~ A "Queer" Perspective On Forever Knight ~
There are probably as many takes on Forever Knight
as there are Forever Knight fans. There isn't even one "queer"
perspective on the show and the many metaphors it offers us. It has been noted,
however, that there are certain similarities between Nick Knight's experiences as
a vampire and that of a homosexual in our society. Nick, the protagonist, is
"in the closet" with a "condition" which includes his sexuality,
which is dangerous for him to reveal to the world at large. This greatly interferes
with his ability to be intimate emotionally with the mortals he cares about, alienating
him from the society he yearns to belong to. Nick, given the realities of both the
mortal and the immortal communities, doesn't dare "come out," as doing so
would no doubt be fatal to himself and perhaps his family and friends, both vampire
and human. (Being openly gay is not as assuredly dangerous as this, but homophobic
attacks and murders occur with a frightening regularity.) He lives with the constant
anxiety that something he will do or say will "out" him, exposing his secret.
Nick's vampirism does make him a member of a
Community, whether he wishes it or not. Like the homosexual society in the pre-Stonewall
era, this community has a strict code rooted in the need for discretion and secrecy for
the sake of its members' survival. Vampires live double lives, "passing" as
human, free to be open emotionally and intimately only with other vampires. Nick rejects
this community and the intimacies it offers him. Nick, like many homosexuals, past and
present, finds the "condition" which makes him different from society at large
morally reprehensible. (This is, of course, where vampirism fails as a metaphor for
homosexuality. Though many people disagree, homosexuality is not a danger to individuals
or society, whereas vampirism certainly is. Nick's vampirism also falls down as a parallel
to homosexuality in that Nick chose to become a vampire. People do not choose to
be homosexual. They, of course, do make choices upon becoming aware of their erotic attraction
to their own sex.) This vampire community both attracts and repels him, and he struggles with
the deep emotional bonds he has for his "family," his lovers and friends. Though
he doesn't approve of them (or himself) he cannot cut himself off from them completely. He
is drawn back again and again, almost against his will, to get his "vampiric" needs
met. This, of course, pulls him away from the mortal society that he feels he should
belong to.
Of course, much of the show's impetus comes from Nick's
desire for a "cure" for his condition. While many homosexuals have and still
do search for a way to change the focus of their erotic attraction, in some ways this
places Nick's experiences closer to that of a transsexual. Again, given that he chose
vampirism, the parallels are not exact. But he finds himself in a body which does not
match his internal image of who he feels himself truly to be. His internal reality does
not match his outward form. His basic erotic impulses are thwarted by a physical response
that clashes violently with what he actually desires to do. He struggles at great personal
cost to himself and those around him to find a "cure" and make a transition from
one state of being to another.