First Love

Writen by: Lex

Chapter eleven




'Bang, Bang, Bang!' Came the sound from the door.
I couldn't believe what was happening. Goten was outside my door right now, banging on it so I would open it. For a minute I wondered why he didn't just kick the door open or something, but I figured he would soon enough.
Before this, I had thought that I might be able to face him but boy was I wrong. I guess I had been standing, frozen in the same spot for about a minute now and finally my brain kicked back in. I ran to my bedroom, closing and locking the door behind me and as soon as I did this I heard the front door open with a loud crash. I hurriedly ran to the still open window and started to climb out it. As soon as I had gotten out the window I started to fly upwards, towards the top of the hotel. When I finally got to the top, I landed on the flat surface. I looked over the edge of the top and saw that Goten was just now coming out the window, I pulled back quickly and my eyes looked for someplace to hide on the top. I would have tried to outrun him but I knew he would have caught up to me easily, without even trying so this was my best option, to hide. Now I know that that's not what a princess of Sayain's should do but I didn't care. I'd do almost anything to get away from Goten.
I suddenly felt Goten's ki almost at the top of the hotel. I didn't have time to hide so I ran and stood behind one of the walls to the rooftop entrance. { you know how most hotels and apartments have a staircase that goes all the way up to the roof. And how there's that brick part that comes out. It's square and has the door at one of the four sides. Well, that's what I'm calling a rooftop entrance. And SO sorry for that lousy description but I couldn't think of the words for it at the time, I hope you guys know what I'm talking about. But anyway, back to the story! }I then hid my ki completely. I peeked around the corner and I saw him just landing. I quickly pulled my head back letting it rest on the brick behind me. In fact my whole body was up against the brick wall. I felt him coming closer so I started to move to my right, inching along the wall the whole time. I felt Goten's ki getting closer to this side of the wall and I quickly went around the corner so that I was on directly opposite sides of the wall. He soon turned and was walking towards the corner I had just gone around. I quickly went along the wall turning again at a corner, putting us on complete opposite sides again. But soon he again was walking towards the corner I had just turned. I felt like I was a prey of some kind, being stalked by the attacker.
Suddenly I couldn't sense Goten's ki and then I really began to panic. I kept close to the wall and started to go around the next corner. I had no idea where he might be and I decided to try to get off this rooftop. I looked straightforward and seeing nothing, I started to run. But I was soon stopped, for there was Goten, right in front of me. I took one step back and was about to take another when Goten grabbed my wrists gently.
"Bra, please listen to me." His voice was gentle but I wasn't really focusing on that right now.
"Bra, I have to tell you something. Something important. Something that I realized on the day you left."
I remembered what Pan had said. About him not caring about Paris's decline about him only being worried for me. I then wondered if he was about to say what I thought he was.
"Bra, I let you go once, and I'm not planning on letting you go again. I proposed to Paris on the night before you left and when she declined I was somewhat sad but when I found out the next day that you were missing I was confined with sadness. I started to think about why I was so sad. It took me awhile but I finally figured it out. I figured out that I well, I love you."
My heart did a leap in my chest. For, had Goten really just said that he loved me?
I was overcome with emotion, both happiness and confusion. I wondered at his words, could he telling the truth or was he just lying? I remembered the last time we had talked liked this, only that time it was I telling him that I loved him now it was the other way around. I wanted to just jump in his arms and tell him I loved him too, because I still did love him but then I remembered all the pain he had caused me. My eyes suddenly became filled with anger.
"Goten, I don't know why your saying this and I don't even know what you are doing here for that matter but this is NOT funny. It's not funny, you playing with my heart!"
He released his grip from my wrists and bowed his head. Then he brought his head up again. "B-chan, I'm not playing with your heart. This I promise you. I really do love you."
"Then why didn't you tell me that, when I told you, that I loved you?"
"Because I didn't realize it then but now I do. Please B-chan, let me make it up to you."
My guard dropped for a second but then went right back up as I remembered the last time again.
"How can you say that!? Do, you even realize what you did to me!? You broke my heart! You shattered it to bits! And you just expect me to welcome you back with open arms!" My eyes were blazing with anger but they were being to form tears.
"No, I guess I don't but please B-chan, let me make it up to you."
"No! You will probably only break it again! I want you to leave me alone Son Goten!"
"B-chan, hold on, please, I really do love you. Now if you can just find it in your heart to forgive me."
"Just leave me alone!"
"B-chan, I know you still love me, you just have to trust in that love again."
"I will not! That love once broke my heart and I do not want that kind of pain again! And how do you know if I love you or not!?"
"I just do B-chan.."
"No, you don't because if you did then you would know that I don't love you anymore!"
My eyes were now allowing the tears to flow freely and I was partly surprised by what I had just said. But if me telling Goten that I didn't love him anymore made him go away than so be it. I was still having trouble with my feelings for I wanted to believe what he said but images and the pain from the last time I trusted in love was just too great.
"B-chan, I know you do. You just have too." He said with a pleading like voice. "No, Goten I don't. I don't love you anymore."
"Please, B-chan, don't do this."
"Just go away Goten! Just go away!"
"Not until you look me straight in the eye and tell me you don't love me!"
I wanted him to go away so I could be left alone to figure out what exactly was going on. I knew that I still loved him but I didn't want to admit it for fear of having my heart broken again. So I did the only thing I could.
I looked him straight in the eye and told him I didn't love him. His eyes widened and they looked sad. But you could also tell that they didn't really believe me. But no matter, for he took off into the sky leaving me on top of the roof, all alone. I thought about what I had just done and I sank to my knees. I put my hands to my face and I started crying uncontrollably. And I kept thinking. 'Oh God what have I done? I just turned away the one I loved.'

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