Hello - how are you? I am someone you will never see Never see fully You won't look and you won't know You will never know my true feelings My thoughts and fears You dont really want to know Because my life doesn't fit your ideal perceptions You don't know how to deal with the reality That I am invisible That is how you want me How do I live? You may wonder On a sympathetic day I make myself into a facade of what you want What others want I become their ideals I scan the crowd and become what is necessary to the majority Acceptable To them It takes much thought and effort Do I stop and think about myself? No - I can't do that I don't even fully know myself Because others haven't allowed me Haven't showed me that it is okay I don't even know if I know how But what I do know Is that I am invisible That is how I have to be Why? You ask with such innocence You can't even begin to know the tale The tale of my life You wouldn't believe it I have known that for so long It is too horrible Too sad Too depressing Too unlike anything you have known Anything you have remotely experienced So invisible I am Invisible I stay Sometiems I have tried to really come out Tell my tale just a little The lies, confusion, abuse The sex You look at me With disgrace You don't want to believe In such tales You can't handle even hearing Even thining about Empathizing With me With what I have endured By myself You don't believe You scorn You mourn for yourself For what horrible things you have had to hear You won't accept me So invisible You again keep me I try to live Inside myself In a vacuum It has been hard Sometimes almost impossible it seems It is harder than you could ever know I keep looking For others Who might try to tell their tales I hope to find others I look for hints of their invisibility Who might have lived like me I am tired of being so lonely I want to find comfort and acceptance in another's invisibility But as of yet I have found not one Not one with a tale like mine No one uttering the same words The same Sad Lonely Words I am invisible Can I come out? by LJK