"Seasons"
The more I live,
The more I remember--
Until I can't go outside
Without being reminded
Of better days.

I. Fall
Beginning again--
Losing again--
My unavoidable
Cycle of life.
When everything's new--
Yet everything's the same--
Different people with
The same fresh, happy faces--
Failure is in the air.

II. Winter
The bitter cold--
I'm downtown again--
Shivering in my thick coat,
Laughing with those
I loved--
Whose faces I barely remember.
I truly miss them--
But it's over now--
Loneliness is in the air.

III. Spring
How long has it been--
Since I felt warmth?
There's life everywhere
(But in me) --
The possibility of freedom
Makes these chains
All the more heartbreaking.
I always seem to be left behind.
Abandonment is in the air.

IV. Summer
I dread you the most--
I am the only unhappy one--
They're laughing and running--
Through sun and sprinklers--
I watch from the window
In my room--
Where I always am.
And that fateful day
Is intertwined in the heat--
The day is present in all seasons--
The winter of my existence.
I can't face the sun.
Betrayal is in the air.

I can't bear the outside--
Because every temperature--
In every kind of weather--
I'm reminded of my worst days.

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