Jade sighed deeply as she heard the front door of the appt.shut softly.

She hugged the warm blanket closer to her remembering how Howie was holding her not longer than an hour ago.

"why didn't I tell him"she asked herself frustrated.

She kicked the bed and let out another loud hopeless sigh.

"damnit,baka Jade"she cursed herself in japanise. "stupid,stupid,stupid"she metally scolded herself.

Hearing the phone ring she threw the covers off and reached over to the left to the night stand.

She banged her hand around trying to grab the phone.

Finelly she picked it up.

"hello".

"ahhh,trying to see with your hands again Jadey?"

Jade rolled her eyes listening to Brian.

"you know me too well Bri"she answered.

"anyway,did lover boy leave yet"

Jade brushed back a piece of her hair. "ya Bri,he left"Jade looked at the clock"10 minutes ago"

"ok Jadey,get back to sleep,see you later,and take a damn pregnancy test"Brian said laughing.

"ok will do"Jade said hanging up.

'that man can read minds"she thought swinging her legs over the side of the bed.

She stumbled off and made her way to the kitchen.

She looked around to see a red rose and a note.

"hey honey,I had to leave early,Im so sorry,belive me I am,anyway I made you breakfast,its in the oven,see you later.Love you,Howie"

Jade smiled folding the note in half.

"ah he always knows my needs"she thought opening the oven door.

"ah,ha pancakes,oh how I love you Howie"she said taking out the plate.

She saw a little stick tag on the side.

"its your fav.you love me don't you" Jade read it and smiled.

Soon her smile disappered. "I have to tell him,today"she said with a determind look on her face.

"well.....after I eat"she exclaimed picking up a fork.