| "See?"
I asked Lily. "Many of the peaks are above the clouds."
"Yes…" Lily looked out the window for a long while, lost in thought. I interrupted her, and said, "now, I think it’s my turn to tell you stuff." "About what?" Lily asked, as she sat back in her seat, again. "Nothing so fantastic as what you’ve been telling me. Is there anything you want to know about me?" I’d let her decide, if she wanted. Lily considered a moment. "Well, I only want to know what you want to share with me, Rick. The knowledge that you love me and let me love you, is more than enough to content me." I guess, she didn’t want to pry. Either that, or be fair, since she had been so reluctant to tell me about her past, before. "But, on the other hand, I also want to know everything!" Lily added. "All or nothing, huh?" I laughed. How just like her. "Well, we’ve got our whole lives, to get to the bottom of each other." "Yep!" Lily grinned at me from her seat. She was way too far away, over there. I reached for her hand, which she gave me. "I do have one thing to get off my chest," I told her, as I pulled her towards me. "What is it?" Lily asked, sitting on my lap for the third time, this flight. She faced the other way, so she could see out the window better. "I just want you to know, that you don’t have to worry. Just ‘cause I’m supposedly an ‘alpha dog,’ doesn’t mean I want a harem. The groupies can throw themselves at me, all they want. But, I’m not tempted in the slightest. Even, if you and I were to never make love again. I’d rather have no sex for the rest of my life, then lose your heart." I explained. Lily just listened, attentively. "I say this, ‘cause I was just concerned, that you might be giving in to me, more than you want to, because you thought that if you don’t, I might get tempted. You probably think what you suspected is true, that I’m just incredibly horny, all the time." "Oh, love!" Lily said, "I don’t mind! I really don’t! You want me, you’ve got me, O.K? I can’t really get enough of you, either…" Lily blushed. She looked down. "We’re both incredibly horny, all the time." She looked so embarrassed. "Who woulda thunk it?" I said, teasing her a bit. "Yeah. I’ll have you know, it’s all your fault." Lily teased me back. "So, I turn you on, huh?" I must admit, I was pleased. "Very," Lily affirmed. I grinned. "But Lily, do I turn you on, because I’m the only one you’ve been with, or am I the only one you’ve been with, because I turn you on?" Lily giggled, pretty loudly. She covered her mouth. I wondered if they heard us in the cockpit. I took her hand, and kissed it. "I can say with certainty: It’s the latter." So, she got turned on before we met, too, apparently. I definitely seemed to be just a passive participant! But, it doesn’t really matter, I guess. I was still the vital ingredient in Lily’s happiness, and that’s what’s important. Lily was still pretty embarrassed. I stroked her back, to reassure her. "It’s O.K. to get turned on, Lily." Lily nodded. "Especially when it’s by your husband." She looked up at me, again. I was still grinning. "What about your fiancé?" If Lily was turned on by me, before she met me, the answer would be yes. "That, too. Yes, Rick, I’ve really wanted to mate with you, in every way, for a while, now," Lily admitted. "I would never have guessed, at the time, Lily." I informed her. I hadn’t really guessed how she was feeling after our wedding, either. "I’m pretty good at hiding things," Lily stated. "But, now you know." She giggled and smiled. "One big exception was the manic outbursts. That’s just too big for me to contain all the time. It’s like steam escaping." "But, you can contain your desire for me?" I asked. At that point, I didn’t realize how much there was to contain… "Well, that was like riding the back of a tiger," Lily explained. "It took all my concentration, because I knew I couldn’t fall off." "And yet, you wanted an engagement of almost four months. I’m not sorry we waited that long, like I told you, but I’d like to know why," I told her. "…Was that one of the things that you were ‘told’ about our future?" "Yes, actually," Lily affirmed. "It was made clear, that we were to have a wedding, and not elope. Trust me, if it had been up to me, I’d have married you as soon as possible. But, I knew that things would turn out the best, if we were to do it ‘right.’ And, they did. I needed that long, to put the wedding together. It was as short as I could manage. Besides, last spring, I had a dream, where my name was changed by Christmas. So the timing was made obvious. Not too short, not too long," Lily said. "Just perfect." "Couldn’t be more perfect," I agreed. "Unless we had met at age eighteen." All that wasted time! "Oh, you wouldn’t have liked me at all, back then. I was a lot more messed-up, than I am now," Lily informed me. She had been a perfectly ordinary human, huh? "I’ve matured since. But, I’ve often wished for that, too… That I could have matured faster! But, I’m a late bloomer." She’d bloomed far beyond any other woman, in my opinion. "But, I’m just happy that it happened, at all," Lily told me. "I don’t want to waste the present, by regretting the past. There’s lots to regret, back there. I don’t want to look back, any more." "Yeah, me either. I’ve got regrets, too. Back to the present, for us!" I announced. "Goody!" Lily exclaimed, only too happy to leave the past behind. "Presently, I enjoying my honeymoon, with my wonderful husband. Whom I love, and desire, and am happy to be with." My wonderful Lily sealed it with a kiss. I kissed her back, but I couldn’t help but chuckle a little, under my breath. Lily can be so cute, sometimes. And astonishing. A woman, who had been ravished by love, was ravishing me with it, too. Her presence is so overwhelming. And yet, I can’t get enough of it… Lily said love hit her, and she was reeling. I found that I too, needed to find a new equilibrium. Especially, in light of the bizarre things I’d learned. The love itself is overpowering enough. But then, I find out that there is some spiritual dimension to it, as well. It is as if we haven’t be generating the love, only transmitting it, from another source. And the love is bigger than we are-- we are just vessels. I held Lily, in silence. Both of us, just thinking and feeling… Lily started singing along with the last song on the CD. I listened and grinned and didn’t interrupt. When it was over, I remarked, "That was beautiful. You sang for me!" "Yeah," said Lily, blushing at being complimented. "I thought it would be something you would like…" "I liked!" I affirmed. Lily sighed. "I just adore singing," she told me. "Doing it or hearing it?" I wondered. "Both! At the same time, mostly. Singing along. I enjoy the harmonies. Interacting with the sound," Lily answered. I asked her, "how’d ya like to sing back-up on the next CD? The love songs?" "Oh, no thank you," Lily replied. "I’m not like you, lover. I get tremendous joy from singing, but not so much from performing. And if I do perform, I like it best when it is a gift, not a business transaction. But, performing for money is not wrong, of course!" "It’s a deal then," I stated. "I’ll perform for money, and you sing for me or for free." "That works for me!" Lily agreed. I asked, "do you like my singing?" "Yes," Lily said. "Your voice was the first thing I noticed about you. It’s compelling, and unforgettable. It makes me smile! It made me want to find out who you were. Then I saw that you were definitely the cutest guy in the band. Although, it was hard to tell, under all that hair you had, at the time…" "Yeah well, that was a few years ago…" I explained. Lily giggled, "yeah! Rick, I love your hair, but I love to see your face, better." "Did you love me then?" I queried. "No, not for several months after that. But, I’m talking about the past again!" Lily realized, with slight dismay. "Oh! But, I’m dying to know…" I told her. "O.K. Sorry to tease you like that!" Lily repented. "And, please don’t say you’re dying! As far as I can tell, it was that one video, that made it happen. Oh, my goodness! That’s why I could tell myself it was just a silly crush on a celebrity. My jaw dropped. And, I needed help to get it back up, off the floor! But, I didn’t realize that there was so much more to that feeling, ‘til much later, when it never went away, but only got stronger. Or, maybe I got weaker…" I questioned, "what was it about the video…" Lily’s answer was, "I don’t know, love. The fact that you were in it, I suppose." I smiled. But, Lily was subdued. "I’m sorry," I said. "No more questions about the past, today. I promise. In fact, no more questions, at all!" I stroked her back. Then I lifted her up, off my leg, and shook it. "My leg’s falling asleep," I informed her. "Oh, dear. Put me down, then," she requested. I did, and I got up. She stood next to me, as I shook it out. When it was better, I looked at my watch. "At least three more hours, ‘til I can get you in bed, again." "Much, much too long," Lily stated. Lily told me that she was ‘incredibly horny all the time,’ too. But, I couldn’t help but wonder, if she was just saying this, to empathize with me. I wanted to ask her, how I could ever tell if she was in the mood, since I’ve never seen any sign of it, except when I actively brought her there, myself. But, I’d promised no more questions. I’d just have to play it by ear. Which might be more fun, actually-- trying to discover her sexual feelings, instead of asking her about them. And maybe, helping her to express them, more openly. I lifted Lily up, so her feet were dangling again, to kiss her. "Too terribly long," I agreed. "I love to sleep with you." Lily blushed, so red. "Me, too," was all she said. I put her down on her seat, and knelt in front of her, to kiss her some more. |
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