Based in what my friend had been speaking to me about; the latest happenings at the famous herb church; I finally felt the � need to find out for my own self, what this church was about. More � out of wonderment, to witness something great that seems is about to � start, than out of my own spiritual need.

I wanted to witness by my own eyes, that the people of � this church; were about to take charge of the subsistence of their � own church. This sounded very exciting! If they could sustain � the church; if everyone of the Brothers and Sisters would take � charge, when the reverends are not around; the church would not � disappear. I wanted to witness the light shining through their � hearts and through their eyes. For the very fact of having the � opportunity of serving as one of each of the pillars, to � sustain the sacred structure of the church.

I was drawn by the thought of being able to see these � people experiencing Love and Care among them; and these basic � principles would enrich their lives with Inspiration and Hope for � making their own church to be possible to happen.

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It was sunday, and I run to the meeting place with the � concern to be able to hear, what one of the brothers, had � prepared with so much care to read to the church.

When I arrived, a very kind man approached me and asked me if � I was there for the "Herb Church", and directed me to a � different place.

As I was approaching the Circle, I was careful to walk almost � unnoticed; for the purpose of maintaining the peacefulness � and harmony of the sharing or the momentum of whatever was � being shared at the moment.

I sat quietly and started to listen.

Our Brother; this Man; the Brother who had prepared the � notes, was in the midst of reading them to the group. When � there it was, one of the Reverends arrived. When this � happened, I was disappointed because the subject suddenly � changed to a different atmosphere. Now it was more like fill � in the blanks, of things that people apparently were � wondering about, like; "Why" or "Where" the Reverends were.

This Reverend had to make big changes in his life; after � being threatened by Authorities, he decided to move very far � away. So now, he's not to be around for awhile. He � introduced some of his "T-Shirts" to the group and asked if � anybody would like to buy any. He also encouraged people to � put their $#!+ together, and solve their personal problems.

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Someone; a very short man with very nice energy, took the � Sage and Blessed everybody on their backs, by walking around � the Circle. I was very thankful for this, I could feel his � care and his willingness to share his heart. I was sorry, � when I learned; that he will be leaving fairly soon.

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I often had felt sad, even though tried to get � used to the fact that always the people, the best people, the � goodhearted people always leave. I wish these people stayed. We need people who care, we need open hearted people in this � place. This World, neither the Earth would not be Healed by � Openhearted People who care.

Everyone has something to give in their hearts, � even the most insignificant thing for the eyes of some, there � is gold for the ones that care see with their hearts. I am � here for this only reason. It is time for this to happen in � everyone of us. We must focus on this fact.

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The meeting went on. Another Brother spoke about forming a � community like a Co-Op; where people can do their crafts and � make some profit and live there. "Because when they close � (for the Winter daytimes) the Homeless Shelter, the people � don't have a place to go!" He said that his friend was hit by � a car and was in the Hospital; and asked for cooperation, to � buy something for him. Somebody reply; that if this person � was at the Hospital; that he was in a Palace, and he was in � better shape than people who are in the streets. For him it � didn't make sense to give some money. (Somehow I seem to � agree with him.) I thought it was a good idea, this thing � about forming the Co-Op.

Many of the Brothers didn't speak loud enough so I couldn't � hear what they were saying.

...And then there was this woman, that for the first time in � all these years, I hear her voice. She asked for a copy of � the notes (Minutes of the Church); I was glad to see her � interest in having these notes for her. I heard some of the � Brothers asking for the notes to take home. I could see how � they were so glad to have something tangible in their hands � that they could read. Somebody comment: "There is good stuff � there!" -When I declined to read the content of the notes. Some young man that I couldn't hear well what he said, I � believe he doesn't come very often, he has nice peaceful and � quiet character.

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After other people talked, the little wooden pipe, finally � came my way, it was my turn to talk. At this point, � everybody seemed to have something to say here and there. � Somebody says the Sister wants to talk. I started talking:

"This is my first time here. I only would like to say, � that I wish all of you would not forget your hearts. Don't � forget the Love and Care of your hearts, here in this � Society, there is not very much people that remember what is � important in their hearts. I've lived here for a while and � have seen how people don't care about others. I just wish � that you can remember and don't forget to care and open your � heart to your Brothers and Sisters here. If we stand strong � this way; we wont be swept away.

I don't drink or smoke so I don't come here for the � smoking -"Pot" factor in this church. I come here because I � feel that some of the Brothers and Sisters need to have a � place to share their beliefs, and nourish their soul and be � inspired. I know that there is this silent feeling, when � they come here, they would like to take something home in � their hearts; something that would give more meaning to our � lives. In whatever individual way this could be experienced; � and in whatever form it can be manifested. This meaning will � be always alive inside in our hearts no matter where we'll � go."

A Brother immediately answered with: "I wont be swept away, � not me!"

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I apologize to everyone that could've been offended with my � words, and I pass the little wooden pipe to the next person.

Then the present Reverend spoke again. Others asked for � more notes (Minutes), including the present Reverend. ...And � they kept on talking. I was concerned about going back to � Work, so I wait for a moment. I left the Circle very quietly � almost unnoticed, the same way that I came. As I was � leaving, the friendly Brother that blessed our backs with the � Sage, yelled: "Thank You Sister for coming!" I didn't turn, � I straightened my hand out to sign in silence; "Goodbye."

As I walk back to work, my thoughts were with them...