Alone
Curled
under the covers dreading to make the morning rise
Opening one
eye to see if there's rain to hide inside
Putting on a face so it
won't show the hollow that is me
I step outside, seeing couples
sharing each other as they go by
Needing
to stay numb so I won't give my feelings away
Grey expectations
are looming again today
Where's the passion, where's the loving
It
used to be here, I just can't find it anymore
Taking
this emptiness one day a week at a time
Hoping this lonely ache
will go some week that's a month
The night time comes again and
I'm haunted in mysterious solitude
Hoping and desiring for one to
make me want no more
Eating
me up slowly inside the monster does
My everything for just a
moment hugged
On my honour I would how ever give anything now
Not how I want me to be, it's just what I've become
So
the clock strikes late again as it does for me every night
Taking
myself back to the covers that can't hide me
Even before I lay
myself down, the monster starts to clutch and feed
Run to me,
reach me, hold me, save me from my empty lonely self
Amanada
Borhly Grey
March 14, 2014