Passages
A tale of a journey
through Hell
My personal belief is that at one time or another we all encounter a serious crisis within our soul. It's pain carries emotional and physical distress. Of course there are true friends whom are also your confidants. Even those so trusted few can only extend so much. In the end no one can really bring you out of it but yourself. When facing that defining moment, there is only you alone and the passage you must walk.
The Decent The Trial The Sentence The Pardon
Sudden blow, thrown into a deadly
twisting skid
Panicked, world turns completely upside
down
Control factor zero, wall coming up
fast
Calm realisation of the ominous truth
No escape, no reprieve, fear melts away
Hypnotic stairway spiralling down into
nothingness
First step, second step, foot before
foot, faster
Loose stone breaks away, balance lost
Staggering, stumbling, pitched into the
black
Descending ever down, spinning free
fall
Jarred to a shattering bone aching halt
Bent and bleeding, ragged and torn
Will to rise against the dark broken
Desire to dream, attain dreams, gone
Reeling, faltering struggle, hands upon
knees,
Crying;
Tears for pain, tears for dissolution
Somewhere from within the deep distant
dark
Haunting hollow voice wails, echoes,
beckons
Calling, pleading through tears, no
answer returns
Compunction, contrition, penitence,
God’s bane’s
Search demanded for the sake of the
soul
Wending ones solitary muddled way
Aimlessly faltering through dim inert
passages
Surrounded by incessant roaring silence
Self absorption, consternation,
distress
No room remains for consideration
Constant raging mind fever
Lightning like, sordidly, recollections
flash
Images fork, strike, bury in the heart
Why surreptitiously transposed itself
Now a completely consuming why not
Crying;
tears for loneliness, tears for loss
Walls muffle, absorb, each numbly taken
step
Fated to travel this under worlds
passages alone
Darkest thoughts, chained to self
despair
Gloom impermeable, light is for the
living
Unstoppable reflection upon
unforgivable sin
Shrouded emotion, freed to feed upon
itself
Unsounded screams reverberate along the
minds corridor
Inner voices vainly plead with one
beyond reach
One by one, without reason or exception
Every why not falls, coldly, deadly,
away
Loneliness and loss, killing by degrees
Blackest passage beckons, perpetual
silence entices
Desperate, in need, contemplating the
price
Demons converge, convene, trial for
backside of life
Failure must exact the ultimate,
absolute price
Crying;
tears for lost love, tears for a lost
promise
A summoning, moral certitude called
into disorder
Reasoning, rationalisations, trial by
degrees
Deeds done and not, question outweighs
answer
Chaotic visions fly unhindered,
perspective warped
Voices raise, echo unceasingly down
hollow corridors
Reflections upon a lifetime of constant
searching
Multitude of pure offerings made,
repeatedly shunned
Tragedy of knowing only how to keep
going, giving
Carefully concealed turmoil now naked
on display
Every carefully guarded door opens for
introspection
Suffocating passages beckon, an
accounting demanded
Last arguments for an over burdened
soul begun
Pitfalls and tragedies, any one of
which could seal fate
Thirteen omens whisper caution,
laughter carols destruction
Forewarned, step with utmost care
through this place
No Crying;
Stand and deliver, fall and be doomed
Roller coaster ride, self prosecution,
self defence
Inner voics examine, decry and exalt
in the same breath
Sounds rise, fall, anguish pleads
against anger
Stony images flip by with each ticking
of the clock
Guilty reminders of broken dreams, lost
love
Dismal reflective comparisons, lonely
corridors to the self
So much time alone, already confined in
solitary
Turn away to face only another haunting
door
Steps spiralling away, ever further
down
Consumed, sensory overload, sensory
deprivation
Defenceless, walking fearless on a
razors edge
Fighting for some, any semblance of
reason
Evidence mounts against at alarming
rate
Faster, louder, arguments for and
against
Passage tightens, no retreat, none
wanted
No crying;
Stand naked to truth, fall silent to
disgrace
Rite of discovery, rite of right, right
to passage
Glimmers of golden light filters softly
round
Decay exposed, opened to honest
appraisal
Gangrenous on the surface, rotten at
the core
Damning testimony on a soul gone sour
Seemingly unending procession of known
faces
All speak, drone on incessantly,
mindlessly, selfishly
Kaleidoscopic, patterns shifting,
changing, blurring
Every shift cosmetic, no real tangible
proof for uncovered
Innocence was brutally butchered such a
long time ago
Chaos continually raised itself,
orchestrated order fell
Too many times the corridor fed back
upon itself
So often rings of hope tarnished in
lonely despair
Only one lone voice in this hellish
insanity cried true
Powerless to stand against such
condemnatory proof
No crying;
Stand tall and receive, fall away and
deceive
The pieces break, shards splinter and
fall
Pouring out, tear drops won't fade away
Nothing to raise, nothing to lose
Knowing the truth, living in pain is
not living
Better travelling a different plain
Truth hits hard, bleeding from the
heart
Missing a part of me that is you
No arms to hold you, no hands to touch
you
Eyes grow dim, light passes out from
within
Darkness unfurls it’s cold, cold
shroud
There's nothing anyone can do
Nothing any rational thought can refute
There's only the sentence left to carry
through
Fate ran out of time for me, God
protect you
I won't, I can't, be me without you
Crying;
Tears not for me, tears only fall for
losing you
Eyes raise, face to face with honest
reality
Waiting in silence, clear mind, true
heart
Surreal floating, as if having stepped
outside the self
Distanced, looking down upon the
setting
Resigned, resolved, what comes, comes
Verdict fell from sadly averted eyes
A hoarse whispered "no"
sealed destiny
Heart stops cold in the shattered
breast
Condemned down a passage without return
The last why not washes away in a
solitary tear
Act of ultimate courage or ultimate
cowardice
Act of ultimate sacrifice or ultimate
selfishness
Absolute belief in the validity of the
sentence
Absolute relief, no more begging for
crumbs
Answers lie waiting on the other side
No Crying;
No tears, there are just no tears
denied