Waiting for the other shoe to drop Anxiously What is this feeling? What is going to happen? The Haunting Go away - I try to say But it won't No one else will help me No one else understands The Haunting The day is beautiful The sun is shining I start to feel a bit of relief Almost joy The dark cloud re-appears The Haunting I don't know how to make it go away I think that it is my fault Should I know how to? Is there something wrong with me? Does anyone else feel this way? The Haunting I dont like this It makes me angry Yet it is reinforced over and over Whenever other bad things happen Things that make me afraid Things that make me sad The Haunting Will this ever end? In the new system - that's when But when will it come? Will this feeling keep me from the new system? The Haunting Can I go on? Can I be a good person? Can I stop bad feelings and bad people? Can I make this haunting go away? It feels too strong It feels much stronger than me I don't understand it There is no one else trying to help me to Everyone just wants me to be quiet Everyone seems to like me just the way I am Except they don't want me to talk about this They just want me to pretend it doesn't exist But it does The Haunting I hate you - I hate you so much! I want you to go away! I want to be done with you! You deliberately come around when I am weak When I am not strong enough to fight you much You push and prod me Harass me and joke You laugh when I fight You scream and scare me when I try to run You tell me insidiously - 'You will never escape me - you are too weak' The Haunting Yet I know that somehow, someway You must have a weak point A way to make you let go of me A way to escape I think that I am getting closer How do I know ? Because you are getting scared I can feel it You are getting angrier I can feel it I can see it Now the tables are turning Now you are losing your grip I am getting stronger You don't know what to do about it The Haunting You still may frighten me Though I don't totally understand it But I think that I am getting there Slowly and with a great deal of effort I don't think you're as powerful as you seem I don't think that you ever were I think you are a fake I think that you are bad I think you need to go away now Because I don't think that you can handle me I am not as pliable as I used to be I am not as weak You plan didn't work Your foolproof plan had a flaw The flaw that you tried so hard to keep me from seeing Myself Jehovah The two of us are stronger than you Stronger than you ever were or could be You tried to keep me so focused On your power On your fear On your haunting You did control me For quite awhile For too long in fact You still have an effect over - Some parts of my personality But I am slowly but surely Working my way throughout ever part of me To worm every inch of your influence out To remove the haunting You see - I have learned You can't stay where you are not welcomed You can't continue you quest where - The doors close in your face You can't control someone whom with help - Is stronger than you You hate that You scream and bellow You hate me even more now But what is the change? You always did You just can't get your kicks anymore By using me By haunting me If you could have destroyed me long ago Knowing that later I would become stronger And oppose you You would have destroyed me then You thought that you had me You thought you had taught me well You thought I was so weak You thought you knew me so well Knew that I would never oppose you Never stand up to the lies and deceit Never see clearly the situation Never see you for what you are A Haunting A weak Ineffectual Wimp Sorry-excuse for a human Wicked Father The Haunting You can have your fear back You can live with it and your lies You can also have your hate, shame & badness They are yours to keep I will keep sending it back to you As long as I still keep finding it Inside myself Where you left it Where you wanted to leave it But now I am cleaning it out I am recognizing it doesn't belong there It belongs with you It originates with you You have to deal with it Instead of leaving it where it doesn't belong The Haunting The Haunting - As you can see it is gone Because I am more powerful now It can't haunt me any longer I can only haunt you.