it takes up space

in this moment
i have noticed your absence
more and more
maybe it's just me
overanalyzing things
as i am told
and as i think
i always do
but still
i sit here
in my stupid little room
with work that should be done
in front of me
i haven't had a conversation with you
in days
i keep noticing the words 
in others 
in song
in talk
and making them bigger
and comparing them 
to whatever it is that i am feeling
where are your words?
the speakers blast out a warning
it may be some time
before the rain falls on me again
that's ok, though
i have enough thoughts 
trickling through me
too many
i want them to cease
i want their flooding to cease
stop making my thoughts muddy
with confusion
i dont know what to write 
right now