Chapter 28: Always Be My Baby
I talked to Justin, we had a long talk and I told him about what
was going to happen in less than a week. He was devastated like I
was. What was I going to do? Me and Justin hung out all the time.
I tried to get in touch with Nick, but my baby blue best friend..... I had lost touch with!!! I stayed with Justin day and night, my mom understood that I wanted to be with him so she let me stay with him.
We just hung out on beach, lay
down in his room, watched TV. and I just cried in his arms!
I didn't want to leave him! He was everything I needed and
wanted in my life!!! I haven't even told Erica, basically
because I didn't want to see her face
when she got upset at me for leaving! I finally got the
courage to call her up.
"Hello,"she asked cheerily.
"Hey, It's me Ashley! I got something to tell you so you better sit down," I said to her starting cry for what seemed like the 100th time that day.
"What is it?" Erica asked afraid of what the answer would be.
"I'm moving," I said crying. "I'll be leaving in a few days.. 2 to be exact," I said crying into the phone.
"What?! Why? How did this happen?" she cried nearing yelling into the phone!
"I don't know!!! It just happened! I am so going to miss you so much!!!!!" I said crying.
In 5 minutes, Erica came over.
"What are you going to do?" Erica asked me in my room. We were sprawled out on the floor, moving boxes were everywhere, everything was packed and ready to go. Looking at my room, it made it look so final, that I was actually leaving! It's a thought I didn't want to confront.
"I don't know, I don't know what I am going to do without Justin.. he's everything to me!! Besides you of course!" I said sighing.
"I'll take care of Justin for you okay?!" she said. I eyed her warily, not knowing just how to indulge that comment.
"Not like that!" Erica said laughing.
"Okay just making sure" I said.
We had fun and it made me realize how much I would miss her. I heard the doorbell ring and Erica opened the door.
"Hey, Justin, we were just talking about you!" Erica said slyly.
"Oh really?" Justin asked smiling.
"Yes, Ashley was just saying..." Erica said but I stopped her before she could continue.
"Ashley wasn't saying anything! Hey!" I said greeting his face with a kiss.
"I'll leave you two alone!" Erica said smiling and she left.
"So, how have you been?" Justin asked.
"Not good," I admitted sadly.
"Me either! I can't imagine ever spending a day without you!" Justin said upset.
I looked at him, but
didn't want this to become a crying fest. I turned on
the radio and heard a great song....
You say it's been to long
since you had some
You say I turn you on
Like the fire that's burning inside
You think that I'm one the one
You see in your dreams
It's Creeping Around in my head
Be holding you down in my bed
You don't have to say a word..
I'm convinced you want this..
Me and Justin were both dancing in my room. I was having so much
fun! I forgot that we were moving. While dancing, I decided to
give Justin a small kiss on the lips. He was startled but
kissed me back.
"Justin, I don't want to lose you" I said falling on my bed.
"You won't," he said.
"Wait, Ashley I don't want to do this yet!" Justin said laying on my bed turning to face me. "I want it to be special! Let's wait, besides now you have a great welcome home gift when you come to visit me!" Justin said grinning.
"You're right!" I said smiling. "How could I deserve a guy like you?" I asked him happily.
"I don't know!" Justin said jokingly.
I laughed and we just lay there talking and laughing. It was comforting that I was with him on my last day with him.. (well not last but close to it). My mom let him stay over that night....Isn't that great of her???
So Justin stayed the night.... nothing happened, I was so relaxed knowing he was here with me on my last day, it made my day you know? When morning came, I dreaded it, it was the last day I would see Justin, JC, Lance, Chris, Joey and of course Erica and the rest of my friends! I would miss them so much! I started crying because this was my life, everything was here in Florida, and in one moment it was all gone!! I don't know what I'll do without them! I guess Justin heard my crying. I didn't want to wake him but I guess I did.
"Ashley, sweetie everything is going to be fine," Justin said reassuringly.
"We're going to start our tour in a couple of days, we'll be sure to schedule, 2 concert dates in LA okay? I'll make sure of it, because you know I want to be with you," Justin said pulling my face up and wiping my tears away.
"I love you" Justin said looking into my eyes.
"I love you too Justin, which is why it pains me to leave you," I said crying on his shoulder.
"Look, it'll be okay," Justin said. With eyes like that how could I not believe him? I kissed him slowly trying to savor the moment because I knew it was going to be our last...
Justin left and I got dressed, Erica and the rest of my friends threw a very sweet going away party!
"I'm gonna miss you so
much" I told Erica but Justin was nowhere in sight! I
thought he would at least come to say goodbye!
"Can this be true tell me can this be real?
How can I put into words what I feel?
My life is complete
I thought I was whole
Why do I feel like I'm losing control?
Never thought that love would feel like this
Then you changed my world with just one kiss
How it could this be that right here with me?
There's angel, it's a miracle..."
and there he was... dressed in white.. my baby Justin with his 4
friends lagging behind.
"Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep
Your soul is like a secret that I could never keep
When I look into your eyes I know that it's true
God Must Have Spent A Little More Time On You"
The guys walked toward me and it was so romantic! I could
tell Justin decided thiis was my going away present. He gave me a
kiss on the cheek before continuing the song...
"In all of creation, all things great and small
You are the one that surpasses them all
More precious than any diamond or pearl
They broke the mold when you came in this world
And I'm trying hard to figure out
Just how I ever did without
The warmth of your smile
The heart of child
That's deep inside
It keeps me purified"
JC said. I sat down on the bench and he came right up to me
like he was singing the lyrics to me!! I was just looking
into his eyes. He held my hand the entire time he sang his
lines. And his hands were in mine the entire time, people started
to whisper so he walked away not before giving me a sweet kiss on
the cheek but of course without whispering "I'll
miss you Ashley!!"
I smiled.
"Your love is like a river peaceful and deep
(and deep)
Your soul is like a secret that I never could keep
When I look into your eyes I know that is true
God must have spent a little more time on You"
"Never thought that love
could feel like this
And you changed my world with just one kiss
How can it be that right here with me
There's an angel.. it's a miracle.....
Your love is like a river peaceful and deep
Your soul is like a secret that I could never keep
When I look into your eyes I know that it's true
God Must Have Spent A Little More Time On You"
They finished the song without first saying : "I love you
Ashley, and I'll be yours forever," Justin said
blowing me a kiss.
"I love you too baby" I said.
"Awe" the crowd said in unison.
Justin stuck out his tongue happily and I ran over to him to kiss him. After the party ended it was about 3:00 or 4:00 and I was leaving in about a half an hour! So I said goodbye to everyone... sadly of course.
Justin drove me to the airport, my parents would be meeting me there along with my sister... (she has been everywhere with her 3 boyfriends! Don't even ask!) So the ride was short.. unfortunate and we got there. The guys also greeted me there.
"Bye Ashley!" they said. I gave them all hugs before deporting.
"Plane 64 going to California, passengers please board the plane," the announcer said.
"Well I gotta go guys!" I gave them one last hug before leaving! I took a deep breath and walked down the halls.
"What am I going to do?" I asked myself.
"Ashley," I heard someone call. I turned around.
"JC," I said puzzled.
"What are you doing here?" I asked him.
"Well I couldn't leave without saying goodbye could I?" he said. I gave him a hug.
"I just wanted to tell you, I will miss you, you have always been there for me and I just want to thank you for that! I also wanted to say, that there is someone very special in my life," he started.
"Well who is she?" I asked wondering who the lucky girl was that made JC light up and make his eyes sparkle.
"It's you, Ashley I always felt it was you" JC said. Then he boldly kissed me like I did to him in the car, only this time he was the one doing the kissing. I kissed him back, but I couldn't do that to Justin..
"JC, wait.. I can't do this!" I said looking into his eyes.
"I thought I would give it a shot!" he said looking down at the floor.
"Maybe someday! We'll talk about it later!" I said I gave JC one small kiss on the lips.
"Bye" I said and hurried onto the plane.
Well at least I tried... JC thought.. Then JC saw Justin.
"Justin, man I'm sorry" JC said trying to apologize to his friend. But the damage had been done.....