#230. "I'll Stay As Long As You Want Me To" (04.07.2011)
Looking back on what I had been
There's really not that much that has changed,
      But I can tell
      That there were still
      Some signs of life.

I won't say I was happy then
But as much as I tried to deny,
      I can tell now
      That there was still
      A bit of hope.

It's amazing to me -
It's such a little thing
      To feel things like
      Hate or anger
      Or excitement.

Now everything feels empty
And just tired and sad -
      All those feelings
      Are just shadows
      Of what they were.

I won't let you hurt like I do
I'll stay as long as you want me to -
      That's the least that
      I can do when
      You stayed by me.

And because I know how it feels
To mourn over something every day -
      How grief eats you
      Alive until
      There's nothing left.

I can't let you hurt like that
So as much as it hurts
      I will stay here
      As long as you
      Want me to.

I know that it still hurts
To watch it all crumble
      But I'll still stay
      As long as you
      Want me to.

But if you love me too
Maybe you'll let me go -
Maybe you'll see how it hurts,
How I don't want this,
How I'm really just waiting
Until you see the truth about me -
That I died a long time ago.

(It's so damn hard)
You could see what I was
(For you to let me go)
Things were so bad back then
(Oh won't you let me go)
      But as bad as
      It was then it's
      Even worse now.

(It's so damn hard)
If you thought it was bad then
(For you to let me go)
If you think it's bad now
(Oh won't you let me go)
      Do you want to
      Wait and watch it
      Get even worse?

(It's so damn hard)
Is it really that much worse
(For you to let me go)
For me to pass away now
(Oh won't you let me go)
      Than for me to
      Slowly pass on
      In front of you?

(It's so damn hard)
Why can't you just accept it?
(For you to let me go)
You're trying to save a corpse
(Oh won't you let me go)
      But I'll still stay
      As long as you
      Want me to.

Why can't you just accept it?
Living is killing me
      But I'll still stay
      As long as you
      Want me to.

Why can't you just accept it?
Living has killed me
      But I'll still stay
      As long as you
      Want me to.

(It's so damn hard)

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