DO SO WRONG
I FEEL AS THOUGH I DON'T BELONG
THE SILENCE GROWS SO FAR APART
I THINK SOMETIMES
ITS BETTER IF WE PART
ALWAYS YELLING AT ME FOR NO REASON
WHY CAN'T THERE EVER BE A REASON
WHERE DID ALL THE LOVE GO
THAT I USED TO KNOW
HE SEEMS TO HATE ME
MORE AND MORE
WE CAN NEVER SEE EYE
TO EYE ANYMORE
SO I ALWAYS ASK
WHAT DID I DO WRONG
I KNOW DEEP DOWN
IN MY HEART I DON'T BELONG
THIS LOVE THAT ONCE WAS
SHOULD END AND
DIE LIKE A ROSE
MARITA MYLES
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I SIT ALONE IN THE DARKNESS,
THINKING OF ANYTHING
I JUST DON'T SLEEP.
TRYING TO FIGURE OUT MY LIFE
WHAT IS MY LIFE ALL ABOUT?
WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?
PRAYING TO GOD TO SHOW ME THE WAY.
WHAT IS MY PURPOSE HERE?
I NEED TO KNOW.
ITS KILLING ME INSIDE,
NOT KNOWING WHERE I STAND.
AM I AT ENDS ROPE
OR DO I HAVE A PURPOSE?
I WILL CONTINUE TO PRAY,
UNTIL GOD ANSWERS MY PRAYER
I NEED TO KNOW WHERE I STAND.
I KNOW I'M GOOD FOR SOMETHING
MARITA MYLES
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SHE TALKS ABOUT IT.
BUT SHE DON'T DO IT.
SHE WANTS TO LEAVE HIM,
BUT SHE IS HAVING A BABY.
SHE TELLS US SHE CAN'T LEAVE
BECAUSE OF THE BABY.
WE TRY AND TRY TO GET HER AWAY.
SHE WILL NOT LISTEN.
SHE TALKS ABOUT IT.
BUT SHE DON'T DO IT.
WE HAVE WARNED HER.
SHE DON'T CARE.
SO WE DON'T CARE.
I'M JUST SITTING AROUND WAITING
FOR THE PHONE CALL,
WHEN SHE CALLS,
I'LL JUST SAY,
YOU SHOULD HAVE LISTENED,
BUT ITS HOPLESS.
JEREMY JONES
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SHE SITS AND CRIES ALONE,
WONDERING WHERE SHE WENT WRONG
WHY THERES SO MUCH SILENCE
BETWEEN HIM AND HER
SHE WANTED LOVE FOR SO LONG.
SHE THOUGHT HE WAS THE ONE
HE USED TO LOVE HER SO MUCH.
BUT THEN THE SILENCE CAME
THE WALL SLOWLY STARTED BUILDING.
HE CAN'T BREAK HER WALLS
SHE'S MADE THEM SO STRONG,
FOR SHE'S TIRED AND TIRED
OF BEING HURT ALL THE TIME
AS TIME GOES ON,
MAYBE THE WOUNDS WILL HEAL
BUT AS FOR NOW
THE WALL GETS THICKER AND THICKER
SHE FEELS IT INSIDE,
THAT THERES ONLY COLDNESS
THERES NO WARMTH IN HIS HEART.
SHES TRIED SO HARD
BUT THE TIMES GOTTEN WORSE
THIS WALL MAY COME DOWN SOME DAY
BUT AS FOR NOW,
THE WALL IS GOING STRONG
MARITA MYLES
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S.O.S.
(I'M ON DRUGS)
THIS WASN'T SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN,
NOT THIS WAY
NEVER DREAMING THAT IT WOULD OCCUR
EVERY SINGLE DAY,
TRYING IT ONCE
JUST WASN'T ENOUGH
NOW TO STOP,
IT IS TO TOUGH
SO MUCH MONEY,
SO MUCH TIME
WHERE DID THE DAYS GO?
WHERE IS MY MIND?
I'VE LOST SO MUCH,
INCLUDING MY BEST FRIEND
I CAN'T STAND IT ANY LONGER,
I WANT THIS TO END
IT IS HARD TO QUIT NOW
I WISH I COULD.
I DON'T KNOW HOW
I NEED SOME HELP.
BUT NO ONE IS THERE
I WISH I KNEW
DOES ANYONE STILL CARE?
--HELPLESS
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TO LOOK INTO THE EYES AND PORTRAY
A FAVOR AMONG MANY TEENS,
IS TO SAY
"FURTHER THE LIFE OF SOMETHING
SO YOUNG AND FEEBLE,
THAT IS SAYING SILENTLY-ALOUD"
I AM FRANTICALLY TRYING TO RECOVER
FROM THIS DISASTROUS LIFE-TIME.
A LIFE-TIME I AM YET TO EXPERIENCE.
A LIFE-TIME I HAVE GRADUALLY DESTROYED.
A LIFE-TIME OF WHICH
YOU ARE YET TO EMBRACE.
A LIFE OF WHICH YOU KNOW NOTHING OF.
KNOWING POSSIBLE NO ONE IS CONCERNED
THAT YOU POSSIBLE FEEL
SO ENCHANTED IN DARKNESS,
SO ENCLOSED WITH FEAR,
UTTERLY SURROUNDED BY FRIENDS,
BUT SO ALONE.
THINKING MAYBE,
JUST HOPEFULLY THERE IS ONE PERSON THERE,
A CLOSE FRIEND,
A BEST FRIEND,
A STRANGER,
TO SEE A TALENTED SOUL
INSIDE A WEARY MIND,
TO RESCUE THE EMPTY WORDS
OF DEATH OR THE POSSIBILITY OF DYING,
TO TRACE AWAY THOSE SHATTERED WORDS
FROM THE PAPER.
TO WALK AWAY FROM THE BLINDING STAIR
WELL LEADING IN A DOWNWARD SPIRAL.
TO SEE THE BEAUTIFUL LIGHT
WE ALL WISH TO SEE,
TO SAVE ME FROM MY INNER SELF.
(ANNOYMOUS 1-5-97)
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she lays in a bed smoking
a cigarette in the dark.
wondering what she had done
to make him leave.
she wonders if he is on drugs.
she thinks he hates her,
even so he loves her.
she wonders why he won't come home.
she wonders why he hates her husband.
he lays in a bed smoking a cigarette.
wondering why she thinks he is on drugs.
wondering why she wants him to go back.
but he don't really care at this point.
they both lay in different beds,
smoking, wondering why one hates the other
jeremy jones
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WHO'S HOME
MY HOME, YOUR HOME,
WHOS HOME IS THIS HOME
IS IT EVERYBODY'S HOME
OR NOBODY'S HOME
IS IT THE KIDS HOME
OR IS IT A HOME AT ALL
NEVER WILL I KNOW,
NEVER WILL I CARE
JEREMY JONES
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WHO AM I
WHO AM I.
I HAVE NO NAME.
I AM WHITE AND
FULL OF FRIGHT
I NEVER FIGHT
OR GET UP TIGHT
I'M ALWAYS LOOSE
AND EASY GOING
SOMETIMES I AM RUDE
BUT NEVER BORING
I GET UP IN THE MORNING
AND TRY TO FIGURE OUT
WHY MY MOTHER IS MOURNING
JEREMY JONES
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I AM SO FRUSTRATED.
I AM IN SUCH PAIN.
MY BABY DESERVES BETTER THAN I.
___________HITS ME.
HE HURTS ME.
HE YELLS AT ME.
IT HURTS TO CRY.
IT HURTS TO TRY.
__________NEVER MADE ME FEEL SAD OR HURT.
HE ALWAYS MADE ME HAPPY,
CHEERFUL, AND WANTED.
AND NOW HE'S GONE.
MY NIGHTS ARE LONELY AND MY DAYS ARE SO SAD.
I CAN ONLY THINK ABOUT THE LOVE__________AND ME HAD.
I'M MISSING HIM
AND NOBODY KNOWS IT BUT ME.
MY HEART ACHES.
ALL I'VE EVER WANTED WAS TO BE LOVED, TO BE HELD.
PEOPLE SAY ITS NOT RIGHT
TO CRY ON YOUR PILLOW
AND THAT YOU SHOULD ALWAYS USE A SHOULDER.
WELL SINCE I CAN'T FIND A SHOULDER.
I SHALL USE MY PILLOW.
__________HAS PROABLY SETTLED DOWN BY NOW.
SO__________WILL HAVE TO DO.
HE PROMISES THAT THE HITTING WILL STOP.
IT HASN'T. HE PROMISES THAT
THE NAME CALLING WILL STOP.
IT HAS SO FAR, BUT FOR HOW LONG.
HOW LONG WILL IT TAKE
BEFORE HE LOSES HIS TEMPER
AND BACKS ME AGAINST THE WALL.
HOW LONG UNTIL I'M BEGGING HIM
NOT TO HIT ME ANYMORE
AND TO STOP YELLING.
HOW LONG UNTIL I'M SAFE,
UNTIL MY BABY IS SAFE.
HOW LONG CAN I LIVE IN FEAR,
HOW LONG CAN I HIDE
EVERY LITTLE BIT OF SADNESS I HAVE.
HOW LONG UNTIL I'M DEAD
CAMARO
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WITHDRAWN LOVE
I'VE LET MY GUARD DOWN
ONE TO MANY TIMES
EVERYTIME I LOVE SOMEONE
THEY ARE TAKEN AWAY
NEVER AGAIN,
WILL I LOVE SO EASY
OR LET PEOPLE KNOW HOW I FEEL
FOR LOVE HAS DONE NOTHING FOR ME
BUT LEFT ME ALONE
HEARTBROKEN AND CRYING
I SHALL NEVER WEAR MY HEART
ON MY SLEEVE AGAIN
NOBODY WILL TOUCH IT
NOR SEE IT AGAIN
BECAUSE WHEN THEY DO,
AND I LET THEM
IT GETS BROKEN AGAIN
NOW I CAN'T CRY ANYMORE
NOR DO I CARE
SO TOUCH ME BUT EXPECT ME
NOT TO TOUCH YOU BACK
CAUSE MY HEART ISN'T
GOING TO BREAK ANYMORE
THERE IS NO WARMTH NOR LOVE
LEFT FOR IT TO GIVE
THERES ONLY HATRED
TO THOSE WHO LOVE ME
AND THOSE WHO DON'T
JEREMY JONES
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TORN APART
I LEFT MY FRIEND
BECAUSE OF THIS GUY.
I SAID I DIDN'T CARE.
IT WAS ONE BIG LIE.
I LIED TO HER,
I REGRET IT ALL.
OUR RELATIONSHIP IS TORN.
I JUST WISH SHE'S CALL
SHE HAS SO MANY PROBLEMS.
I'D LIKE TO HELP HER OUT
I HOPE SHE CAN TRUST ME AGAIN,
WITHOUT A DOUBT
IF SHE NEEDS TO TALK.
I WANT TO BE THERE.
I'LL HELP HER OUT,
BECAUSE I REALLY DO CARE
VALERIE ENTWISTLE
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WHAT'S LOVE
LOVE, YOU SAY "WHAT'S LOVE"
LOVE IS LOVE,
TO THOSE WHO CAN'T LOVE
THOSE WHO CAN'T LOVE
LOVE ISN'T LOVE.
BE TRUE IF YOU LOVE OR
BE BLUE IF YOU DON'T LOVE
SOME PEOPLE NEVER LOVE
UNTIL LOVE LOVES THEM FIRST
LOVE WILL TAKE OVER YOUR LIFE
RETURN YOUR SOUL AND MAKE YOU GLOW
IF YOU LOVE, LOVE WILL LOVE YOU
IT WILL TAKE YOUR LIFE
AND MAKE IT LOOK GOOD
IT WILL KEEP YOUR HOPES UP
NEVER WILL YOU MOPE ABOUT IT
IF YOU LOVE,
THEN YOU'VE GOT ETERNAL LIFE
IT WILL NEVER MAKE YOU FEEL OLD
ALL YOU WILL DO IS LOVE
AND LOVE AND LOVE
IF WHAT YOU GOT IS A TRUE LOVE
JEREMY JONES
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DEDICATED WITH LOVE
TO MYSELF
HERE I AM,
BUT THERE I AM NOT.
I LEFT 2 MONTHS AGO,
BUT YET SHE CRIES
IN THE DARK WITH SOMEONE AT HER SIDE.
SHE BLAMES IT ON HERSELF,
BUT YET SHE DON'T REALIZE
IT'S THE PERSON'S FAULT,
BUT YET HE IS LYING
RIGHT BESIDE HER.
I'VE TRIED TO EXPLAIN.
SHE DON'T LISTEN.
SHE WANTS ME BACK,
BUT I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK,
FOR I FEAR THE MEAN EVIL MAN
IN HER BED WITH HER.
HE'S DYING BUT EVEN SO,
I DON'T CARE.
SHE LIES IN THE DARK CRYING
WHEN NO ONE IS THERE.
SHE DON'T YET REALIZE
THAT SOMEWHERE,
SOMEHOW,
THERE IS SOMEONE WHO LIES IN THE DARK
CRYING WITH HER AND FEELING THE PAIN.
THAT SOMEONE HURTS INSIDE AND OUT
AND THE ONLY ONE WHO KNOWS,
THE ONLY ONE THAT
CAN SEE THE PAIN AND SADNESS.
BUT YET HE DOESN'T
SAY ANYTHING TO ANYONE,
FOR HE FEELS THE SAME AS I,
BUT STILL WE NEVER
TALK ABOUT IT.
I AM HERE,
BUT STILL NOT OVER THERE.
SHE LIES ALONE IN THE DARK CRYING
AND I'M THE ONLY ONE
THAT KNOWS AND CARES
JEREMY JONES
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ME AND YOU
DAY AND NIGHT
I THINK AND DREAM ABOUT YOU
WISHING YOU WOULD ASK ME OUT
BUT YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW I EXIST.
WHAT WILL IT TAKE
TO IMPRESS
YOU,
SO THAT YOU KNOW I'M ALIVE
WILL IT TAKE ME KILLING MYSELF
JUST TO SEE IF YOU REALLY CARE
OR WILL IT TAKE
ME HAVING SEX WITH YOU,
JUST TO SEE IF
YOU KNOW
I'M ALIVE OR AM I
JUST A SEX TOY TO YOU
I WISH YOU FELT THE SAME ABOUT ME,
BUT I KNOW YOU DON'T
BUT I WILL ALWAYS HAVE ROOM IN MY HEART
FOR YOUR LOVE AND I
WILL ALWAYS
LOVE YOU NO MATTER
WHAT HAPPENS BETWEEN US
VALERIE ENTWISTLE 6-15-97
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poetry
LIES
Who am I? You should know.
I'm your son.
I'll never change.
I'm still the same one.
Come in and look in my eyes.
You might reject,
but I don't despise,
your still my MOTHER, aren't you?
If you were,
you would see through my eyes,
not the costumes around me.
I'm trying them on.
I need a little more time.
I'm just trying to find out who I am.
just as you did once.
MOM, come with me hand in hand. we can change together.
we'll find each other.
why, do you still reject me.
MY MOTHER.
I'm not a stranger,
even though you think I am.
I'm still the same on the inside.
Please look past what I've done,
where I've gone and the people I have upset.
Just a moment,
I'm almost done!
see who's inside me, you can't or you won't.
there's no one to help.
right now in my drought.
I'm very sorry about all my doubt.
I love but you don't.
now hold on,
I'm almost done.
I'm sorry for all the lies
I've given you reason to doubt.
Stop! for a minute,
I love you very much. I've just not much for show.
I play mr. bad ass to you
as you might know.
I'm sorry about all the lies.
but now I'm never,
I will not lie to anyone,
espicially you and now I'm done.
JEREMY JONES
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THE BETRAYAL
She trusted him,
she loved him,
he loved her.
he did shit that hurt her,
he yelled at her,
her husband throws him around.
she said he deserved it.
but he didn't think that he did.
she treated him good and with love,
but more so to his brother.
she trusted him again.
but he was pissed off at her,
so he snuck out,
did drugs and screwed up his life.
now she won't have nothing to do with him.
JEREMY JONES
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I am an asshole but,
yet never forgotten.
they say they miss me,
but deep down
they know they don't.
they never used to like me and they still don't.
I say their assholes.
they say I'm wrong.
they say it's because of me,
but they are lying.
I'm never missed.
they say I am,
but still in their eyes
I am always wrong.
I never wanted to kill,
but now I do.
they say they know me,
but what they know about me
wouldn't even amount up to
a little particle of dust,
thats bad when I had
lived there for 11 years.
they think i don't know
what they think about me,
but I got my ways of hearing them.
I am an asshole and everyone agrees.
I'm sorry for being
such an asshole to everyone,
except to her husband.
JEREMY JONES
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RUSSIANS
If you mess with russians alone,
you either get your ass kicked
or you get killed.
because of some stupid words
your friends say,
when you're driving your dad's truck
with your friends in the back of the truck.
mouthing off to these russians.
if you bring
the russians to your house
and don't settle the argument,
the fight enhances or you
or a family member might just die,
because of your friends.
but if you settle it,
then chances are
you and your family members
might not die
VALERIE ENTWISTLE 3-7-96
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ALL ALONE (BEST FRIENDS)
going everywhere,
doing everything,
until one day
another girl
comes along funnier,
smarter, prettier.
a better best friend.
all of a sudden I'm left behind.
one best friend minus the other.
left all alone to cry,
to be alone,
all alone
VALERIE ENTWISTLE 12-29-96
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They were so much in love
they did alot of things together
they were together for 3 years
then hard times hit
he stayed out late one night
she only wanted him to stay home
she needed his
love and comfort
then one dark night
he hit her hard
he went to jail
she dropped the charges
she still loves him
yet she knows
she shouldn't care,
but she does
she wants him back
but yet he won't talk to her
she wants him to talk to her
she needs to give it time
then maybe they can talk
but for now,
only time will tell
MARITA MYLES 8-27-97
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LONELY
I SIT HERE BY THE PHONE
PRAYING IT WOULD RING,
BUT INSTEAD THERES
A KNOCK AT THE DOOR.
IT WAS THE POLICE,
THEY CAME TO TELL ME
THAT MY BOYFRIEND
WAS IN THE HOSPITAL BECAUSE HE GOT IN A CAR WRECK.
HE WAS IN CRITICAL CONDITION.
I STAYED THERE ALL NIGHT
PRAYING TO GOD NOT TO TAKE YOU.
LATER THAT NIGHT
I WAS ABLT TO SEE HIM. HE OPENED HIS EYES,
LOOKING IN MINE AND SAID
HIS LAST WORDS.
I LOVE YOU AND THEN HE DIED.
THE NURSES TRIED
TO BRING HIM BACK.
THEY COULDN'T.
I HIT MY KNEES PRAYING TO GOD.
wHY! WHY DID YOU TAKE HIM?
IT WASN'T HIS TIME TO GO YET.
I WAS ONLY 15 AND
HE WAS ONLY 16 WHEN HE DIED.
MY BEST FRIEND ASKED ME
HOW HE DIED AND
I SAID HE GOT HIT
BY A DRUNK DRIVER.
PLEASE DON'T DRINK AND DRIVE BECAUSE,
YOU WILL KILL SOMEBODY
VALERIE ENTWISTLE 6-23-97
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SUICIDE
THE REASON PEOPLE COMMIT SUICIDE
IS BECAUSE THEY THINK ABOUT
HOW SHITTY THEIR LIFE IS
AND THEY THINK WHAT
IS THE POINT OF LIVING.
BECAUSE IF THEY LIVE,
THEY WILL JUST KEEP
ATTEMPTING SUICIDE
AND ONE OF THESE DAYS,
THEY WILL DO IT.
SO IF SOMEONE SAYS
THEY ARE GOING TO COMMIT SUICIDE,
DO NOT IGNORE THE PERSON
BECAUSE IF YOU DO
THEY ARE MORE LIKELY
TO COMMIT SUICIDE.
ASK THEM IF THEY WANT
TO TALK ABOUT IT
AND IF THEY DON'T,
GET HELP FOR THEM
BEFORE IT IS TO LATE.
VALERIE ENTWISTLE 11-21-96
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I know something special
that I haven't told you yet
or maybe you know
and haven'
t told me
that you do
even so
I want to tell you
how I feel
but I can't because
I don't want to frighten you
or me-by something that I
haven't sorted out yet
but if i tell you what it is
you've got to promise
not to laugh, or cry
or run away, because I'll
die inside me
and when I tell you, remember
that it comes from me
it's not a plea to you to be
or say or do whatever's
not you for me
you see
I LOVE YOU
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New Years Eve Together
This will be
the best new years eve
I have ever known
Because I am with you
All the years
of yearning and striving
to find love
have finally been rewarded
My goal of happiness
has been achieved
so hold me close
and join me in a toast
and may each day of the year
hold for us as much joy
as these first hours
of the new year hold
may my kisses and love
always thrill you as much
as they do now
on our first
new years eve together
UNKNOWN
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one of a kind
the feeling of nothing
lurks in your mind
tells you you're worthless
not one of a kind
whispers of hate
tell you you're no good
you're not loved
not understood
takes away all confidence
replaces with fear
the devil is near
do not listen
learn to ignore
get rid of those feelings
stand up straight
gain your confidence back
enhance your mind
and you will learn
you're one of a kind
CHRISTINA ROSWELL 4-17-97
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I LOOKED ON THE FACE OF DEATH
I looked apon the face
of death this day.
Does death always
look this way?
The look of fear in her eyes,
looking at me.
The look of pity in mine,
looking back at her.
Will death be with us
until the end of time?
Did it come from
the lovely garden of long ago?
Where the tree
of good and evil stood.
Where the snake talked to eve?
Was it all a mistake?
I looked apon the face
of death today.
I looked across the sea today
and on the other side
was a man with a white light
waving to me.
I looked down a hallway
one night and a mother
and child walked out
of my sight.
I looked apon the face
of death this night.
Copyright 1998
Peggy Meeks King
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