NO WORDS

I wish I knew the words to say
To explain the way I feel today
Such a pain inside my heart
Such an emptiness none can know
I know that I have come so far
But not sure I want to climb anymore
I don't want to hurt anyone so
But I feel I really need to go
To make the world a brighter place
To not have to look upon my face
Such a disgrace I am and was
I know that others say they care
But loneliness holds me in despair
Flashbacks haunt me day and night
Ashamed of things my eyes did see
Ashamed of things my ears did hear
Ashamed of things my hands did do
Ashamed of things my hands didn't do!!!!!!
Ashamed of things my body did
Ashamed that I have lived!