All right I'm back. And now...I'm sure what I'm going to write about. Thanks to Cullen for giving me a great idea of how to finish this up. Thanks and this bit should answer your question! And this time it's not just going to be Usaig and Mamoru the entire time. About time to, ne? Enjoy all! Behind the Scenes By Rain Ayo ( rain_ayo@hotmail.com ) Part 5: Let the Bells Ring...Usagi and Mamoru Back Together! **************************************** Watching us wither Black winged roses That safely change their color Oh these little earthquakes Here we go again These little earthquakes Doesn't take much to rip us Into pieces I can't reach you I can't reach you Give me life Give me pain Give me myself again -"Little Earthquakes" Tori Amos **************************************** I woke drenched in sweat. A dream, that's all it was. Or was it? It was directing all of it's comments toward Mamoru. Why? I had the dream, didn't I? What if it was Mamo-chan's dream? He always knew when I was in trouble. Why not have a similar feeling when he was in trouble? Although you may not consider this exactly danger. But I did. I jumped out of bed, appologizing to Luna. She was in a heep in the corner of my room now. I hurridly got dressed and sneaked out of the house through the window in my room. Climbing down the tree by my window, I hurried down the street and toward Mamoru's apartment. As I quickly ran up the steps I had a feeling that he was somewhat awake. If you could call what he was awake. I pounded on the door to afraid and worried to care if I woke someone else. He opened the door groggily. However when he saw I was behind the door he stood straighter and frowned. "What do you want?" he growled. "Why don't you just go away?" "I know, Mamo-chan. I know about that dream," I said looking up at him worriedly. He looked at me stunned. "What do you mean? How...how did you know...no one knows," Mamoru said. "I had the dream too," I said. "They don't mean anything. Mamo-chan, they're just dreams. It doesn't mean we never have to see each other again." "I don't care, Usagi. It's not a dream anymore. I think it's starting to become a prediction of the future," Mamoru said turning away from me. "Don't say that. I don't care about some stupid dream. I want to be with you, Mamo-chan," I said pleading with him. He pounded his fist into the doorway. "I don't want you hurt, Usagi. So just go. You hear me, get out....," he said pushing me out the door. The door was slammed in my face and I fell to my knees. I pounded on the door a bit until I was too tired from crying and lack of sleep. "I want to be with you, Mamo-chan. I don't want to lose you like this," I said. "Please don't do this to me..." Sailor Moon had needed help. I wasn't going to stand by doing nothing. Tuxedo Kamen came and saved the day once more. I tried to leave, but the fates thought it was funny to make us be in torment one moment longer. She stood there, so beautiful, accepting everything I said. Every single lie, I could say to make it seem like I didn't care anymore. I fled as fast as I could. I didn't want to see her ever again. I contemplated leaving Tokyo all together. I wouldn't be able to survive away though. Tuxedo Kamen would win out eventually. Then I'd return and the pain would come with it. I cried in the moonlight...alone. It was a word I had not wanted to live with again. Alone like I was since I could remember. It was like a second death. Only this time there was no rebirth. No tomorrow to look forward to. A time when the pain would be gone and all was peaceful, was nonexistant. I guess you could say, it was a time I needed her most. And of course she was there. Running toward me crying as well. "Mamo-chan!" she cried running towards me. "I don't care about those stupid dreams. Please. Just be with me. Even if we shouldn't get married later on. I want to be with you here and now. That's all that matters." "Usako!" I exclaimed as she enveloped me in her infamous bear hug. She looked up at me smiling. All of my fears vanished and the voice of common sense shut up for once. I wasn't going to continue. I couldn't survive without her. I would rather be dead. As she had shown me before that she would rather be as well. The dream, like she said, was just a dream now. I would fight it with every last breath I had. I wanted to be with her. I didn't ever want to lose her to another. "Mamo-chan," she said softly. "Usako..." I said softly. "I won't leave you." I leaned closer to her and kissed her lightly. Feeling like I was flying and I didn't want this glorious feeling to ever leave me. I didn't want this moment to ever end.... ********************************************** [ I know...it's quite sad what happens next. Dimando thought it'd be a good idea to break up the destiny bound couple. God how stupid can you get?] ********************************************** Part 6: A Diamond Scare ********************************************** But black winged roses and Hail Marys Can't bring back what's been taken from me I reach to the sky And call out your name And if I could trade I would And it feels And it feels like Heaven is so far away And it stings Yeah it stings The world is so cold Now that you've gone away... -"Gone Away" The Offspring ********************************************** The room suddenly got dark and King Endymion vanished. I didn't know what was going on. I looked about trying to see what could have gone wrong. Then HE appeared. The fool that never deserved the title given to him. Him and his arrogant manor that he carried with him. Him and his smug little face that more than once I've wished to pound till there isn't anything left. HE came and he was after Usako and Chibi-Usa. She was still holding our daughter as she floated up towards him. I did the only thing I thought I could do. I threw my cane up to distract Dimando. Sailor Moon dropped Chibi-Usa, oblivious to the rest of the world. Not even realizing what she doing. I caught the still sleeping child. ( How she managed to do that still amazes me to this day. She's too much like her mother. ) Dimando laughed. "I had wanted the child, but this is what I really came for," he said. He took Sailor Moon and vanished. "NOOOOOOOOO!" I screamed out. I handed Chibi-Usa to Venus. "Take care of her. I'm going after him." King Endymion reappeared. "Stop. I know where he's going," he said. He turned to leave the room and I followed. He brought me to a room with a large map on the wall. "This is Crystal Tokyo and it's surrounding areas. "This," he said pointing to a spot on the map, "is where you'll find Dimando. Be careful. It's not exactly the easiest place to get into." I nodded and quickly left the palace. Rage and vengance coursed through my veins. Never had anyone challenged me in the same way as that asshole had. I wanted him dead. His head on a spike in front of me. I wanted blood. I wanted death! I crept closer to the wall. I had woken to find that for one thing Mamo-chan was gone and this creep had me. Another thing, I couldn't get away by transforming into Sailor Moon. My crystal had pretty much been blocked completely, because of the creep's crystal. He was practically on top of me now and there wasn't a thing I could do. I felt so weak. So helpless. So alone. He was going to kiss me. I felt like I was going to cry. I didn't want to be kissed by this creep from the future. The tears welled up in my eyes. I knew that Mamo-chan was nearby, I could feel it. But he wasn't close enough to stop this thing that held me. Inch by inch he drew closer. I felt like I was being slowly tormented. This was worse than trying to fight off some insane youma. A red flash nearly made me collapse, not that I didn't feel like I was going to anyway. I saw Tuxedo Kamen in the window. He looked so angry, in fact I could feel how angry he was. It scared me a bit to see him so angry. "A being that uses Dark Power to get what he, Tuxedo Kamen will not forgive you!!" Tuxedo Kamen yelled. "Don't be an arrogant fool," Dimando says. He shot a blast with that third eye thing he had. Tuxedo Kamen used his cape as a shield. Dimando got distracted by something. Don't ask me what I don't really remember. The next thing I know Tuxedo Kamen was bringing me up to him with that cane of his. He held me tight and I felt all of his anger rush out of him. It gave me new strength to be with him. He carried me out of there and brought me to the Crystal Palace grounds. I looked up at him when we arrived, afraid of what might have been in his eyes. He wasn't angry anymore, to my relief, but he looked so sad. It tore my heart in two. I brought up a hand to his cheek and said worriedly, "Mamo-chan?" "The King said that there is still a lot ahead of us. A lot things will come between us," he said timidly. "I know, Mamo-chan, but I don't really care. I just want to be with you," I said softly. We kissed as it started to snow. Like I was once told, it was a very fitting thing. The snow symbolizing the cold, the evil, and us still together through it all. I'm sorry I didn't say that. I was just told that. ************************************************** [Finally things are back to normal. The Wiseman good and dead. Chibi-Usa went back to the future to be with her mom and dad. Even if it wasn't like she ever left them. :) Usagi and Mamoru are the happy couple again. But that could change if Rei has any say in it. ] ************************************************** Part 7: A Wake Up Call ************************************************** Don't turn away 'Cause there is something I just wanna say I need you to stay Don't ask me why 'Cause I don't even know How I gave you my heart I gave it all to you Now there's no way that I can lose... Don't walk away 'Cause there is something I just gotta say I love you today Just ask me why You're all I'll ever need Now that you're in my life I'm gonna please you now And I'm never gonna let you go Every little look inside your eyes Is all it takes to make me realize We can last forever Every little moment we can share Gonna let you know how much I care Love lift us away... We can last forever! -"We Can Last Forever" Chicago ************************************************** I sat there surrounded by my friends feeling like I wanted to shrink till there was nothing left of me. Rei stared me down and then drew her card. "You know sometimes I wonder about you and Darien," she said. My head shot up. "What...what do you mean?" I asked. "Well, for one thing, it seems like a magic relationship. I don't get how he can change from being the Mamoru we all remember ( that used to call you Odango-atma and make fun of you ), to this magic happy guy that supposedly is crazy over you. How many times has he actually said he loves you? I know you tell him constantly, I mean you tell us constantly. But what about him?" Rei asked. I looked at all of my friends, pleadingly. They were all staring at me like Rei was. Even Luna. It was an all out staring contest. I sware they all ganged up on me. Hey I did the only thing I could do. I started wailing. Luna jumped on my head and yelled over my tears, "TSUKINO USAGI! Now stop crying and think about what Rei said." I looked up at my guardian in disbelief. I didn't know why everyone was ganging up on me like this. "How could you?!" I asked as I got up and ran. I didn't even care if Luna went flying. "Are you sure about this Rei?" Mako asked. "I don't mean to hurt her and you know it," Rei said, "but someone's gotta wake the both of them up." "All right, Rei. We trust you," Ami said. "I just wish it didn't have to happen like this." "Well it's gotta happen someway. And she doesn't listen to reason unless it's put behind an insult," Rei said. "Just don't do something your really going to regret," Minako said. I ran down the street my eyes puffy with tears. How could they? That question repeated over and over in my head. I slumped down against a tree in the park. Rei! Oh how could she say things like that. Mamo-chan loved me. Or did he? He didn't always tell me, but that didn't mean it wasn't there. Or did it? Maybe...maybe Rei was right. It was sorta wishful thinking that the old Odango-atma days would change so quickly and suddenly. Maybe it was a practial joke that Rei planned out. NO! That can't be true. He's my prince. We've been together for who knows how long. It can't be true. But maybe that's how it is. He doesn't love me. He loves Princess Serenity. I wanted to crawl into a black hole and die. Rei had to be right... I was sitting in the park enjoying the afternoon with a book when Rei appeared in front of me. "Oh hi Rei. I didn't see you coming," I said, taking off my reading glasses*. "Sit down." She sat down beside me and got straight to the point. "Who do you love?" she asked. I blinked. What a question! I sat there for a moment trying to figure it out. I knew who I loved, but that wasn't exactly what she meant now was it. Usagi's not really one person. "Who do I love?" I asked. "I love Usagi." "Are you sure? What about Endymion? What does he have to say about it?" she asked. "Huh?" "Well you should know that your not much different from Usagi. In the sense of who you are that is," she said. "Your not just Mamoru." I thought for a moment. I was at a complete loss for words. How are you supposed to answer a question like that? "Endymion fell in love with Serenity. I fell in love with Tsukino Usagi," I said. She smiled. She patted my arm and stood up. "That's very good to hear," she said. "Now if only she knew..." She walked off leaving me as confused as before. Did she mean that Usagi didn't know that I... I got up and ran to Usagi's hoping she was home. "Now all we've got to do is watch the results. He's probably looking for her now," Rei said. "And where is she Rei?" Mako asked. "You didn't fit that into your magic sceme now did you?" Minako asked teasingly. "Well...well...so what! It's still going to work!" Rei said. "You are simply amazing Rei," Artemis said his head falling. I sobbed into my knees. Mamo-chan didn't love me anymore. He loved Serenity. That was someone I could never be again. Not unless there was danger. Not unless I was about to die! "Usako? Usako?" a voice called out. I hid my head in my knees. I didn't want to see him. No, not if Rei was telling the truth. He came up to me none the less. He put a hand on my shoulder and I felt new tears form. He was close. So close. I wanted to hug him and I wanted to hear that Rei was lying. But I couldn't. I was too afraid that it was true. "Usako?" he asked softly. "What's wrong? Why won't you look at me?" I trembled slightly, drawing his attention. He went to hold me in his arms and I drew back. I started to get up so I could run away, but he grabbed my wrist. I turned and looked at him. I couldn't hold them back. The tears fell without me telling them to. She was crying! I couldn't believe it. She was trying to run away from me. I did this to her. I didn't want to believe it. "Usako, please. Please tell me. Tell me what's wrong. What did I do?" I pleaded. The words came out strangled and choked. I couldn't believe what I saw. "You...you....you don't...you love...you love Serenity," she said between sobs and gasps of breathe. My eyes went wide. Rei was right. She didn't know the truth. I didn't tell her. Why didn't I tell her? "That's not true," I said. "Then why was I Odango-atma? Why did you suddenly change when you remembered?" she asked crying harder than before. "I...I...I...I didn't know what to do...," I said. "I...I didn't know how much I loved you...till it was too late. I thought you hated me. You were always yelling at me when I showed up. I didn't mean to make fun of you...it was just something I did. When I tried to stop...I thought it was too late. you already hated me. I...I loved you Usako. From the moment I layed eyes on you. "I don't love Serenity. She just helped me see who I loved. She helped me find you. I thank her for that, but I can't love her. She's not my Usako," I said. She had stopped crying as I spoke. Now the tears were gone and she still looked at me uncertain. "I...I loved you too, Mamo-chan," she whispered. She rushed into my arms and I held her tight. I stroked her hair lightly. "I'm sorry that we had to fight. I...I got jealous when I saw you and Rei together. I didn't know why, but I know it was because I liked you too. I didn't want to see the two of you together. I wanted it to be you and I...but I thought you hated me too," she whispered. I smiled slightly at her. "I guess, we're both really mixed up," I said. She looked up at me and smiled too. "I guess so," she said. I kissed her lightly on the forehead. "Do you forgive me?" I asked. "Only if you forgive me too," she said. "Of course," I said. "Then I forgive you, Mamo-chan," she said. "So you did it Rei," Makoto said. "Yup. And see it worked out fine," Rei said. "What worked out fine?" Usagi said as she and Mamoru found them hiding behind the bushes. "Umm...ah...," Rei stuttered. "It was all Rei's idea," Minako said. "What was all Rei's idea?" Mamoru asked. "What she just did," Ami said. Makoto smirked at Rei. "She was trying to break you two up, but it only worked to bring you two closer together," Makoto teased. "No I didn't! I was trying to wake them up," Rei exclaimed trying to stand up for herself. "SO THAT'S WHY YOU GOT ME ALL WORKED UP, REI!" Usagi cried out. "No...that's not it. I was trying to make you see that there was something you were missing. Something you didn't know!" Rei said shrinking down a few sizes. "WELL WE'LL SEE HOW YOU LIKE IT HINO REI. I'LL GO AND FIND YURICHIRO!" Usagi screamed. "OH NO YOU DON'T!" Rei yelled. "OH YES I DO!" Usagi yelled. And so started the all out tongue war. THE END....for now.... ******************************************************** Hehe...how was it? I know Rei seemed to be mean but hey someone had to do it. It was only fitting that she did. Thank you Cullen for the idea. It was something that needed to be known. A lot of people just don't get Usagi and well now maybe they'll understand a little better. Quick thanks to Sailor November and Sue Mei! Thanks for the encouragement. Future plans: The possiblity of A Behind the Scenes: Future Relationships and Past Relationships. Right now I'm going to take a break. I'll be reading and working on my school stuff for a while. * I took this little bit from the Manga if you didn't know. He looks so cute with those glasses! Enjoy! Rain Ayo http://members.tripod.com/~Rain_Ayo/index.html P.S. Sign my guestbook!