My body lays there stiff as a board Where were you my dear Lord I was so scared I just couldn’t move All this pain, what did it prove Feeling sad, run and hide from them Why do I feel dirty now, that was then I ache and quiver remembering the pain To this day I feel that I am to blame Go away leave me alone don’t touch me I’m a little girl you should just let be Where was my protector when I was little They should have been there right in the middle My legs shake my body aches in pain All I felt was so much terrible shame What have I done to hurt like this Sometimes it was just a simple little kiss There was nowhere to run nowhere to cry They always found me, and I would ask why I could have I would have said no Being that young, didn’t matter though Do as your told, shut your yap Or you will end up in the deep dark trap What did I do to be treated like this I thought love began with a kiss Don’t do that it will take you there Places of horror, so do be aware A touch, a hug, that meant more It did happen behind that closed door I was little frightened and alone Listening to them, when they would moan It made me sick I hate them all In the silent darkness no one to call My body was abused I didn’t know In my memories it is a disgusting show Where was the cuddle the love I need All I heard laying there was him breathe That meant trouble what to do Can’t move, couldn’t run, just us two The touch I hated it, I felt sick I lay there still, didn’t even kick I might die so don’t even cry Wait until he’s done, run and ask why Sitting in silence after it was done I can go and play, run and have fun Brenda Wisse