Chapter 9 - "It's So Hard To Say I'm Sorry"

Knock knock knock!!! Screamed the door. I rolled off of my stomach and sat up sleepily. "What?" I called bitchily. I was not a morning person, especially since I had a night like last night.
	"Miss Amanda, there's someone here to see you." Conrad called through the door.
	"Oh, send them in." I replied, thinking it was Abby. I glanced at the clock. It was noon already! Jeeze I had slept in! I walked to the bathroom and brushed my teeth and ran a brush trough my hair really quickly, then went and threw the covers up on the bed. A knock came at the door.
	"Come in." I called, climbing up on the bed.
	"Mandy?" A.J. asked, poking his head in the door.
	My eyes grew wide a moment, but I shoved my surprise away, letting the hurt and anger cloud them. "Don't you have somewhere to be?" I asked icily. "Like with your girlfriend?" 
	A.J. stepped inside of the room, ignoring my icy words. He walked over to the bed and sat on the corner of the matress. "Mandy..." he started. 
	But I only cut him off saying, "Save it A.J.. It doesn't matter what you say at this point. What you did told me exactly where you stand. Go be with Randi, you care for her, and you have a relationship with her. I'm just some tourist you met at the mall." the words hurt to say, but they were true. 
	"Mandy, I'm sorry alright? I didn't mean to hurt you. I care about you a lot, and I would never do anything to purposely hurt you, you should know that! Brian and Howie talked a lot of sense into me last night, and I want you to know that Randi and I are over," he said, but I only sighed. He had said that before. "This time I mean it Mandy," he said, reading my look. "She and I aren't just meant to be anymore I guess, and I have to accept that, as will she."
	"I dunno A.J., you keep on saying one thing, then turning around and acting in another way. I don't know if I can trust you. I want to trust you, more than anything. I want things to work out for you and I, but I just don't know." There I go again, being brually honest, I told myself. 
	"I know! And I'm telling you I'm sorry! I'm telling you that things are different now, and that they will continue to be now that Randi and I are done for good." A.J. said, sliding his shades off of the top of his head and fiddling with them with his rough fingertips. 
	I sighed. Was he to be believed this time? I so wanted to believe him, that even thinking that maybe I couldn't trust him created this stabbing pain in the pit of my stomach. He said things would be different this time. That he and Randi were over. That Brian and Howie had talked some sense into him. That meant that Howie and Brian thought highly of me, enough to yell at A.J. and tell him he was being an ass. Was I willing to risk my heart again? Did I care for him enough to try again? I looked at him. He looked back at me, and I saw nothing but sincerity in his goreous dark eyes. It was then I knew that I could and would risk it again. 
	"Alright. I believe you." I said softly, almost unsure I had even said it. But A.J. heard it because hereached out to me, wrapping his arms around me in a hug.
	"I promise things will be right this time." he whispered to me, and I believed him. I hugged him back, burying my head into his shoulder.
	Abby burst into the room. "Conrad told me to just-" But she stopped short when she saw A.J. and I. "I should go.." she finished.
	"No! It's okay, really." I said, letting A.J. go.
	"You guys are okay now?" Abby asked.
	"Yeah." A.J. answered, holding my hand. "I told her it was all my fault and that I had been an ass, and that I was sorry." he quirked with a smile.
	"Yeah, I heard it all from Brian on the basketball court this morning." Abby replied, smiling.
	"And he calls ME a blabbermouth." A.J. muttered, smiling. He looked at his watch. "Shit! I'm late! I gotta go Mandy. I'll call you when I can though, okay?" 
	"Alrighty." I replied. With that A.J. leaned down and gave me a soft kiss. I smiled as he pulled away, and slid something on top of my head.
	"Hold onto those for me, okay?" he said, and with that he dashed out of my room.
	I pulled the sunglasses off of my head and looked at them. They were black Oakleys with cool purple lenses. "Aww, they're cool sunglasses too."
	"Oh Mandy..." Abby said in a sing-song tone, "Those aren't just any sunglasses, those are A.J.'s LUCKY sunglasses. He never lets anyone touch his sunglasses, let alone those. He must really have it bad for ya."
	I looked at the sunglasses again, now they looked different, and had a different meaning and feel to them. I slid them onto my nightstand gently. "Alrighty, I've been enough of a bum. Time to go get dressed!" I said, and went to go find some clothes. I pulled out a pair of khaki cargo pants, and a yellow tank top. I pulled out a white tank with wider straps for underneath. I went into my bathroom and slid them on. I pulled the top layer of my hair back off of my face and let my bangs hang over my gold eyes. I yawned, slightly tired. I went back into my bedroom and picked up the sunglasses, sliding them on top of my head, where A.J. had put them earlier. Abby was watching TV absent-mindedly.
	"Aww, you're never gonna let him have those back now are ya?" Abby asked, eyeing the sunglasses.
	"Not a chance, this is the sweetest gift I've ever gotten. And he didn't even give them to me. They're on loan. I'm supposed to 'hold onto them' for him." I told her with a smile. "But for now, they're mine!!!!" I laughed.
	"Alrighty, what should we go and do today? I'm soooo bored. Nick and Brian are over at Johnny's playing basketball, I played with them for a little bit, but they wore me out. Do they EVER tire of the damn game??" Abby asked, throwing her hands into the air.
	"No, they're guys. Guys looooove sports. It's part of thier genetic make-up." I replied.
	"I guess! Hmm. Kevvie-Wevvie's out with Bree. They went to Dizzy World today. He's going incognito of course. Um, lemme see. Tiffy mentioned something about having to go to some audition today, and who knows where Howie and Rose went! Oh go call Justin! I'm bored. They're fun to hang with. Maybe Joey can come over too. I know that JC and Lancey-pooh aren't around today. I talked to them at the party last night. Hmm, maybe Chris went with them.. Oh I dunno! Just call someone! I'm bored!!" Abby said. A wild idea popped into my head. I mentioned it to Abby and she smiled. "It's possible." she replied. I smiled. I went to go find Gran.