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Illegal or Legal Drugs, Which Are Worse? By Angel Femia of LoveCry Becoming addicted in our society is one of the easiest thing we can do. We can obtain drugs almost anywhere from someone. If not our dealers, our doctors or friends. Somehow they are always in our reach. I spent many years addicted to substances and watched many of my friends go through these horrid experiences that drugs take us into. One of my closest friends and I found, there truly are not that many differences between the pains of being addicted to prescribed drugs and street drugs. My friend was addicted to crack. In no time she aged 20 years, almost as though she had never been the beautiful young person I new for so long. Crack as you know is a street drug. Around the same time I was addicted to codeine, a legally prescribed drug. This drug is one of the most well known pain medicines used in our society today. In no time, being addicted to this drug, my body was almost lifeless, and I looked older then 50, though I was barley 25. Most of the time I had a very hard time getting my eyes to focus on anything, let alone what was right in front of me. I would go places, be sitting having coffee, and not remember how or when I got there. I would say things to people and have arguments with them and not even remember the time at all. Many times I was stopped while driving my car by the police, given tickets, taken home and wake up the next morning not knowing the situation ever happened. One time I even drove my car into a swamp, fell asleep and woke up the next day covered in mud, with no idea of how I got there. My friend, who was doing crack was waking up in strangers beds, beaten, cut and bruised at times. Her addiction was a little wilder as crack does not have the sedatives in it that codeine does, and it is a street drug as apposed to prescribed meds. Once she was found in a barn, nude with cuts all over her body and a broken arm, 50 miles from home. My body was going through hell and I was emotionally outraged most of the time. With the shakes shattering my balance, still feeling the pain that the codeine was surpos-to be numbing,I would just take more. I could not think clearly and was an emotional freak. Other then that I was dead and didn't want to lay down. According to my friend her body was experiencing the same,except some of the time her hyper ness would kick in {as apposed to the sluggishness I was experiencing} and her mind was a total mess. She could not count the times she had been raped, horridly beaten and left for dead. The major difference was due to the sedatives in the prescribed drugs, I was sluggish and dragging my ass, while my friend was hyper and living on raw nerve. Codeine and crack are worse on our bodies then any drug I know of. They are both highly addict able substances and the chemicals literally sink into the tissue of our bodies and organs causing them to screw up completely. Crack is what I call the street equal to codeine. Both drugs create the same evil head space or thought patterns, as well. Once addicted to codeine or crack one has no morals, ethics, decision making processes, are unable to distinguish right from wrong, and most horridly, no conscience. The longer these drugs are taken, the more negative the personality the addict displays such as: verbal diarrhea, cold heartedness, demanding attitudes, violent outbursts, lustful actions, selfishness, and resentful, hateful displays. Both these drugs are deadly. The only real differences are one is obtained on the streets and one in a doctors office, one is smoked and one is swallowed, one is legal and one is illegal. Still both are way too easy to obtain, and not so easy to shake. "Who Is Real and Who The Imposter?" by Angel Femia of LoveCry As I reach out to people I am constantly being asked how one sees the difference between a true Spiritual Healer or Leader and an imitation one. Many people have been taken in by imposters and are now frightened to reach out again. I have herd horror stories around spiritual and religious leaders taking advantage of the trust given to them by everyday people. These situations are happening in all forms of religion. Below are some warnings sings and things to look out for as well as do when talking to anyone especially one whom you may or may not give your trust to. This will help you see the difference, help you to avoid imposters , also hopefully restore your belief in an imperfect world in some way , to a point where you may someday realize there is good among the bad. 1. Listen closely and remember the conversation. 2.Watch for: All Head Games: sex game, charm game, brainwashing games, ego games, extra wordings. If your head gets foggy, spaced out or confused, this usually means someone is in y our head or trying to get into your head. 3. Traces of ego: depending on how high spiritually, the people you are dealing with are, will dictate on whether there should be any traces of ego or not. A high ranking person should be humble but confident 4. Black thin line around facial features and edges of the physical body, giddy sinister happiness. Even people who seem very innocent have thin black lines around their bodies and this means total manipulation even through their eyes and actions may be screaming purity and they may give off a real high. "BEWARE!" "Honesty & Loyalty?" by Angel Femia of LoveCry Both parties are needy. Both are living illusions, both are co-dependant and both are controlling. In our society we play games to be with someone. No guts! These games did work in earlier years and many marriages thrived because people were much more honest, loyal, respected others feelings, and were not so quick to throw people away. We had values and cared more for ourselves and our fellow man.People then, knew that being alone was not natural. Seems that today all we think of is what we want. This is definitely not natural for any of God's creatures. Today people romance each other, get close by distorting truths to ones pasts with illusions, pretend to care until success has been obtained or one or the other party does or says something the other did not like. No Guts! I find that our self-centeredness has taken over and many of my generation are finding themselves alone, scared and hurt. Now when the same romance game, that worked well for our forefathers, is played, the rules have been changed. It is no longer played to find a mate, but rather a perfect specimen. Nor be loyal to each other and build a family but rather to use each other and get what we want, then dump each other, unless by some major miracle this perfect human is found.{hahah} This has devastating emotional reactions and the results sometimes are deadly, depending on the emotional state of the players. It begins with seduction. The inner most sacred of our emotions are being played with here. The most intimate part of our mind is being activated during any romantic or sexual seduction. This causes both parties to believe that the ecstasy created is due to falling in love. They then get close. talk, share life experiences and bask in the ecstasy. This is fine for a time and the emotions grow as they are now out of control. All of a sudden this illusion begins to disintegrate. The ecstatic feelings lessen, and the two parties start to get to know each others" faults or the results wanted are not being obtained fast enough. The stronger of the co-dependence decides to walk or kick the other out. The weaker falls into a world of pain and shattered dreams. Now the worst of the scenario begins. Of course one wants to go and one wants to stay. Or at least that's how it looks to anyone watching. The truth is neither wants to be there or leave. We will refer to the one who wants to go now as being in denial and the one that wants to stay as being obsessed. Denial feels all the same emotions but denies feeling anything, and turns all their pain into anger. The obsessed admits their emotions and becomes emotionally out of control. The chase is on. Now every so often denial's anger turns back into pain so they begin to desire and become obsessed to contac.Obsessed feels these emotional pulls and in pure desperation answers these pulls through phone or stalking. Upon contact denial rejects obsessed which only makes obsessed more and more desperate. Suddenly obsessed begins to turn their anger back into pain. Now they have switched places. {This can happen many times.} The length of the game varies, during which the emotional breakdown, physical breakdown and far too often suicide. People it's time to find a better way to romance each other. Maybe some honesty and loyalty would help. What do you think? Saying Goodbye! by Anagel Femia of Lovecry Last week my mother Shirley M. Baker-Femia passed away. It was one of the more painfull experiences I have endured. Our relationship was abusive, but hte strength of our love overtook any anger, or mistrust we had been holding. For this past month or more I have spent countless hours at mom's bedside, comforting her through this exit from our world. Many thoughts and memories trickled through my mind as sadness was a never ending theme causing tears to fall at random. One of the most prominent memories was the way Mom helped all Canadians,and people across the world, especially women and the printed media. Mom was one of the stronges women I have ever known. Through her strength mom led the first and longest newspaper strike in the history of Canada and the world. The Oshawa Times Newspaper Strike lasted for a year and was the first major media walkout ever headed by any woman. Her actions chanaged our work force in this country. This had a trickle effect accros the entire world. Mom was the first female union president voted into office in Canada. Along with this major chanages were made to: our Canada Pention Plan as the payments out were raised considerably, women were included for the first time, pregnancy leave with pay was implimanted, our basic wage was raised, and many doors were opened for women in the work place as well as strengthening the common male position in our work place. In mom's memory, while my sisters, brother and grandchildren stayed by her bedside consoling her, I wrote this poem: Borne defencless, helpless and innocent, Natural death is similar, Watching you leave today mom, I see the Child, Instead of the woman, But you've been no child for decades, Yet your child shines through, Desperation and pain, Limp responces to each familiar voice, But still a small response, Towards a feeling of love, Naturally like an innocent, Weak and frail, slow and shaky, You reach for that love and touch with peace, Then you fade into relaxation, As your head rests on the pillow, Untilll the next familiar voice, Caring touch or pangs of pain, Make themselves present, Once again, slow movement, Towards the last dabbles of energy, You gasp to to hold lightly and say goodbye. The point here is to say that love and forgivness towards one another can and does heal the worst damages of abuse. Mom and I say and believed this. With all our issues, arguments, abuses and pain we managed to forgive and loved one another to the end. Please think about this and heal you family! "Who Is Real and Who The Imposter?" by Angel Femia of LoveCry As I reach out to people I am constantly being asked how one sees the difference between a true Spiritual Healer or Leader and an imitation one. Many people have been taken in by imposters and are now frightened to reach out again. I have herd horror stories around spiritual and religious leaders taking advantage of the trust given to them by everyday people. These situations are happening in all forms of religion. Below are some warnings sings and things to look out for as well as do when talking to anyone especially one whom you may or may not give your trust to. This will help you see the difference, help you to avoid imposters , also hopefully restore your belief in an imperfect world in some way , to a point where you may someday realize there is good among the bad. 1. Listen closely and remember the conversation. 2.Watch for: All Head Games: sex game, charm game, brainwashing games, ego games, extra wordings. If your head gets foggy, spaced out or confused, this usually means someone is in y our head or trying to get into your head. 3. Traces of ego: depending on how high spiritually, the people you are dealing with are, will dictate on whether there should be any traces of ego or not. A high ranking person should be humble but confident 4. Black thin line around facial features and edges of the physical body, giddy sinister happiness. Even people who seem very innocent have thin black lines around their bodies and this means total manipulation even through their eyes and actions may be screaming purity and they may give off a real high. "BEWARE!" "Honesty & Loyalty?" by Angel Femia of LoveCry Both parties are needy. Both are living illusions, both are co-dependant and both are controlling. In our society we play games to be with someone. No guts! These games did work in earlier years and many marriages thrived because people were much more honest, loyal, respected others feelings, and were not so quick to throw people away. We had values and cared more for ourselves and our fellow man.People then, knew that being alone was not natural. Seems that today all we think of is what we want. This is definitely not natural for any of God's creatures. Today people romance each other, get close by distorting truths to ones pasts with illusions, pretend to care until success has been obtained or one or the other party does or says something the other did not like. No Guts! I find that our self-centeredness has taken over and many of my generation are finding themselves alone, scared and hurt. Now when the same romance game, that worked well for our forefathers, is played, the rules have been changed. It is no longer played to find a mate, but rather a perfect specimen. Nor be loyal to each other and build a family but rather to use each other and get what we want, then dump each other, unless by some major miracle this perfect human is found.{hahah} This has devastating emotional reactions and the results sometimes are deadly, depending on the emotional state of the players. It begins with seduction. The inner most sacred of our emotions are being played with here. The most intimate part of our mind is being activated during any romantic or sexual seduction. This causes both parties to believe that the ecstasy created is due to falling in love. They then get close. talk, share life experiences and bask in the ecstasy. This is fine for a time and the emotions grow as they are now out of control. All of a sudden this illusion begins to disintegrate. The ecstatic feelings lessen, and the two parties start to get to know each others" faults or the results wanted are not being obtained fast enough. The stronger of the co-dependence decides to walk or kick the other out. The weaker falls into a world of pain and shattered dreams. Now the worst of the scenario begins. Of course one wants to go and one wants to stay. Or at least that's how it looks to anyone watching. The truth is neither wants to be there or leave. We will refer to the one who wants to go now as being in denial and the one that wants to stay as being obsessed. Denial feels all the same emotions but denies feeling anything, and turns all their pain into anger. The obsessed admits their emotions and becomes emotionally out of control. The chase is on. Now every so often denial's anger turns back into pain so they begin to desire and become obsessed to contac.Obsessed feels these emotional pulls and in pure desperation answers these pulls through phone or stalking. Upon contact denial rejects obsessed which only makes obsessed more and more desperate. Suddenly obsessed begins to turn their anger back into pain. Now they have switched places. {This can happen many times.} The length of the game varies, during which the emotional breakdown, physical breakdown and far too often suicide. People it's time to find a better way to romance each other. Maybe some honesty and loyalty would help. What do you think? Success is not in what you own or do in life but in how much love you are able to give. LOVE AND LET LIVE! Peace of mind comes from: the love you give, being honest, complete forgiving, and generosity! |