...Life 101....

Once more I`ve found,
myself single , 
alone....
my ego and pain state..
I should have known..

What happened?
what went wrong?
but then I knew it would.
all along...

Never perfect...
but just what is?
after all this time...
she claimed what is , is ..

The years...
so short it seems..
but what happened..
to our plans , dreams?

I remember walks
long walks in the rain....
now all is overcast..
thunder, lightning and pain..

Sitting and waiting..
but there`s no one to call..
rushing faster and faster..
just how far can I fall


Never before
Have I hurt this way..
still it`s over and done...
there`s nothing more to say...

Work my way out 
I`ll work till I drop..
still through it all
this pain will not stop..

Rambling on and on..
....like a fool..
I find it harder and harder
to play it cool...

Lost in the hole..
..of this deep depression....
This is life 101 ..
..First class...
......last lesson...

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...Home movies in my mind.........

Images rushing
faster nearer
bodys touching
focus clearer

A puddle
a memory
it`s amazing
how childish we could be..

Late night walks
walks on the beach
this vision so close
yet out of reach

Of laughter
so real , so free
who could`ve made you smile
was it really me

Bike rides
anytime, anyplace
another release
frow the rat race

With a impish grim
or mischevious glance
my god I remember 
that was romance

As I awake from my daydream
once again I find
I`ve been reviewing
Home movies in my mind

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 ....A Bed Of Roses.....

A bed of roses
   a field of poppies
the landscape ends 
and begins with clear blue skies

No clouds to break this illiusion of peace
no sun but yet I`m warm

A gentile breeze
but no grass stirs
no movement but the beat of my heart

laying close together
but yet I`m alone
A bed of roses
    a field of poppies
just a dream 
the affair of the heart

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