i find myself falling down
my hopes with the stars
and my soul deeper than hell it self
and i try to find myself
in the labyrinth of thoughts
and the harshness of everyone else
and i realize
that living is only surviving
and i see that my friends
in the end is only my true self
this is when dreams become shattered
cause the glue that once held it all together
is...
seeping away
© Hela
(February 19, 1999)
Lost
hes so cold he will lose the love tonight
his misery tore away my soul
i want him
even though the pain he cause
i tears his heart out
its black as the raven
its MINE
© Hela
(February 19, 1999)
Forever?
you said we'd be together for ever...
that word seems like a long time
but its shorter than what i thought
it ended
it wasnt for forever
so forever does end
harshly
or possibly even with happiness
but still forever must end
cause what starts must end
© Hela
(February 19, 1999)
Goodbye
i hold the body close to me
sitting on the ground
i scream to the sky
"why, my love, why?"
i hold the body close to me
out on the battle field
whispering softly to you
"its ok my love, you will survive"
i hold the body close to me
knowing your slipping away
and i say to myself
"why? why must this be?"
i hold the body close to me
i watch your eyes roll back in you head
i cry to the world around
"NO! hold on! dont leave me now!"
i hold the body close to me
covered in blood and dead in my arms
i cry your name over and over
"my love, my love, my love"
i hold the body close to me
hugging the dead body in my arms
softly saying
"i must let go, its time to say good bye"
i let the body go
i stand and as i walk away
i say knowing i wont ever let go
"i must now say... good bye"
© Hela
(March 10, 1999)