About how my life was wrapped up in an online computer game and the people within it.

#201. "And I Am Good" (10.15.2007)
for the barest hint of promise
i'm starving myself, worn out and hungry,
flitting from one empty thing to another --
i'm ashamed of the lack of meaning,
the confines i work so hard within,

(i turn it on)
and everything's there
(i turn it off)
and everything's gone.

but what i find in that nothingness
is a world within a world,
flesh and bone made into fantasy,
the people and the emotions they inspire
as real as any in the real world

(i turn it on)
and you are there
(i turn it off)
and everything's gone.

do you know why i am there?
i don't want to be what i am in the real world,
and there i am better than i am,
he says "you're the best" in a handsome growl,
and there is so much better than here --

(i turn it on)
and i am good
(i turn it off)
and everything's gone.

i throw myself into that nothingness
to escape the true nothingness of the real world,
and there is so much better than here.

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