Meditations On Innocence: October 24th, 2014
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Education about as well as Prevention of Forced Human Trafficking (with an emphasis on healing as well as surviving child sex trafficking and child abuse) through writing, reading, dancing, typing and creativity (I'll likely change the name when I'm not about to lose my temper)



because you had to go out on the balcony (please stay with the original variances in font type aswellas size)

turned back on stage
Ethelbert sets a small bird
Outside for air. Choose.

Sunday, October 26th, 2008

ASAP assistance please however these needless emergencies are annoyingly superficial!

note: Please be aware of prisoners, elderly disabled children and people in protected custody and anyone using the word of the day 'flowering' might be forced outdoors!

it is freezing here in Portland Oregon

and at times a Mom/mom will remind me what the child abusers would do if given the chance will disguised as my Mom

it is freezing here in Portland Oregon

note: Please be aware of prisoners, elderly disabled children and people in protected custody and anyone using the word of the day 'flowering' might be forced outdoors!

I said outloud to mock the sex predictors when locking doors:
one lock
two lock
three lock
four
all sexual predators stay outdoors
(OR a slight variation)

~~~

Daily Task

Daily Task




~urine DNA confirmation
listen 24 aswellas self noteid

(twenty ~ seven blank spaces) calling a twenty ~ four hour effovrt to target sexually violent perpetrators targeting ~urine listen 24 aswellas self noteid

(twenty ~ seven blank spaces) calling a twenty ~ four hour effort to target sexually violent perpetrators targeting: lesbians, aswellas lesbian's property.

(twenty ~ seven blank spaces) ¥ calling a twenty ~ four hour effort to target sexually violent perpetrators targeting: women aswellas girls with severe and permanent disabilities, aswellas disabled women and girls's property...

¥ (twenty ~ seven blank spaces) ¥ in particular, calling a twenty ~ four hour effort to target sexually violent perpetrators targeting: my Mom. my Mom is a woman. my Mom is over seventy years old. she has injuries and disabilities due to torture. torture is illegal in every country. ¥ (twenty ~ seven blank spaces) ¥ calling a twenty ~ four hour effort to target sexually violent perpetrators targeting: my older sister ¥ (twenty ~ seven blank spaces) ¥ calling a twenty ~ four hour effort to target sexually violent perpetrators targeting: me, I am a lesbian, aswellas a disabled woman ¥

¥ (twenty ~ seven blank spaces) calling a twenty ~ four hour effort to target sexually violent perpetrators targeting: anyone that my Mom, my older sister or I have interacted with in the past or will interact with in the next twenty ~ four hours. ¥

(twenty ~ seven blank spaces) calling a twenty ~ four hour effort to target sexually violent perpetrators targeting: writers (specifically with ink pen and paper as a focal point) to express thoughts, feelings and experiences or to record factual time and place events. ¥ (twenty ~ seven blank spaces) ¥

¥. (twenty ~ seven blank spaces) ¥ calling a twenty ~ four hour effort to target sexually violent perpetrators targeting: anyone who believes I, aswellas any other woman artist or woman stage performer, should practice her God ~ given aswellas legal rights. ¥

¥ (twenty ~ seven blank spaces) ¥ calling a twenty ~ four hour effort to target sexually violent perpetrators targeting anyone aware of the First Amendment to the United

States Constitution aswellas the Universal Declaration of Human Rights and insistent about: freedom of speech (aswellas expression), freedom of press (aswellas all media), freedom to petition their Government, freedom of religion aswellas freedom of peaceful assembly, for themselves aswellas others. ¥ (twenty ~ seven blank spaces) ¥

calling a twenty ~ four hour effort to target sexual harassment ¥ (twenty ~ seven blank spaces) ¥ calling a twenty ~ four hour effort to target sexually violent perpetrators targeting ¥



a genuine tooth amid the puzzle pieces
(an average child with disabilities/work out drink tango dance mix)

041719661977198620012006201120116081
a short life
centuries tradition

nuclear exploitation ♿️

the violets:
the Chernobyl children grow up anyway and are unashamed to be themselves

hidden violets

usually I never keep secrets
however
just in case you might want them
I am hiding a bouquet of violets for you.
even I do not know where
or what shade they are
purple? violet? red violet? rose?
they are for you and no one else
I am trying very hard not to mention them because I don't want to look like I care because then they might be taken away
and daily life would hurt more than it does now
(oh ~ oh, I just gave away my bouquet idea!)

in my mind
my bouquet is mostly redviolet
and maybe
you will think of me
and try not to be afraid
because at times in my life
I have hurt and suffered
and found a way
to pass on
a
bouquet
of
violets

my homeland is gone

while looking for my true homeland
my homeland disappeared

surrounded with sanctimonious sweet tooth
there is little escape
from viewing gone

BBC - Ouch! (disability) - Features - Desirability: Julia's body
BBC - Ouch! (disability) - Features - Desirability: Julia's body


green seatbelt murder

(I like the way you walk I like the way you talk; its in the way you wear your hat writing multi media dance mix)

the great investigation into my 1977 highway pile up is nothing but turned into a farce

"but they didn't tell us they had missing children in the back room Dolphin!"

zooming in paratransit with a slippery seat and slidey pants
the sunflower seeds a top the hot sauce
the kitchen hand soap hidden
so erasing the smell of a cup of urine poured is harder
they were expecting

green seatbelt murder
right in front of your face
almost

sanctimonious sanctuary

today's drink
never enough
with wine vodka champagne beer and whiskey
9665 days ago

sanctimonious sanctuary
on board abuse
requires modest patience
and a woman's sentimentality
marrow deep

sanctimonious sanctuary more

prayer: all Americans donate blood, organs or/and whatever international aid is needed
as individuals making up a country
we replace what we have taken away

a penny a dollar go a long way ♿️

hypocrites teeth are the sweet lies of sleaze
a sanctimonious tooth is discovered
in greed's mouth

sanctimonious sonar sex

(short version)

studies show that young adults dance and have sex and other uses of the American taxpayer dollar

sanctimonious sonar sex more


studies show that young adults dance and have sex


other uses of the American taxpayer dollar are abuse of nuclear chemicals in competition to define the phrase 'sweet tooth'


because of misuse of funding, lack of expertise and willing participants, a door locking training program has been initiated


local police are being asked not to use extreme force or draw weapons while learning to count to four ( as in four locks on doors leading to the outside at night)


patience and compassion have been required on a city and State level while Oregon citizens contemplate and consider the differences in male and female in both humans aswellas dogs


funding has been set aside for an interactive community discussion about the legality of people with disabilities to use sarcasm and political parody


however the escalating violence has prevented further  research beyond preliminary evidence that middle aged sanctimonious asswipes resent aging and women's sentimentality studies show that young adults dance and have sex

perceiving a river

the saddest thing about a woeful existence is forgetting if you go outside and watch life's river, eventually you'll realize just how happy you really are.

then

find a way to sense water flows over around rocks
without stopping
to worry
about
why
there
are
so
many
rocks
in
the
river

poem

literary puzzle piece

as sanctimonious as the word 'literary' sounds
the existence of all things bookish
create sweet determinations
to find a genuine tooth
amid the puzzle pieces

child defending child

pauses to feel helpless are too long
a race to the goal
a goal
a goal
a goal
hurry up when the goal is relief for the woeful!
service's hue
humility
children deserve to be children
I have seen slow moving pastels in the sky
every day
is looking at the sky and breathing deeply enough?
answer: vital recognitions

rock your word class
Julie Jeanette Trahan (also known as Dolphin Julia Trahan or/and Julia Dolphin Trahan)

(please do not copy or borrow my poems without written and signed permission: the BBC/BBC OUCH! has copyright and distribution rights)

class one:

poem (edited version)
elementary escape ♿️

religion:
church:
God:
all three different

as a child, I got out from school early on Wednesdays to go to Bible study.
as skeptical as I am about organized religion,
the truth is I had a great time memorizing Bible verses
singing songs
being away from the classroom
and believing I was all grown up!

I even asked Jesus into my heart without discussing the matter with my parents, teachers at school or adults at the Unitarian Church where my family attended almost every Sunday.

To me: getting out of school early to sing as loud as I wanted, God and Jesus and the Bible and grown ~ ups being interested in what I thought about after reading were all puzzle pieces that couldn't be separated.

on August 17, 1977, at the age of eleven, I, with my grandfather and older brother, was in a highway pileup.

I went into a coma for 21 days and had a near death experience from which my venture with God is deeply rooted in my physicality (body's memory).

since I survived with numerous physical injuries, I stayed in hospitals for about two years before returning to school in a wheelchair.

during those two years I experienced and witnessed the best and worst of grace and cruelty that the human species has to offer.

however, it wasn't until young adulthood that I dreamt about a biblical angel with wings and a recompensing sword.

my angel said: 'never do anything you're ashamed of': guidance which has never let me down

post ~ coma: religion:
post ~ coma: church:
post ~ coma: God:
all different:
all God:

Hell is hesitating to listen to curses about not knowing what physicality is, as if arrogance is more important than finding similarities

Heaven is shared emotional depth

Heaven or Hell on Earth is parallel to Heaven or Hell anywhere in the Cosmos:

God is true love (lower case letters important)

Julie Jeanette Trahan (Dolphin)

sent from my iPhone

class two:

question a:

sustainable conditions (a poem about God)

how can I be separate if in a mystery you created me?
a sperm and an egg:
a Mom and a Dad:
a Heaven above and a Heaven below and a Hellish Heaven on Earth
if God is life then God created life: God is life ~ affirming:
my opinion and either broaden your opinion about God or crawl back into your hell

question b:

sanctimonious sanctuary

today's drink
never enough
with wine vodka champagne beer and whiskey
9665 days ago

sanctimonious sanctuary
on board abuse
requires modest patience
and a woman's sentimentality
marrow deep

in April 1966, I was a somewhat wild twenty year old student doing what I wanted in my own style. I didn't put up with any criticism and I despised being told, or even hearing an implication of what I Should do. I had survived a life threatening highway truck 'n' car collision and after working my way out of a wheelchair (several times) , I found a way to go to College and keep up with the no injured classes.

then I read about the Chernobyl disaster in the Ukraine and what happened to the victims and what happened to the survivors and I fell apart inside. I wanted people to have recovery like I recovered; those that weren't expected to live in addition to surviving would be healthy and mobile enough to rebuild their families and communities (a point where my current life is stuck, however not for lack of trying)

I didn't have anyone to talk to about what to do because I didn't discuss my injuries and such with my College friends and my family was at home thousands of miles away.

So I wrote a letter saying I understood physically hurting without any guarantees, and that I wanted to donate my bone marrow to help alleviate the suffering of the radiation survivors.

I received a reply to my letter thanking me. and to this day I laugh because I realize personality wise I likely appear self centered and extremely rude; and I am

however I know the best way to get through any kind of hurt is to be compassionate to others physically hurting: and it doesn't matter if lots of people know about it or if it makes me popular.

my interpretation of the word God is to continue my own path of faith and to suggest that those around me follow in suit:

sanctimonious sanctuary more

prayer: all Americans donate blood, organs or/and whatever international aid is needed
as individuals making up a country
we replace what we have taken away

have you seen these missing poems?

(note for class: in the title, poems refers to missing or exploited children or adults or/and censored writings/books/works of art/media)

a. few minutes would have made a difference

have you seen these missing poems?

note:  washed hair in kitchen sink ; identification in ground floor bathroom. ¥.                        a few cigarettes
swept outside

a fish sees the ground she walks on
here is the sound of my voice

identification in ground floor bathroom
note: feces identification in ground floor bathroom

Daily Task

~~~

I am studying to become a Private Investigator. My licensing is quite a long haul however I feel certain events and ways of being have an intentional quality of God focus: war crimes trials, United Nation Conventions and the Universal Declaration of Human Rights and policies that don't mention God are seen as a part of God* even slightly however with Jesus's Sermon on the Mount in mind, daily actions are a manifestation of divinity (my below poem is from a series however even out of context it is a meditation: leaves as a human life):

the physicality of leaves (The Nuremberg Trials)

why are you waiting until after the harm has been done?
why are you lurking and waiting to crack the musical CD cover
picture: a babies tiny hand in her Mother's large hand

is it extortion?
your self ~ centered desire to own a Hawaiian condo?

would you cut off a babies hand
in order to justify your aggressive war?

allowing a cruel niece to hire stupid cops
is indeed "our leaders" forcing us
with tiny hands
to bear the burden
as history repeats
it

question c:

hazardous conditions

(qualities of God: I am: if I am reincarnated as human I want to be reincarnated as a rock 'n' roll band; if reincarnated as a different species, please sign me up for either a dog or a dolphin if you happen to be talking to God and the discussion has an uncomfortable silence)

currently, I am happy being a force of Nature
because God is Nature and Nature is God
within these hazardous conditions

long ago, I fell completely madly seriously in love with a woman who I regarded as a living Saint.

not only was I passionately in love with her, she possessed some qualities I attempted to emulate (such as the ability to make whatever she wanted manifest)

and she admired Mother Teresa; and after finding out about Mother Teresa and her work and legacies, I also admire Mother Teresa.

God is compassionate and I am trying to learn to be compassionate.

God is silent perseverance and I am trying to learn to be silent perseverance
God is roaring perseverance and I am trying to learn to be roaring perseverance
God is an absence of complications and I am trying to learn to be an absence of complications
God is determined rather than predetermined

added after meditations/thinking about abuses of words and concepts:
God is breath: I try to be breath

~~~
*thoughts on abuse of God, Law, Scripture and the written word from question b:

when I reflect on the words of the United States Constitution, the American's with Disabilities Act, the United Nation's Conventions aswellas the Geneva Conventions, I feel like cheering, singing and dancing with urgent exultation!

much the way I feel when hearing old fashioned Gospel or even my favorite pop or rock songs

Lol! I have always been extremely nerdy!

I realized the word God is in the US Constitution and freedom of belief/to believe is protected in International law however, with so many different religions with Holy Books that don't translate when taken away from their contexts, I needed to explain, at least to myself, a center point: breathing!

With all the ways of embodying faith, I occasionally feel God save me from your followers so . . . and I choose the word try because of the daily application in both human and Divine law:

God is breath: I try to be breath

flowering your ideas♿️

(with lyrics samples from the Universal Declaration of Human Rights)

discussion grows discussion: 'whereas . . . human beings shall enjoy freedom of speech and belief and freedom from fear and want' while eating free pie:

if I could only photo synthesis, maybe then I could turn carbon dioxide into oxygen as Gods and Prophets have accomplished miraclerock your word class
Julie Jeanette Trahan (also known as Dolphin Julia Trahan or/and Julia Dolphin Trahan)

(please do not copy or borrow my poems without written and signed permission: the BBC/BBC OUCH! has copyright and distribution rights)

class one:

poem (edited version)
elementary escape ♿️

religion:
church:
God:
all three different

as a child, I got out from school early on Wednesdays to go to Bible study.
as skeptical as I am about organized religion,
the truth is I had a great time memorizing Bible verses
singing songs
being away from the classroom
and believing I was all grown up!

I even asked Jesus into my heart without discussing the matter with my parents, teachers at school or adults at the Unitarian Church where my family attended almost every Sunday.

To me: getting out of school early to sing as loud as I wanted, God and Jesus and the Bible and grown ~ ups being interested in what I thought about after reading were all puzzle pieces that couldn't be separated.

on August 17, 1977, at the age of eleven, I, with my grandfather and older brother, was in a highway pileup.

I went into a coma for 21 days and had a near death experience from which my venture with God is deeply rooted in my physicality (body's memory).

since I survived with numerous physical injuries, I stayed in hospitals for about two years before returning to school in a wheelchair.

during those two years I experienced and witnessed the best and worst of grace and cruelty that the human species has to offer.

however, it wasn't until young adulthood that I dreamt about a biblical angel with wings and a recompensing sword.

my angel said: 'never do anything you're ashamed of': guidance which has never let me down

post ~ coma: religion:
post ~ coma: church:
post ~ coma: God:
all different:
all God:

Hell is hesitating to listen to curses about not knowing what physicality is, as if arrogance is more important than finding similarities

Heaven is shared emotional depth

Heaven or Hell on Earth is parallel to Heaven or Hell anywhere in the Cosmos:

God is true love (lower case letters important)

Julie Jeanette Trahan (Dolphin)

sent from my iPhone

class two:

question a:

sustainable conditions (a poem about God)

how can I be separate if in a mystery you created me?
a sperm and an egg:
a Mom and a Dad:
a Heaven above and a Heaven below and a Hellish Heaven on Earth
if God is life then God created life: God is life ~ affirming:
my opinion and either broaden your opinion about God or crawl back into your hell

question b:

sanctimonious sanctuary

today's drink
never enough
with wine vodka champagne beer and whiskey
9665 days ago

sanctimonious sanctuary
on board abuse
requires modest patience
and a woman's sentimentality
marrow deep

in April 1966, I was a somewhat wild twenty year old student doing what I wanted in my own style. I didn't put up with any criticism and I despised being told, or even hearing an implication of what I Should do. I had survived a life threatening highway truck 'n' car collision and after working my way out of a wheelchair (several times) , I found a way to go to College and keep up with the no injured classes.

then I read about the Chernobyl disaster in the Ukraine and what happened to the victims and what happened to the survivors and I fell apart inside. I wanted people to have recovery like I recovered; those that weren't expected to live in addition to surviving would be healthy and mobile enough to rebuild their families and communities (a point where my current life is stuck, however not for lack of trying)

I didn't have anyone to talk to about what to do because I didn't discuss my injuries and such with my College friends and my family was at home thousands of miles away.

So I wrote a letter saying I understood physically hurting without any guarantees, and that I wanted to donate my bone marrow to help alleviate the suffering of the radiation survivors.

I received a reply to my letter thanking me. and to this day I laugh because I realize personality wise I likely appear self centered and extremely rude; and I am

however I know the best way to get through any kind of hurt is to be compassionate to others physically hurting: and it doesn't matter if lots of people know about it or if it makes me popular.

my interpretation of the word God is to continue my own path of faith and to suggest that those around me follow in suit:

sanctimonious sanctuary more

prayer: all Americans donate blood, organs or/and whatever international aid is needed
as individuals making up a country
we replace what we have taken away

have you seen these missing poems?

(note for class: in the title, poems refers to missing or exploited children or adults or/and censored writings/books/works of art/media)

a. few minutes would have made a difference

have you seen these missing poems?

note:  washed hair in kitchen sink ; identification in ground floor bathroom. ¥.                        a few cigarettes
swept outside

a fish sees the ground she walks on
here is the sound of my voice

identification in ground floor bathroom
note: feces identification in ground floor bathroom

Daily Task

~~~

I am studying to become a Private Investigator. My licensing is quite a long haul however I feel certain events and ways of being have an intentional quality of God focus: war crimes trials, United Nation Conventions and the Universal Declaration of Human Rights and policies that don't mention God are seen as a part of God* even slightly however with Jesus's Sermon on the Mount in mind, daily actions are a manifestation of divinity (my below poem is from a series however even out of context it is a meditation: leaves as a human life):

the physicality of leaves (The Nuremberg Trials)

why are you waiting until after the harm has been done?
why are you lurking and waiting to crack the musical CD cover
picture: a babies tiny hand in her Mother's large hand

is it extortion?
your self ~ centered desire to own a Hawaiian condo?

would you cut off a babies hand
in order to justify your aggressive war?

allowing a cruel niece to hire stupid cops
is indeed "our leaders" forcing us
with tiny hands
to bear the burden
as history repeats
it

question c:

hazardous conditions

(qualities of God: I am: if I am reincarnated as human I want to be reincarnated as a rock 'n' roll band; if reincarnated as a different species, please sign me up for either a dog or a dolphin if you happen to be talking to God and the discussion has an uncomfortable silence)

currently, I am happy being a force of Nature
because God is Nature and Nature is God
within these hazardous conditions

long ago, I fell completely madly seriously in love with a woman who I regarded as a living Saint.

not only was I passionately in love with her, she possessed some qualities I attempted to emulate (such as the ability to make whatever she wanted manifest)

and she admired Mother Teresa; and after finding out about Mother Teresa and her work and legacies, I also admire Mother Teresa.

God is compassionate and I am trying to learn to be compassionate.

God is silent perseverance and I am trying to learn to be silent perseverance
God is roaring perseverance and I am trying to learn to be roaring perseverance
God is an absence of complications and I am trying to learn to be an absence of complications
God is determined rather than predetermined

added after meditations/thinking about abuses of words and concepts:
God is breath: I try to be breath

~~~
*thoughts on abuse of God, Law, Scripture and the written word from question b:

when I reflect on the words of the United States Constitution, the American's with Disabilities Act, the United Nation's Conventions aswellas the Geneva Conventions, I feel like cheering, singing and dancing with urgent exultation!

much the way I feel when hearing old fashioned Gospel or even my favorite pop or rock songs

Lol! I have always been extremely nerdy!

I realized the word God is in the US Constitution and freedom of belief/to believe is protected in International law however, with so many different religions with Holy Books that don't translate when taken away from their contexts, I needed to explain, at least to myself, a center point: breathing!

With all the ways of embodying faith, I occasionally feel God save me from your followers so . . . and I choose the word try because of the daily application in both human and Divine law:

God is breath: I try to be breath

flowering your ideas♿️

(with lyrics samples from the Universal Declaration of Human Rights)

discussion grows discussion: 'whereas . . . human beings shall enjoy freedom of speech and belief and freedom from fear and want' while eating free pie:

if I could only photo synthesis, maybe then I could turn carbon dioxide into oxygen as Gods and Prophets have accomplished miracles with water

however Gods are in many different forms and as I understand both oxygen and carbon dioxide to be parts of God: my God is miracles and Miracles and can do and can't do and flowing conversation and weeping alone after banned

however, the importance/luxury of discussion about God is easy to forget when running out of oxygens with water

however Gods are in many different forms and as I understand both oxygen and carbon dioxide to be parts of God: my God is miracles and Miracles and can do and can't do and flowing conversation and weeping alone after banned

however, the importance/luxury of discussion about God is easy to forget when running out of oxygen

note: hurried note to FBI via their Website WEB form because I need to purchase tickets before they sell out

Dear FBI,

my Mom is not safe if I go to an Iggy Pop concert

going to ask her to pay foyer two tickets

might not go

todo sin poor test trash. was in my locked bag

~~~
note: typos explained:

Dear FBI,

my Mom is not safe if I go to an Iggy Pop concert here in Portland Oregon; his song is the soundtrack to the dance in Julia's Body: the BBC documentary: performed by the dance troupe: Julia's Body

I don't know him or want to play celebrity, however it is important to me

and yes, of course I remember his concert on DVD I purchased while living in Seattle at 920 North 34th Street Apartment 22 Saint James Tower

going to ask her to pay for two tickets meaning purchase as I am having ATM difficulties

might not go to Iggy Pop's concert; would have to figure out worry or harm done on day/night of

put toxins in blood test trash, they were in my locked bag

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ASAP ���� warning: I purchased two tickets to Iggy Pop with Mom's credit card; mom in basement; I turned off OPB fund drive so quiet here; the ticket price is below $200 however seems to have risen since I called this morning; Girlie dogs stomach is growling so loud suddenly it sounds painful

poetic conditions

poetic conditions are such appearances poetry can only be poetry when written to please: is this true? well as a woman with a love for particular words: yes. certain poems have certain conditions: an ode is not a sonnet is not a haiku and epic poems are dissimilar to aswellas//// ~~~ mid punctuated attempts integration:

poets have died because of their love of words and ability to recite or print what is often misinterpreted in a Rorschach type way (sociopaths will be sociopaths at least until they are stopped)

so a poem can indeed be created when the poet is physically stressed and doesn't have popular approval

another poem about my pelvic reconstruction surgery

it is fun to say outloud: P R S
my dog's stomach is growling so loud it hurts to hear:
my pelvic reconstruction surgery was years ago
and has held
and hold's
so how could I allow a tiny dog to suffer these conditions after such grace
was awarded to
my scars

hiya all,

I'm a bit embarrassed about having to ask in such an impersonal way however I don't know anyone in Portland who would even slightly enjoy Iggy Pop's music!

anyway, I have a companion ticket to his concert this month and don't have anyone to go with.

I hardly ever go out: his music is incredibly important to me!

his song, Girls of New York is the soundtrack to the dance in Julia's Body: the BBC documentary: performed by the dance troupe: Julia's Body (I'm Julia the choreographer of the piece and performer using the name my parents gave me for privacy and to avoid off stage drama!)

2002 and censored for the most part geez . . .

I don't know  Iggy Pop and I am super embarrassed to play celebrity, however if there is anyone who is familiar with portable equipment and wants to ask for an interview, contact me and I could put my infamous not ~ so ~ famous fame in the picture if it helps

Warm regards,

Julie (also known as Dolphin Julia Trahan or/and Julia Dolphin Trahan)

sent from my iPhone

an overcast sky

there are conditions
shaping
even an overcast sky
and if it is true:
about the law of wisdom in a human heart: then where
is the wisdom in the heart
of an overcast sky?
parallel?
opposing?

poem alert needed please
conditions oddly specific

as odd as it may seem if I had a specific supernatural phenomena gift I could grant to history I would change the fates of Billie Holiday and Thelonious Monk:
there are so many people in the world currently: and the number multiplies enormously when past generations are included: and perhaps specific supernatural phenomena gifts aren't wise to even if they became possible to do: anyway looking back at the past, I admire Billie Holiday and Thelonious Monk for their ability to communicate what went into their music with their music
And I want them to be world famous simply because they disseminate the importance of expression while expressing!

thankfully both Billie Holiday and Thelonious Monk have been internationally famous musicians for quite a while!
And I didn't do a thing And I don't have to do a thing
And I am very relieved because I do not know how to do a specific supernatural phenomena gift as is
And I am actually incredibly relieved about being able to listen to the music of Billie Holiday and Thelonious Monk

hazardous conditions

(qualities of God: I am: if I am reincarnated as human I want to be reincarnated as a rock 'n' roll band; if reincarnated as a different species, please sign me up for either a dog or a dolphin if you happen to be talking to God and the discussion has an uncomfortable silence)

currently, I am happy being a force of Nature
because God is Nature and Nature is God
within these hazardous conditions

long ago, I fell completely madly seriously in love with a woman who I regarded as a living Saint.

not only was I passionately in love with her, she possessed some qualities I attempted to emulate (such as the ability to make whatever she wanted manifest)

and she admired Mother Teresa; and after finding out about Mother Teresa and her work and legacies, I also admire Mother Teresa.

God is compassionate and I am trying to learn to be compassionate.

God is silent perseverance and I am trying to learn to be silent perseverance
God is roaring perseverance and I am trying to learn to be roaring perseverance
God is an absence of complications and I am trying to learn to be an absence of complications
God is determined rather than predetermined


Dear _________,

I am living in Portland Oregon and am wondering if grant award money can be used for travel expenses and lodging or only for the on stage project itself.

I am also wanting to make a short film about me traveling (with disabilities and a large wheeled walker and a cute terrier chihuahua service dog) narrating, 'going down the ramp, up the curb cut Americans With Disabilities act . . .' 

or make documentation of my travels as part of my presented project?

also, I would like to propose to do an artist book alongside a performance piece. Would Franklin Furnace have any printing or copying facilities?

Julie Jeanette Trahan (also known as Dolphin Julia Trahan or/and Julia Dolphin Trahan)

ps. the cc addresses are mostly my own email and
phone numbers or there to ward off stalkers: I cc or bcc all my emails this way and it's not meant to intrude: so feel free to reply or reply all

elementary deductions��

air
dirt
water
fire
the elemental four required:
elementary deductions would suggest life is as simple as counting to four:
however flowering
requires much more

mixed metaphors♿️

(or why there is a balance of power in a democratic country with supposedly polite table manners)

flowering lights
booming in the distance
with a slowly rising
starships up above

if there is intelligent life
elsewhere in the Universe
are they aliens?
or friends?
friendly aliens?

perhaps the human race is the neighbors just moving in and and we're so uptight we can't recognize a welcoming hospitable casserole even when it's placed on the front porch

shoe shine Universal with a glittery background!

~~~

ASAP ���� warning :

I am watching television during day so copafeelcops must be having tantrum


ASAP ���� warning :

however since
I am watching television during day and copafeelcops must be having tantrum

~~~
note: left my cancelled ATM card usual bold coffee wrapper DNA plus note bar codes/ DNA plus wrapped in three napkins on my plate at free pie breakfast

maturing on video

to be able to watch the blooming of an iris
and the flowering of an empty lot
growing up on video
months spanned in minutes
is to be technically connected

turn back

adrenaline after a 24 hour workout
and children are tiny
go back
flowering in memories

it is freezing here in Portland Oregon

note: Please be aware of prisoners, elderly disabled children and people in protected custody and anyone using the word of the day 'flowering' might be forced outdoors!

I said outloud to mock the sex predictors when locking doors:
one lock
two lock
three lock
four
all sexual predators stay outdoors
(OR a slight variation)

because you had to go out on the balcony (please stay with the original variances in font type aswellas size)

turned back on stage
Ethelbert sets a small bird
Outside for air. Choose.

Sunday, October 26th, 2008

a seed flowering in a dish
* (or why I left my nonusable ATM card in my pie plate at breakfast)

a tiny seed in the beginning
births ideas and intentions and thoughts and emotions

and it is easy to spread lies
in the face of the humiliated

so I have asked: what about truth?
how do you catch people's attention
long enough to ask them to think
about money and food?

how do you catch people's attention
long enough to ask them to think
about money, food, time and family?

how much would you pay to spend two hours
talking to your Mom
never knowing

~~~

a genuine tooth amid the puzzle pieces
(an average child with disabilities/work out drink tango dance mix)

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a short life
centuries tradition

nuclear exploitation ♿️

the violets:
the Chernobyl children grow up anyway and are unashamed to be themselves

hidden violets

usually I never keep secrets
however
just in case you might want them
I am hiding a bouquet of violets for you.
even I do not know where
or what shade they are
purple? violet? red violet? rose?
they are for you and no one else
I am trying very hard not to mention them because I don't want to look like I care because then they might be taken away
and daily life would hurt more than it does now
(oh ~ oh, I just gave away my bouquet idea!)

in my mind
my bouquet is mostly redviolet
and maybe
you will think of me
and try not to be afraid
because at times in my life
I have hurt and suffered
and found a way
to pass on
a
bouquet
of
violets

my homeland is gone

while looking for my true homeland
my homeland disappeared

surrounded with sanctimonious sweet tooth
there is little escape
from viewing gone

BBC - Ouch! (disability) - Features - Desirability: Julia's body
BBC - Ouch! (disability) - Features - Desirability: Julia's body


green seatbelt murder

(I like the way you walk I like the way you talk; its in the way you wear your hat writing multi media dance mix)

the great investigation into my 1977 highway pile up is nothing but turned into a farce

"but they didn't tell us they had missing children in the back room Dolphin!"

zooming in paratransit with a slippery seat and slidey pants
the sunflower seeds a top the hot sauce
the kitchen hand soap hidden
so erasing the smell of a cup of urine poured is harder
they were expecting

green seatbelt murder
right in front of your face
almost

sanctimonious sanctuary

today's drink
never enough
with wine vodka champagne beer and whiskey
9665 days ago

sanctimonious sanctuary
on board abuse
requires modest patience
and a woman's sentimentality
marrow deep

sanctimonious sanctuary more

prayer: all Americans donate blood, organs or/and whatever international aid is needed
as individuals making up a country
we replace what we have taken away

a penny a dollar go a long way ♿️

hypocrites teeth are the sweet lies of sleaze
a sanctimonious tooth is discovered
in greed's mouth

sanctimonious sonar sex

(short version)

studies show that young adults dance and have sex and other uses of the American taxpayer dollar

sanctimonious sonar sex more


studies show that young adults dance and have sex


other uses of the American taxpayer dollar are abuse of nuclear chemicals in competition to define the phrase 'sweet tooth'


because of misuse of funding, lack of expertise and willing participants, a door locking training program has been initiated


local police are being asked not to use extreme force or draw weapons while learning to count to four ( as in four locks on doors leading to the outside at night)


patience and compassion have been required on a city and State level while Oregon citizens contemplate and consider the differences in male and female in both humans aswellas dogs


funding has been set aside for an interactive community discussion about the legality of people with disabilities to use sarcasm and political parody


however the escalating violence has prevented further  research beyond preliminary evidence that middle aged sanctimonious asswipes resent aging and women's sentimentality studies show that young adults dance and have sex

perceiving a river

the saddest thing about a woeful existence is forgetting if you go outside and watch life's river, eventually you'll realize just how happy you really are.

then

find a way to sense water flows over around rocks
without stopping
to worry
about
why
there
are
so
many
rocks
in
the
river

poem

literary puzzle piece

as sanctimonious as the word 'literary' sounds
the existence of all things bookish
create sweet determinations
to find a genuine tooth
amid the puzzle pieces

child defending child

pauses to feel helpless are too long
a race to the goal
a goal
a goal
a goal
hurry up when the goal is relief for the woeful!
service's hue
humility
children deserve to be children
I have seen slow moving pastels in the sky
every day
is looking at the sky and breathing deeply enough?
answer: vital recognitions

note: hurried note to FBI via their Website WEB form because I need to purchase tickets before they sell out

Dear FBI,

my Mom is not safe if I go to an Iggy Pop concert adding editing on web page: there is time to make it perfectly safe as I should not have to babysit or duffer asswipes cops etc

going to ask her to pay foyer two tickets

might not go

todo sin poor test trash. was in my locked bag

~~~
note: typos explained:

Dear FBI,

my Mom is not safe if I go to an Iggy Pop concert here in Portland Oregon; his song is the soundtrack to the dance in Julia's Body: the BBC documentary: performed by the dance troupe: Julia's Body

Mom is not safe if I go to an Iggy Pop concert adding editing on web page: there is time to make it perfectly safe as I should not have to babysit or duffer asswipes cops etc

I don't know him or want to play celebrity, however it is important to me

and yes, of course I remember his concert on DVD I purchased while living in Seattle at 920 North 34th Street Apartment 22 Saint James Tower

going to ask her to pay for two tickets meaning purchase as I am having ATM difficulties

might not go to Iggy Pop's concert; would have to figure out worry or harm done on day/night of

put toxins in blood test trash, they were in my locked bag

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ASAP ���� warning: I purchased two tickets to Iggy Pop ... Girlie dog's stomach is growling so loud suddenly it sounds painful

poetic conditions

poetic conditions are such appearances poetry can only be poetry when written to please: is this true? well as a woman with a love for particular words: yes. certain poems have certain conditions: an ode is not a sonnet is not a haiku and epic poems are dissimilar to aswellas//// ~~~ mid punctuated attempts integration:

poets have died because of their love of words and ability to recite or print what is often misinterpreted in a Rorschach type way (sociopaths will be sociopaths at least until they are stopped)

so a poem can indeed be created when the poet is physically stressed and doesn't have popular approval

another poem about my pelvic reconstruction surgery

it is fun to say outloud: P R S
my dog's stomach is growling so loud it hurts to hear:
my pelvic reconstruction surgery was years ago
and has held
and hold's
so how could I allow a tiny dog to suffer these conditions after such grace
was awarded to
my scars

hiya all,

I'm a bit embarrassed about having to ask in such an impersonal way however I don't know anyone in Portland who would even slightly enjoy Iggy Pop's music!

anyway, I have a companion ticket to his concert this month and don't have anyone to go with.

I hardly ever go out: his music is incredibly important to me!

his song, Girls of New York is the soundtrack to the dance in Julia's Body: the BBC documentary: performed by the dance troupe: Julia's Body (I'm Julia the choreographer of the piece and performer using the name my parents gave me for privacy and to avoid off stage drama!)

2002 and censored for the most part geez . . .

I don't know  Iggy Pop and I am super embarrassed to play celebrity, however if there is anyone who is familiar with portable equipment and wants to ask for an interview, contact me and I could put my infamous not ~ so ~ famous fame in the picture if it helps

Warm regards,

Julie (also known as Dolphin Julia Trahan or/and Julia Dolphin Trahan)

sent from my iPhone

an overcast sky

there are conditions
shaping
even an overcast sky
and if it is true:
about the law of wisdom in a human heart: then where
is the wisdom in the heart
of an overcast sky?
parallel?
opposing?

poem alert needed please
conditions oddly specific

as odd as it may seem if I had a specific supernatural phenomena gift I could grant to history I would change the fates of Billie Holiday and Thelonious Monk:
there are so many people in the world currently: and the number multiplies enormously when past generations are included: and perhaps specific supernatural phenomena gifts aren't wise to even if they became possible to do: anyway looking back at the past, I admire Billie Holiday and Thelonious Monk for their ability to communicate what went into their music with their music
And I want them to be world famous simply because they disseminate the importance of expression while expressing!

thankfully both Billie Holiday and Thelonious Monk have been internationally famous musicians for quite a while!
And I didn't do a thing And I don't have to do a thing
And I am very relieved because I do not know how to do a specific supernatural phenomena gift as is
And I am actually incredibly relieved about being able to listen to the music of Billie Holiday and Thelonious Monk

hazardous conditions

(qualities of God: I am: if I am reincarnated as human I want to be reincarnated as a rock 'n' roll band; if reincarnated as a different species, please sign me up for either a dog or a dolphin if you happen to be talking to God and the discussion has an uncomfortable silence)

currently, I am happy being a force of Nature
because God is Nature and Nature is God
within these hazardous conditions

long ago, I fell completely madly seriously in love with a woman who I regarded as a living Saint.

not only was I passionately in love with her, she possessed some qualities I attempted to emulate (such as the ability to make whatever she wanted manifest)

and she admired Mother Teresa; and after finding out about Mother Teresa and her work and legacies, I also admire Mother Teresa.

God is compassionate and I am trying to learn to be compassionate.

God is silent perseverance and I am trying to learn to be silent perseverance
God is roaring perseverance and I am trying to learn to be roaring perseverance
God is an absence of complications and I am trying to learn to be an absence of complications
God is determined rather than predetermined


Dear _________,

I am living in Portland Oregon and am wondering if grant award money can be used for travel expenses and lodging or only for the on stage project itself.

I am also wanting to make a short film about me traveling (with disabilities and a large wheeled walker and a cute terrier chihuahua service dog) narrating, 'going down the ramp, up the curb cut Americans With Disabilities act . . .' 

or make documentation of my travels as part of my presented project?

also, I would like to propose to do an artist book alongside a performance piece. Would Franklin Furnace have any printing or copying facilities?

Julie Jeanette Trahan (also known as Dolphin Julia Trahan or/and Julia Dolphin Trahan)

ps. the cc addresses are mostly my own email and
phone numbers or there to ward off stalkers: I cc or bcc all my emails this way and it's not meant to intrude: so feel free to reply or reply all

elementary deductions��

air
dirt
water
fire
the elemental four required:
elementary deductions would suggest life is as simple as counting to four:
however flowering
requires much more





note: I left my found and canceled ATM card and usual bold coffee wrapper plus at free pie breakfast (as pictured): I almost can't believe anyone surveiling us wouldn't be aware of when and where so. I will type in answer later today ������

flowering your ideas♿️

(with lyrics samples from the Universal Declaration of Human Rights)

discussion grows discussion: 'whereas . . . human beings shall enjoy freedom of speech and belief and freedom from fear and want' while eating free pie:

if I could only photo synthesis, maybe then I could turn carbon dioxide into oxygen as Gods and Prophets have accomplished miracles with water

however Gods are in many different forms and as I understand both oxygen and carbon dioxide to be parts of God: my God is miracles and Miracles and can do and can't do and flowing conversation and weeping alone after banned

however, the importance/luxury of discussion about God is easy to forget when running out of oxygen

ASAP ���� warning

mixed metaphors♿️

(or why there is a balance of power in a democratic country with supposedly polite table manners)

flowering lights
booming in the distance
with a slowly rising
starships up above

if there is intelligent life
elsewhere in the Universe
are they aliens?
or friends?
friendly aliens?

perhaps the human race is the neighbors just moving in and and we're so uptight we can't recognize a welcoming hospitable casserole even when it's placed on the front porch

shoe shine Universal with a glittery background!

athena.com
Staying Sane, Staying Calm; Poetry 2008

Amnesty International - stop violence against women


What you decipher is who you are.


censorship4.jpeg


Poems written since February 2008 to stay calm and sane: (Please take the anger and the word “hunt” with a grain of salt)

Walk On- Stage [33]: Hiding my injuries so I can get in the back door

Uninitiated might
Maybe a different kind of love
Might land me safely

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Walk On- Stage [32]: a tidy king cares for the forgotten

6 hours daily work
Decades of elegant service
Back better than never

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

By the fingertips

Details unnoticed
Fingerprint of a spark. Birth.
Imprint of god friend

Monday, December 1, 2008

Nothing but the facts

My only friend ago
Ohio drag on stage agreed
Role model man

Monday, December 1, 2008

Walk On- Stage [31]: kissing over a fattening dog

Man in a golf cart
Eager to see crashes a post.
He has no lips

Monday, December 1, 2008

Americn’s are not X

If X = Where
Is My Country When I Need It?
Bruised face of allegiance

Sunday, November 30, 2008

The Fat Neighbor Above is Not Immoral

Typo, immortal; he
Heavy steps, heavy doom viscous
Weighting for heart

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Dying Alone

A dead child in the
A relief from accusation.
Car skid marks. Jane Doe.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Wild Horses: I Love You

Run ‘til you fly
Live ‘til you die. Break free.
Love a girl. Without doubt.

We.

Destroyed.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Weekly Letter to Ben Thaos: Week Nine

Changing of the guard
Pharisaical medicine
Not a crime now

Leaders are pleased

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Walk On- Stage [30]: Saint Smug Money Won’t Wear A Hula Skirt

Presidential Range
Mediocre Change Mountain
Show your scars. Bastard.

Double love.

You are the one to do it!

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Walk On- Stage [29]: a cold soup of sorrel

Dangerous husband
Named after an angel, his wife
Was not the devil.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Walk On- Stage [28]: Why did Bambi’s brother cross the road?

A deer in the road
Crossing the yellow line does not
Get hit by a car

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Life In Storage (chained to a bed)

Inaccessibility
Saint Corruption, Ring in slow death
Mocking laughter

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Cadence of Silence

Metronome clock tick
Tock; Siren nymph sckreech; tap tap
Underneath noise Matthew speaks

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Walk On- Stage [27]: Kidnapped & Seduced Over A Dead Body

Extortion porn flicks
Reality cyber camera
Grotesque romance

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Eating Onions Like Apples

How would I know?
Genetic?

My Grandmother
Mom’s Mom

Culinary regards
She did that too

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Who Am I If…?

Antithesis of
Myself or DE coiled quoin
Of vantage. A.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Kid is Mine

Secrets withheld from.
Lucky half dollar coin in my pocket
Kick

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Walk On- Stage [26]: In Front Of The Entire Class

She made me say
“Take no prisoners”; escape
M.I.A. paradox

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Walk On- Stage [25]: a private conversation

Physical Evidence
Mississippi Missouri Rivers
Persuades

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Walk On- Stage [24.9]: No Word rhymes With Eternal Love

Opposite Archaic
Them, me, you, him, her, other
Round cycles beautiful

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Walk On- Stage [24.7]: No Word rhymes With Eternal Love

Exterminator
Orange canine teeth of lust
Eats hesitation

Monday, November 24, 2008

What Would You Do If Someone Told You They Planned To Kill You In The Next 30 Days And No One Else Seemed To Care? (Shooba-Booba-Do-Try-To-Dance-To-That Mix)

those 2 months before my Dad died

skewered foes taste best
barbequed

the end the horror the beginning

a promise to serve in a red hat
a promise to serve no one

tested against the best
with one hand behind my back

with olive oil


Sunday, November 23, 2008

Walk On- Stage [23]: Dance ‘till you wake the dead

Ambulance Siren
Sound track. Show evil to the monkeys.
Clean your room and go.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Walk On- Stage [22]: Dance Every Dance like It’s Your Last

ar. Arrival of the Fittest
Like never before
Nevar alone

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Walk On- Stage [21]: Target practice in slow motion

not Why? try How?
Power radiates in between
Move from the center

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Walk On- Stage [20]: A love song of allusion for Dunkles Bier und ultra fetter Kaffee

Desires strength surprises
Absent angst doubt
Spilling leaves no stain

except bad poetry

Friday, November 21, 2008

Weekly Letter to Ben Thaos: Week Eight

Cerberus’ favorite
Breakfast: blueberrynirvana. Desert: volatile samsara.
It’s only punk rock

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Walk On- Stage [19]: stagelight full moon

Two layers of steel
Courage in despair, despair in courage
High School.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Walk On- Stage [18]: 2,357,111,317,192,329,313 Jesters

Prime son today.
Today, youth ends. Kids begin.
Violent numbers.


Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Walk On- Stage [17]: deprived of Misery’s kiss

Said no to say yes
Heaven Hell Skies Earth open out
A dare erupts in

Monday, November 17, 2008

Weekly Letter to Ben Thaos: Week Six

Why R people dumb?
Cruel? Human Stomphia
Absurd deuce adduce

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Walk On- Stage [16]: smart smectic antidote to song grease

Surprise joke
Sit k tilted is stand K
Punchline: unexpected

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Walk On- Stage [15]: historical qualified?

Purple flowers grow
Gardens re-stored without common mallow
Landscape

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Walk On- Stage [14]: What about it?

3 x J
Demon unbound in dreams
Raw meat 1 edged sword

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Weekly Letter to Ben Thaos: Week Seven

Made available
By shattered glass cut throat
Shastra betrayal

Sheath/Unsheath/Sheath/Unsheath/

Endurance

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Walk On- Stage: City weighs stripping nudists

Be the difference.
Strength is history’s fabric
Separate the clothes.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Walk On- Stage: Shape With your words (Audre Lorde Dub Mix)

Blonde girl practices.
In Front of the mirror until
She hears herself.



Wednesday, November 12, 2008


Walk On- Stage: brunette Amazon 4-some with big tittles design bad faith t-shirts

Mirrors do not hide
Delusion inflicted
By a dirty toilet


November 11, 2008

Walk On- Stage: 75 Seconds remaining

A tall man champions
Illiteracy over
Sausage sandwiches

Monday, November 10, 2008

Walk On- Stage: stumble into sweet time

Sirens blaring hurt
The ears of a doe. A deer
Does not need a map.

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Walk On- Stage: Zoom zoom in the red dirt

Take Earth in your hands
Dogs dance de loop – Dee – loop
Just to see if you can can-can

Friday, November 7, 2008

Walk On- Stage: rhinos, ugly hiki ni kitu kizuri

The rhino’s round wide eyes
Big ears, wrinkled nose unexpected
Old, cute, brave

Friday, November 7, 2008


Enough Lies: Flesh Is An Inviolable Flag

Gut stringed viol
Sonorous sound of truth
Torn notes rich in sound

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Walk On- Stage: because you know about blowing bubbles underwater

Counterfeit haters
Dolts crumble construction muse
Triangle form. Shag.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Walk On- Stage: trusting my parachute

Isometric faith
Everywhere and nowhere, heart gift
Unclose, unplug


Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Walk On- Stage: Kanban Breaks Out Of History

Wade ripples push down
Dive in, on, through, over, up. Jump
Elusive whirlwind.


Monday, November 3, 2008

Walk On- Stage: don’t sell your mind

“I love you” is worth
Whatever means possible to write
In spite, because of

Sunday, November 2, 2008

Walk On- Stage: don’t kill your anger

Hard to be hated
Air guitar is the answer
Drown out the white noise


Saturday, November 1, 2008

Walk On- Stage: the beginning Oct 31, 2008

Night resurrection
Dancing statue of diamond
Dissent with tone


Friday, October 31, 2008

Please Do Not Pet The Working Dog

Stare Man gives shame to
Red jackets and red coats
Without apology.

October 31, 2008

Weekly Letter to Ben Thaos: Week Five

A single moment
Almost done proofreading
Almost in the mail


Friday, October 31, 2008

Because you had to go out on the balcony

Turned back on stage
Ethelbert sets a small bird
Outside for air. Choose.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Weekly Letter to Ben Thaos: Week Four

Let care win my war
Shout Li’l Lulie, “no mistakes!”
Water washes faithfully

Sunday, October 26, 2008

My Scars Play Sexy Banjos

Blood tachometer
Free from dueling velocities
Unravel strings


Sunday, October 26, 2008

Weekly Letter to Ben Thaos: Week Three

Liberty’s fire fist
A violent precipice
Watch your back friend Sam
The Man upstairs is up late and he’s angry.


Friday, October 17, 2008

I Don’t Say Enough Good Things

Year after year aft…
The joke becomes angry,
The band gets missed

“Beautiful world”.


Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Weekly Letter to Ben Thaos: Week Two

SOFT, SOFT, SOFT, soft, soft.
Quiet, without glare, without rot
To give someone hope


(ed note: font change is part of poem)
Friday, October 10, 2008

Proud To Be No One

Today’s sidewalk images:

A white man in a brown hat pursues human prey
A black man thrusts a baby like a bayonet
An Asian woman rushes at a child intending harm
A Latino man steels his eyes with hate

I am distinctly SR
Too unimportant to mis - punish anyone

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

A poem for Someone I’ll Never Know


I will never know you but “hello” any way.
First person
The ego
Volition
Wishes for utopia
Profess
Second person
Reverse
Stop
Without specification
A new way of looking

Saturday, October 4, 2008
[ed. Note: font change on purpose]

Wind in my veins and knots in my hair

Air resistance
unsymmetrical Aerodynamic
motion of objects,

the skin on my face feels.


Saturday, October 4, 2008

The Sound of Love is > 1220 km per hour/ 750 mi per hour at sea level

Step out, unfrozen
Umbrella man belching hate
A silly habit


Saturday, October 4, 2008

Weekly Letter to Ben Thaos: Week One

Hammering rusty nails
The man in the sweat soaked shirt,
Protects the cattle



Thursday, October 2, 2008

Little Red Riding Hood wins the house with a Five-high straight

Once upon a time
A cook in love rode a bicycle.
Scared off a wolf.


Saturday, September 27, 2008

Crescent Moon (Original)

Already Ordered
A nervous handsome man waits in line
Shines


Crescent Moon (recovered document)

> symbol.

God is worshipped therein

Way of life > paper


Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Dream Stealers Are The Only People Who Don’t Deserve A Poem




Wednesday, September 17, 2008


ACCESS to snort

Friends of illiteracy
Vans of self – righteous Black Strangers and white Seahawks
Hateful City


Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Walking on the Lane of Hate with out Friends

Paint thinner chemical
Smell passing truck rattles chains
Unsafe to care.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Sack of Sand in the Light of the Moon

2 shine sun dance wind
dog howls backward eye no c’est Sea
s’mores over fire camp


14 September 2008

[the day after “completing” the manuscript of Tao and the Art of Drowning]

One Drop of Water illuminated by the sun

Unnecessary

Take That

Can

Quote

No = No worries here

(Frida Kahlo Dance Version)

14 September 2008

One Drop of Water illuminated by the sun. A Lonely Young Unnecessary Woman Pretending To Be From New York Can’t Take That Away From Me, Neither Can A Bitchy Middle Aged Blonde Woman With An Ear Mold Quote Cell Phone – No Matter How Long She Loiters (Picasso Dub Version)


5 am night after night
year after year a life time. Sum.
Artists understand.



14 September 2008

How To Keep The Glass Clean With Quickly Reproducing Menacing Scummy Mildew During An Election Year After Being Mistaken For A Piranha Despite Being A Neon Tetra Attacked By Hammerhead Sharks

Strange people throughout the day,
They star in their own movie on my cell phone camera
My private journal now filled with the time, date and cues for their entrances and exits

An intimidation game
Best played by those who never lose their cool
And never join in – stoop that low

How To Stop A Stalker? A good book – if something feels dangerous, it just might be

Discretion = Sanity & Survival



Thursday, September 11, 2008

The young boy in the baseball cap is counting his change twice. Let him count.

Morning waking thoughts
Will he have enough for a hot dog
From the cart?


Wednesday, September 10, 2008

How Many Pennies Are In Nine Million Dollars?

Buried bones found
Si, too dangerous for your love
1 x 3 = Lot

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Kindness And Care Must Be Given To The Dead And To The Living


Fugitive Slave Act.
Nuremberg Laws; without conscience,
Dying Earth. Pay back.



Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Time 2 GO On A Skiing Trek With Moses Following The Northern Star To the Multan Library


Final whistle blows.
Ski poles on both sides. Steady
Stand atop the Alps

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Bring it on (twin brunette stanza stampede)

Got my rude dog gang
Heaven, Earth, Music, Grandparent’s blessings.
Gun without fear.



Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Anyone Can Have A Construction Worker Dangling Nooses Outside Their Front Window, But How You Deal With It Separates You From The Politicians


Fall down laughing.
Rise up. Bring them with or leave them below
Amuse me.


Tuesday, September 9, 2008

The Reason Reasonable Political Politicians Keep The P’or Poor

They’ll commit suicide eventally.

No allies attended that event


Tuesday, September 9, 2008


Wa, Wa, WWAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!! The State Of Mental Torture


Poems wasted. Never.
Persistent poetry.
Motion past Them.


Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Icarus takes a nap instead

On on

Raspberry full belly

Warm gun

On on

The lights are on,





Tuesday, September 2, 2008

More Than Cold Steel But Not My Dad

Good bye
.357 is more than .38
Hello hell.


Sunday, August 31, 2008

The Decision

Orchid underfoot
On the bank of the still pond
Crushed is not mine

Thursday, August 28, 2008


Elusive French Walrus Rorschach Test Candidate

Cat: bristly whiskers
Elephant: large tusks; old human
Wrinkled skin. Who are you?

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Extraordinary Movies On The River Bank

Happy man angry
Teen reads book, crying woman, thatch of reeds
Baby


Monday, August 25, 2008

Ugly Grinning Old Men That Force Themselves On Girly (my dog) Because They Can’t Help Themselves Are The Spit In My Coffee

Some folks hate me because I hunt you down
Some folks hate me because they think I’m your friend
Either way:
A B C is what you give me.

& the dancers spread their tiny white infections all over the dance floor.

Haven’t I been molested enough?

Break it down.

1 2 3 4…and my immune system screams a perfect 8


August 22, 2008

Please Allow Me To Protect Myself


Recycled lady,
Vomit envy green fear city
Police fingerprint.


Wednesday, August 20, 2008

…….the group’s show Sunday Afternoon in Mullen, Nebraska has not been canceled.

Sites seen every day,
Stolen pond water blessings,
Golden fields stretch on.


Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Chest – whole w/ bra on: 40”

Back - vertical: 19
Back – horizontal: 17
Don’t quit your job

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

No Substitute

Words. Words. Words. Words. Words.
What am I doing? Breathing.
Half Moon over the lake.


Monday, August 11, 2008

The Faces of The Dead Rich With Extra Time To Waste By Making Threats Will Atrophy According to The Elements of Nature

Unity Blessings
Their problems are solved. Life
is good when valued.

Saturday, August 9, 2008

Send Them To Cry In Their Dark Closets

Defy humble sleep
Head held high, spine straight, knees up
Walk out the door. Repeat.

Saturday, August 9, 2008

Blood Clots Hidden In Bed Pans

Knock, knock. Mid – night dread.
Patience’s tube pushed too hard
Black man in white sheets.

Saturday, August 9, 2008

Eight Times Eternity

Forbidden red house
Athlete dangles on a string
Golden fire hope.

Saturday, August 9, 2008

Sharing a turkey avocado sandwich with Violence and Evil on a hot summer day

One eye, one arm. Bang!
Confidence free from decay.
Full moon catalyst.


Saturday, July 19, 2008

The Three- Headed Cerberus Poem

The Coin Flip (part 1 of 3)

Knowing my war,
To be gentle is to win,
Peace in lieu of lies.


Change Happens (part 2 of 3)

No matter.
The swimmer hears, “save our water”
90% wanted.


Spazz Dancing in a $1000 Box (part 3 of 3)

Quick as an Angel
Light as the newly forgiven
Found; celebration of the forgotten.

(for Mia)


Thursday, July 17, 2008

The Skinny Red Head Is Secretly A Clog In The Liquid Soap But I Still Believe In Madronna Trees

Iconoclast5
Enthusiasm00@
2undoreboot.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Love Is Teaching Kids Not To Play In The Street

Brown and white hands held,
Chocolate milk at the beach,
A possible stroll.

Monday, July 14, 2008

Cockroaches No Longer Compromise My Veins

Under the Sun
Necessary enemies
Sizzle from light.

Monday, July 14, 2008

Crossing The Street Quickly While Standing Still On A Hill

Jane Doe was here
Frozen fruit melts in my groceries
Without knowing

Saturday, June 28, 2008

Metamorphosis Of A Plastique Marionnette

Diablo’s dungeon
Night befriends the sun’s scars
Queen takes pawn to clear dusk

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

The Funniest Joke I Never Heard

Knock, knock
Who’s there?
Lemmings
Lemmings who?
“If life gives you lemmings, make lemmingade,” answered