Poems I Wrote
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The making of a Poem
I sit Idly waiting.
Waiting for the waves
of thought to fill my
head.
They come in like a tide.
Bringing feelings,dreams,
hopes,and
cares.
The waves flow out of my pen.
Before my eyes,
beautiful verses appear,
like my mind
is laid out on the paper.
By:Valerie Entwistle
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Shame
When I dream he is there
I know he isn't mine
and he knows that I'm not his
His hands touch my back
I feel like I will melt
I want to layin his embrace
But I can't
Because I belong
to somebody else
and so does he
but I kiss his lips soft and tender
the butterflies
are in my stomach
they don't flutter
I can feel them nibble
they try and get out
but they don't
I think I will leave
the one who I belong to
I try and I try
But I can't
I don't want to hurt him
finally I break away
The tears roll down
but I can't put myself
through anymore pain
I'm glad I did it now
instead of dragging him
and hurting him more.
By:Valerie Entwistle
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Lonely
I sit here by the phone
praying
it would ring,
but instead there's a knock at the door.
It was the police.
They came to tell me
that my Boyfriend was in the hospital
because he got in a
car accident.
He was in critical condition,
I stayed there all night
praying to god not to take you.
Later that
morning
I was able to see him,
he opened his eyes lookin in mine,
and
said his last words.
"I love you".
Then he died.
The nurses tried to
bring him back,
They couldn't.
I hit my knees praying to god why,
why did
he take you from me.
It wasn't his time to go yet.
I was only fifteen
and he was seventeen when he died.
The police told me the next day
that
he got hit by a drunk driver.
A message for people
who drink and drive.
Please don't drink and drive
cause you might just kill somebody
and that somebody may be your
brother,sister,
mom,dad whoever just don't drink and drive.
By:Valerie Entwistle
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LifeTime Who am I?
As far as I can see
I am nothing
but a nameless face.
People tell me I'm a loser,
and I will never be anything.
Sometimes I believe these things,
and sometimes I don't.
People also say I am beautiful,
That I am strong and smart.
It is strange
how the bad stuff
is easier to believe.
I thought I would always
have people to love me,
but I don't even have a place,
to call home.
The only person who loves me,
I might lose
Simply because of my own stupidity
When I am down,
he lifts me up
Why can't life be fun
Why can't adults
let me make my own mistakes
Instead they tell me what to do
I don't like to be
told what to do,
nobody does.
So we do what we are told not to,
just to be free
We kill ourselves either slowly
or all at once
We take drugs, smoke, drink,
and have sex
just to rebel
Not that all or any
of this is wrong
But you need to do them
when you're ready
So live your life
one day at a time,
and remember...
You have a lifetime.
Valerie Entwistle
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WHY
why am I the one
to always get yelled at?
why am I the one to hurt so much
inside and no one...
can figure it out?
maybe I get yelled at
cause people....
like to yell at me.
maybe I hurt so deep inside
cause I have been hurt
to much by people.
why am I pushed aside?
why am I denied from people?
maybe I'm pushed a side
cause no one wants
to listen to me.
maybe I get denied simply
cause of my own stupidity.
why am I the one
to always messing up?
maybe I mess up
to get noticed.
I always ask myself
"WHY WHY WHY"?
my mind is so confused
I don't even know what
I did to deserve all of this.
maybe I am better off dead
but thn I think
I don't want to die yet.
VALERIE ENTWISTLE
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why do I put myself through pain?
why aren't my friends
never there for me?
why does it seem
that the ones I love die?
why.....why
.......why...me?
why does it seem
all the bad things
...happen to me?
why it seems like
I shouldn't be living.
why should I be living
...right now,
it seems like I have
nothing to live for.
why does it seem
my friends are using me?
why do guys
want me for sex?
WHY ME?
should i put myself
....through pain
should my friends
never be there for me
should all the
bad things happen
...to me
should the ones
I love never die
should I not be living
should my friends use me
should I let guys
use me for sex
should I not let out my anger
and all my pain
and just keep it bottled
...up deep inside.
VALERIE ENTWISTLE
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NO TITLE
Not a day goes by that
I don't think of you.
I always think of you
everyday and everynight.
I wish You didn't have
to leave me magic
I love you so much
......it hurts.
I cry myself to sleep
evernight looking
at your pictures
and thinking about all
the good times...
we shared together.
You are my baby magic
and you always will be.
People tell me
to let you go
but I can't I love you
to much....
to let you go.
I wish I could have taken
you to the vet
but I didn't,
If I would have you
might be alive today.
People don't understand
how much you mean
....to me.
I know in time
I will have to let you go
but it will
hurt like hell.
You died such a horrible way
but at least
I was there when
you took your last breath,
I was holding you
....in my arms
as you took your last breath
and I was crying so much
no one....
could calm me down.
When you died
it felt like...
a knife stabbing me
right in th heart,
that is the pain
I feel inside..
but no one understands.
This poem is in loving memory
of my cat Magic
my Beloved Kitty.
A lil word to Magic
up above me
Magic I will always
and forever miss you
and love you
VALERIE ENTWISTLE
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ME
There's a kid inside me
whose Dying to get out
There's a woman Inside me
who no one knows about
There's a romantic there
who loves satin and lace
There's a loner somewhere
who's got a sad face
There's a dareDevil Here
who loves to have fun
There's a hard worker
who tries to get things done
All of these people
Are Inside of me
They are who I am
My Personality
VALERIE ENTWISTLE
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ESCAPE FROM REALITY
Isn't there a place
...I can go?
Far away from here,
Where I can
Find peace and love
and nothing troubles me.
Where everyone
loves me
for who I am,
and welcomes me
with open arms.
Is
There...
such a place on earth?
Will you show me
...the way?
This
is the place
I long to be,
Far away from reality.
VALERIE ENWISTLE
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