so i'm vegan.

it feels normal. perfect, happy. if that's how normal can be defined. it feels comfortable. that works.

i've been a vegetarian for six years. when i started it was awful. so hard. how could i live without my medium rare steaks, my salami sandwiches, my tuna fish casseroles? i thought i would never live through it. it wasn't even my idea. it was my mom's. but i'm curious about new things so i tried it.

after the first month it was fun. if i smelled or saw meat, i felt like puking. i couldn't imagine how i could ever ever have eaten that nasty substance. life was perfect. no meat, most of the time no gelatin, no leather...i was content.

but i couldn't live without them dairy products.

i had considered veganism a few times. my mind couldn't even begin to fathom it. what? no milk? no eggs? no cookies? no...*gasp* chocolate?? how could i. no. never. i'll never go vegan.

then i met this girl. Amy. she was one of the most amazing people i had ever met. she literally glowed with strength and beauty. i talked to her and stuff...found out she was vegan. we talked about it. i thought, what the heck. i'll give it a go. i have enough will-power. right? i can do this.

and i gave it a go. i came home one night and said, "mom, i'm going vegan. buy me soy milk."

and she did. she's really good and supportive about that stuff.

so i lived. it was amazing. i felt renewed, and cleansed after the first week. some bad stuff happened to. like, i lost 5 pounds. which may not seem bad to you, but i was already underweight. some of my friends (hi, kris, i love you) seem to think i'm anorexic. but i'm not. i eat plenty. i just haven't found the right balance yet.

but i will. i'm almost there. its been a month and a half.

i admit to cheating once. i ate a reese's peanut butter cup. and felt like barfing afterwards. i can never do that again.

my nutty friend Dave. you gotta love him. he thinks i've converted to some weird religion. he's "translated" some very...uh, interesting scriptures of veganism for me. read them. and don't be scared, never fall under the power of Princess Tomato.

that's it i guess. all vegans/people who think they may want to go vegan...e-mail me. i love e-mail. everyone. e-mail me. now.

e-mail me.

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