We were both weeping. Openly, unabashedly. Together we were watching Titanic. Ashton was very sentimental and not afraid to cry. We watched Titanic at least three times, and cried every time.

I do believe that Ashton's heart has gone on.

Before the paramedics arrived at the house, I saw Ashton's eyes go vacant. Staring at me but not seeing. Somehow I brought him back. When the paramedics arrived and asked Ashton were he was, he said, "In a white house." They asked the question again. He replied, "I'm home."

Our house is not white.

Ashton had not suffered a stroke but a heart attack. He knew where he was, but I do believe his heart had moved on... and it was there he was in a "white house". Home.