All Of My Friends Mean The World To Me But All For Different Reasons I Need Them In My Life To Keep Me Up Standing With A Smile. I Need Them More Then I Could Ever Try To Explain I Just Wouldnt Be Me Without Them. Here Is A List Of My Most Important Friends And What Makes Them Different From Everybody Else:

Natalie- man Natalie is my girl! Ive known her for 10years she has been through everything with me, she knows everything about what has happened to me in the past. All the bad and all the good. She knows me just as well as I know myself. I love her to death. People say when they are close that they are like siblings, but Natalie is so much more than that to meshe is more like an actual part of me like I wouldnt be here if it wasnt for her. She is always there for me to talk to and understands what Im going through better than anybody else. She is smart but doesnt seem to think of herself like that. She thinks she has no hope and she doesnt seem to enjoy her life as much as she should. She lost hope in everything a few years ago. Her world was crumbling from beneath her and she just need someone to be by her side through it all and Im glad it was me. About a year and a half ago Natalie and me got into a HUGE fight and didnt talk for 3months. It was the longest and worst fight we have ever been in. I hated it more than anything did (at the time). It tore at my heart each day I went without talking to her. Knowing that people were bitching at her because they were on my side. The ones that I heard about I approached them and told them to stop because it wasnt their fight and if I had something to say to her I can say it myself. It hurt so bad because it didnt just feel like I was losing my best friend, it felt like I was losing a chunk of my life! It felt like my whole past and everything good about it was disappearing right out from in front of me and there was nothing I could do about it. When we became friends again I was so relieved. And even to this day we are still bestest friends. I hope nothing ever comes between us because I need her in my life so that I at least have one person that will always know what Im going through better than anyone else. (booger buddies LMAO- inside joke)

Simon- I have so much to say about Simon that I dont know where to start. He means so much to me its almost unbelievable I can honestly say I love him. I dont love him in the boyfriend/girlfriend way but in the hes my best guy friend and I know that he will always be there for me. He has been there for me so many times its unreal. He is like my safety, kind of like a security blanket that little kids have that makes them feel safe well thats kind of how I am with Simon. I care about him so much. He means the world to me. I dont know what I would be doing right now if he hadnt helped me through some of the shit he helped me with. He has this great personality that when youre around him he always seems to make you smile. When I need to talk to someone he is always there to lend his shoulder to cry on or lend his ears to listen to whats wrong. He is the sweetest guy. He makes me feel so good about myself when he tells other people how much he cares for me and how he knows I care for him. When him and Jamie and Mallory got in a fight he told them that they dont understand and the only person in his life that truly cares about him and understands him is me. I found that out and I almost started crying because he knows that Ill always be there for him no matter what. Simon and me have been through a lot of shit together in each others lives. I know that having him there with me helped a lot and I hope I did the same for him. I dont know what I would do without that kid. He is always there when times get rough. I trust him more than I trust a lot of people and its because he has earned my trust and never let it go. I try my hardest to always make sure Simon is happy and he always seems to do the same for me. If he ever reads this I would want him to know that I love him so much and I hope he never ever forgets that no matter what Im always going to be here for him. (band camp)

Deela- I have a lot to say about Deela to. Even though I havent known Deela for a year I trust her so much. I dont know why but there is just something about her that makes me trust her so much. Its strange how things work out that way. But she has been there for me through so much. She was there for me when Jon and I broke up for the first and second time. She helped get us back together. She helped me when Mallory was pissing me off. She gave me a place to go as a sanctuary away from all the problems of my house and with my friends. Even though it was just one day it helped me so much just to be gone. She is so good at cheering me up if she finds out Im in a bad mood she always finds a way to make me smile (except once but I was really pissed off that day). She is there when I need someone to talk to and its so weird because I talk to her like Ive known her forever but really its been like 8months. I honestly believe without her I would be lost. Because when it came to the stuff to do with Jon and Mallory she knew what to do better than anyone else. She is so much smarter than me :p she always seems to know the right thing for me to do more than I do. When Im mad she lets me vent to her (I feel bad for doing it but it just seems to happen). She is one of the strongest people I know. Even though she doesnt have the best life she always seems to put her friends problems before her own and I have so much respect towards her because of it. She holds herself up so well. Goes through pretty much every day with a smile (except on the days people piss her off). She is just there for everyone. She goes through so much shit I dont know how she lives through it and I dont even know everything. I wouldnt be able to do it. And if I did manage to do it I wouldnt be as happy as Deela is. I wouldnt know what to do with myself Id just drift off stop caring and worrying about other people and just stop my life. But not her, she is there everyday being a friend to the people close to her and even to the ones that arent that close. She is amazing and Im so glad I can call her my friend. (pre school potties!!!- inside joke with my kettle)

Barak- It feels like Ive known Barak my whole life. He is there for me to talk to so much and I just met him approximately 8weeks ago. He is so easy to talk to like I said before it seems like Ive known him forever. Natalie says that she thinks he likes me but he told her didnt . Im kind of scared if he does the reason Im scared by that is because Jon and me got kinda close before we started dating and while we were dating we got closer, but now we just try to talk and it seems so distant. I dont want that to happen with Barak and me to. He is the sweetest guy. When Im in a bad mood he always trys to cheer me up and he sings to me and he always compliments me and tells me how awesome I am and how Im such a sweety. It makes me feel so good about myself to always have someone theyre telling you how awesome you are. He is just what I need in my life to keep me going and thinking positively. The first time we met it was over the phone some how and we ended up talking for like 5hours and then we talked for like 3or more hours the next day. I dont know why but its like him and me were meant to meet. Its like he just popped out of the sky one day. He treats me super great but I hope that he doesnt like me in a romantic type way because I dont want to lose him and I dont want to hurt him. He has been hurt by a lot of girls and I dont want to be added to that list. Especially since Im not over Jon yet I dont want him to get hurt because he thinks the only reason I couldnt date him is because of another guy. But who knows, maybe he doesnt like me and just thinks of me as a friend. I mean he is a great guy and any girl would be lucky to have him but like I said I dont want to lose him as a friend like I think I did Jon. (Pizza Pops!)

Jon- well to start off Jon is my ex boyfriend. He dumped me 9days ago and Im not over him nearly yet. Its kind of hard to think about him because he is the first guy I have ever loved and I lost him. I got dumped because he was still in love with his ex girlfriend and he didnt think it was right to be dating me when he had such strong feelings for another person. And I understand what he is saying because right now I cant date anyone because I still have such strong feelings for Jon. I dont know why but I cant even bring myself to do anything more than kiss another guy since me and Jon broke up. Last night I was cuddling with this guy(totally drunk was I) and all I could think of when he was kissing my neck was I wish it was Jon. I mean for god sakes Ive never even kissed Jon and I still wish it was him over another guy. Ive talked to him once since him and I broke up but it was such a distanced conversation it was so hard. When I saw he was online I just got harsh butterflies and I didnt know what to do. We said like a whole 5 words to each other and that was our conversation. Its not fair. I want him back so bad but he is in love with Crystal and even though it sucks I just want him to be happy. I DONT EVER REGRET dating him but I hate how we ruined our friendship by going out. We were pretty close and now all we do is say about 5 words each to each other and thats it. I wish things werent like that but its going to take a while for me to try and change that. I want to badly though so maybe just maybe him and me will at least be friends again. Because I lost him as a boyfriend I dont want to lose him as a friend to if that already hasnt happened. (Super flower Jonny, Super Noodle Linda, And Sailor Deela Mars)

Naomi- she is and will be my baby girl for life. She made up this family about 6months ago and said that I was the mom. She talks to me when she has problems and I worry about her sometimes because she has a lot of shit that goes on in her life and I dont want her to do something shell regret after (especially if she isnt alive to regret it). Its funny because she can piss me off sometimes just like any of my other friends but we always seem to get through it. She is always there for me when I need someone to talk to. She always tells me how much she cares about me and how much she loves me. It makes me feel so good about myself knowing that someone loves me that much. Its great. She is outgoing and funny and just I dont know how else to explain her other than saying she is Naomi. She is unique and just always herself. She doesnt change for other people no matter what and I respect her so much for that. She isnt afraid to tell you something even if you dont want to here it. If she thinks that youre being a bitch or stuck up or rude or whatever else she is going to tell you how she feels. I mean yes sometimes it can get her in a lot of trouble but like I said before at least she is honest and I respect her for it. She isnt just going to tell you what you want to here just because something may have happened because that means she is lying to you. She is going to tell you how she feels and what her opinion on things is. She means so much to me. I dont know. Its weird because I havent known her for that long but she just makes me feel so good about myself J . I LOVE YOU BABY GIRL!(biggie da boobs)

Jimm- he is such a sweet guy. He treats his girlfriends like gold! Even if they treat him like dirt or if they hurt him he still treats them with the most respect. He is so forgiving to, even if the thing is really bad he forgives people. Like one of his ex girlfriends not only treated him like dirt and whatever she cheated on him with her ex boyfriend and he forgave her and never broke up with her. He just accepted that it happened took her word that it would never happen again. I mean he is amazing the way he treats girls. I wouldnt ever date him because I dont look at him like that I just have so much respect for him. He is so caring if he finds out Im in a bad mood he will always try to make me smile. I cant talk to him like I can the other people mentioned above because I dont know I dont really trust many people and its not that I dont trust him its I dont feel comfortable having him knowing about my personal problems. When people see me everyday Im happy and in a good mood I dont want people to see any other side of me. Although there have been a few times when I have talked to Jimm about things that have been bothering me if he doesnt know the people Im talking about. He is honestly just a great guy. (truth or dare)

Jackie- she can be the smartest and dumbest person you ever meet at the same time. She acts so dumb sometimes with me and we always have a good time when we are together. She is smart because she almost always knows what to do and she knows how to treat people with respect. She can see through you if your trying to be someone your not and she respects people that tell her the truth. She may have a weird sense of humor but so do I thats part of the reason we get along so well. She is crazy and outgoing and just so much fun to be around. She can always make you smile no matter what kind of a mood you are in. She doesnt judge people before getting to know them and she is so happy all the time. I can talk to her about anything and it doesnt matter if she agrees with what Im saying or not she listens to me. She is one of my best friends and I love her to death. She is another person that tells you the truth even if you dont want to hear it. When I was friends with this one girl she told me that I changed ever since I started to hang around her all the time and once I stopped being friends with that person I realized Jackie was right. She is the best.(but the elephants are still mad at you)

Jesse- I met him through Mallory about 3months or so ago. He is really easy to talk to and he is so nice. He talks to me about a lot of things and Im happy when I can help him out. I like talking to him about some of the problems Im going through because he doesnt know any of the people Im having the problems with so he gives me advice on what he thinks I should do from my point of view. He is so understanding. He used to live in Edmonton but now he lives on the other side of the country! But he is supposed to be moving back soon as soon as he saves up enough money J . (my theory)

Mike- I met Mike at a party at the beginning of the summer and we hit it off right away. It was funny because he was upset over one of my friends because he liked her but he didnt think she liked him back. I talked to him that night and I got them to talk and I even ended up hooking them up! They didnt end up lasting long but I made his night better because of it and Im so happy. He isnt really friends with any of the other people that were at the party any more. I talked to him on MSN and at first he didnt remember who I was because me and him hadnt talked for a long time but then he was like oh yea I remember u were the only one at the party who has a brain(can u tell he doesnt know me very well :p). I dont talk to him very often but when I do I love helping him with his problems. He is so nice. (scaring people by being nice)

Asif- he is 26 and really likes my friend Natalie. I talk to him like every day and he tells me whats new with his life and what he has been doing and who he is interested in going out with. He is really nice to me all the time. He always compliments me and stuff J . I like talking to him and helping him with his problems or cheering him up when he is sad. He is a really nice guy and I dont know any of his ex girlfriends or anything but he seems like another one of those guys that would treat their girlfriend like a princess. I hope he finds the perfect girl for himself someday because he deserves it. (I love her more)

Lacie- is so much fun to be with. I met her at the beginning of grade9 and she was the one who would talk to me the most out of everyone that Deana introduced me to the first day. After about 2days all the other ones started talking to me more but yes. She is so outgoing and is a pot head :D and there is nothing wrong with it. I love getting drunk with her and Terra and smoking weed with the two of them. I dont get to see her very often any more and I plan on changing that because I love spending time with her. She is just Lacie. I dont know any one else like her (except for in some ways Terra but they are best friends what do u expect). She is so nice. She always has a smile on and has such a good out look on things. Without her me and Natalie would have never made up from that big fight as soon as we did because Lacie was there to talk to me and help me realize I need to just drop being mad and smoke a peace joint ;):p. I love her so much. She is such a great person and I hope she never changes!(making tinkle LMAO)

Terra- is my ex wife. Lmao Terra is the best. I love hanging out with her I love being around her. She is so much fun to get drunk with and trip out with. She is just Terra. She is another one of those people that u cant really describe except for saying they are themselves. I like talking to her because she is just so much fun and she is the nicest person. She cares about her friends a lot. I dont know what else to say about her except to keep saying she is great so Im going to stop now but just remember she un fucking believable :p (in a good way). (Canada Day)

Ryan- I met Ryan through Patricia just over a year ago. Me and him the first time we talked decided we were going to make a porno together :p never happened but hey there is still time. LOL. He is so much fun to talk to because we have so much in common. He is one of those friends you dont talk about your problems with you just share the good stuff with. He is a happy friend :p because we only talk about happy things. And Im glad I have him because now I know if Im ever in a bad mood I can talk to him and not have to worry about any bad/sad things. (they why am I talking to you)

James- is my 34yr old neighbor. He is so cool. A lot of people my age hang out at his house all the time. He is so cool. He smokes weed with me and talks to me. Not really about anything personal but I know that if I needed someone to talk to I could talk to him. He is so funny and I love being around him. He doesnt put up with peoples bullshit and if he doesnt like you he tells you. People get the wrong impression when they look at him sometimes because he looks like an asshole but he really isnt. (TOOTHPASTE!)

Deon- lives across the street from me. He is so nice. I go over to his house all the time. I love hanging out there with him and Donna because they are so cool. He has a thing for Naomi ;) which I think is cute except for the fact that he is 21 and she is 14. He likes to give me free weed and alcohol all the time but I feel bad when I take it because he is so giving and I dont like taking things from other people. But is kind of hard to say no to him because he just keeps asking you till you say yes. (swimming pool LMAO)

Carrie- is another one of my kids out of Naomis made up family. This may sound bad but when I think of Carrie I think of being high. Just because every time I see her we smoke weed. I love hanging out with her but I dont get the chance to do that very often either. I miss spending time with her. She is so great to be around when Im tripping out. Her parents are very over protective of her and she isnt supposed to hang out with me but we do any ways. (stir-fry)

Dani- I met her through Naomi at the beginning of last year. She is so sweet and SEEMS innocent. Honestly she looks like a blonde Avril Lavigne and every one tells her that. She is so quite and nice. I like being around her she is so much fun to toke up and get drunk with. Dani, Naomi, Chrystine, and me all went to the fringe high on mush. Omg it was so much fun! I had the best time. (the fringe)

Jamie- I have known Jamie for about 4 years now. She is so nice. We didnt talk for about 2 years because after I moved in the middle of grade 7 we lost contact but Im happy that we are talking again now. She is really sweet. She understands what Im going through with certain people and so I like talking to her because when she gives be advice she at least knows what the fuck she is talking about. (Steve were almost the same height that is cool LMAO)

Chad- is Natalies stepbrother. Until about a year ago I never used to talk to him all that much. But now every time I see him we toke up together and have the best time. He is so much fun to be with because he always trips me out and its so much fun. During summer break he moved to Fort Mack so I dont see him very often. Ive seen him once since he moved and that was because he came camping but me him and Natalie had such a good time that weekend. (who had my smoke Chad can I have another smoke LoL typical Natalie hey LMAO)

To All My Girls (even the ones that I didnt get to mention)- You Mean The World To Me. I Love And Have So Much Respect For You All. You Have Been There For Me When I Needed You. Through Good Times And Bad Weve Been By Each Others Side Holding Each Other Up And Being Strong When The Other Cant. I Dont Know What Id Do Without U Guys. I Love You People And I Hope You Never Change!

To All My Boys (even the ones that I didnt get to mention)- You Guys Are The Best. You Dont Let Your Male Ego Get In The Way Of Helping Me Out When I Have A Problem And I Am So Thankful For That I Cant Even Put It Into Words. Any Girl Would Be Luck To Have You And Some Girls Are Lucky Enough To Get A Chance With You. Dont Fool Yourselves You Are To Good For Any Girl That Comes Along So Dont Sell Yourself Short Just Because You Think You Cant Do Any Better Because I Know Different. Dont Let Girls Treat You Like Dirt And Walk All Over You Because You Can Do So Much Better Than That. I Hate It When I See Some Stupid Bitch Hurt You. Its Not Right Because You Are All So Wonderful Its Hard To Know You Got Hurt And I Cant Do Anything About It. But Just Remember Im Always Here For You Like You Have Always Been There For Me. And Never Forget That!