First Love
Writen by: Lex
Chapter eleven
'Bang, Bang, Bang!' Came the sound from the door.
I couldn't believe what was happening. Goten was outside my door right now,
banging on it so I would open it. For a minute I wondered why he didn't
just kick the door open or something, but I figured he would soon enough.
Before this, I had thought that I might be able to face him but boy was
I wrong. I guess I had been standing, frozen in the same spot for about
a minute now and finally my brain kicked back in. I ran to my bedroom,
closing and locking the door behind me and as soon as I did this I
heard the front door open with a loud crash. I hurriedly ran to the
still open window and started to climb out it. As soon as I had gotten
out the window I started to fly upwards, towards the top of the hotel.
When I finally got to the top, I landed on the flat surface. I looked
over the edge of the top and saw that Goten was just now coming out the
window, I pulled back quickly and my eyes looked for someplace to hide
on the top. I would have tried to outrun him but I knew he would have
caught up to me easily, without even trying so this was my best option,
to hide. Now I know that that's not what a princess of Sayain's should
do but I didn't care. I'd do almost anything to get away from Goten.
I suddenly felt Goten's ki almost at the top of the hotel. I didn't
have time to hide so I ran and stood behind one of the walls to the
rooftop entrance. { you know how most hotels and apartments have a
staircase that goes all the way up to the roof. And how there's that
brick part that comes out. It's square and has the door at one of
the four sides. Well, that's what I'm calling a rooftop entrance.
And SO sorry for that lousy description but I couldn't think of the
words for it at the time, I hope you guys know what I'm talking about.
But anyway, back to the story! }I then hid my ki completely.
I peeked around the corner and I saw him just landing. I quickly pulled
my head back letting it rest on the brick behind me. In fact my whole
body was up against the brick wall. I felt him coming closer so I
started to move to my right, inching along the wall the whole time. I
felt Goten's ki getting closer to this side of the wall and I quickly
went around the corner so that I was on directly opposite sides of the
wall. He soon turned and was walking towards the corner I had just gone
around. I quickly went along the wall turning again at a corner, putting
us on complete opposite sides again. But soon he again was walking towards
the corner I had just turned. I felt like I was a prey of some kind,
being stalked by the attacker.
Suddenly I couldn't sense Goten's ki and
then I really began to panic. I kept close to the wall and started to go
around the next corner. I had no idea where he might be and I decided to
try to get off this rooftop. I looked straightforward and seeing nothing,
I started to run. But I was soon stopped, for there was Goten, right in
front of me. I took one step back and was about to take another when Goten
grabbed my wrists gently.
"Bra, please listen to me." His voice was gentle
but I wasn't really focusing on that right now.
"Bra, I have to tell you
something. Something important. Something that I realized on the day you
left."
I remembered what Pan had said. About him not caring about Paris's
decline about him only being worried for me. I then wondered if he was
about to say what I thought he was.
"Bra, I let you go once, and I'm
not planning on letting you go again. I proposed to Paris on the night
before you left and when she declined I was somewhat sad but when I
found out the next day that you were missing I was confined with sadness.
I started to think about why I was so sad. It took me awhile but I finally
figured it out. I figured out that I well, I love you."
My heart did a leap
in my chest. For, had Goten really just said that he loved me?
I was overcome with emotion, both happiness and confusion. I wondered at
his words, could he telling the truth or was he just lying? I remembered
the last time we had talked liked this, only that time it was I telling
him that I loved him now it was the other way around. I wanted to just jump
in his arms and tell him I loved him too, because I still did love him but
then I remembered all the pain he had caused me. My eyes suddenly became
filled with anger.
"Goten, I don't know why your saying this and I don't
even know what you are doing here for that matter but this is NOT funny.
It's not funny, you playing with my heart!"
He released his grip from my
wrists and bowed his head. Then he brought his head up again.
"B-chan, I'm not playing with your heart. This I promise you. I really do
love you."
"Then why didn't you tell me that, when I told you, that I loved you?"
"Because I didn't realize it then but now I do. Please B-chan, let me make
it up to you."
My guard dropped for a second but then went right back up
as I remembered the last time again.
"How can you say that!? Do, you even realize what you did to me!? You broke
my heart! You shattered it to bits! And you just expect me to welcome you
back with open arms!" My eyes were blazing with anger but they were being
to form tears.
"No, I guess I don't but please B-chan, let me make it up to you."
"No! You will probably only break it again! I want you to leave me alone
Son Goten!"
"B-chan, hold on, please, I really do love you. Now if you can just find
it in your heart to forgive me."
"Just leave me alone!"
"B-chan, I know you still love me, you just have to trust in that love again."
"I will not! That love once broke my heart and I do not want that kind of pain
again! And how do you know if I love you or not!?"
"I just do B-chan.."
"No, you don't because if you did then you would know that I don't love you
anymore!"
My eyes were now allowing the tears to flow freely and I was partly
surprised by what I had just said. But if me telling Goten that I didn't love
him anymore made him go away than so be it. I was still having trouble with
my feelings for I wanted to believe what he said but images and the pain from
the last time I trusted in love was just too great.
"B-chan, I know you do. You just have too." He said with a pleading like voice.
"No, Goten I don't. I don't love you anymore."
"Please, B-chan, don't do this."
"Just go away Goten! Just go away!"
"Not until you look me straight in the eye and tell me you don't love me!"
I
wanted him to go away so I could be left alone to figure out what exactly was
going on. I knew that I still loved him but I didn't want to admit it for fear
of having my heart broken again. So I did the only thing I could.
I looked him straight in the eye and told him I didn't love him. His eyes
widened and they looked sad. But you could also tell that they didn't really
believe me. But no matter, for he took off into the sky leaving me on top of
the roof, all alone. I thought about what I had just done and I sank to my knees.
I put my hands to my face and I started crying uncontrollably. And I kept thinking.
'Oh God what have I done? I just turned away the one I loved.'
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