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Already Long Gone
©Heather McPherson
First
Rights: Me
Date:Feb 29/04
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Dont' tell me
I "Got my little ways to hurt you"*
You've
got your own much bigger ones
that you used on me.
I don't care
Where the party's at
Don't you see
That just
ain't me
You and your great
Conversation skills
Ever notive how our talks just repeat themselves?
"Heard any good
songs lately?"
"nope"
"me neither"
Well isn't that just
Fascinating!
Yah i agree,
"It's always somethin,
everyday, remindin me"**
Used to wish I'd forget
Then I did!
Its a scary thought,
isn't it hun?
Too bad for
you,
There goes your fun
No wait, I just forgot to tell you
Its already Long Gone
(*Little Ways~Dwight Yoakam, **Always Something~Joe Diffie)
Belief
©Heather McPherson
First Rights: Me
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Is it ever possible
to listen to your heart?
Cause it can betray you
And tear you apart
I kno hwo it feels
And its killin me inside
I need to run away
To find a place and hide
And im wondering
If i can
Believe what i feel
Can i believe him?
Can i believe..in him?
I may never know
If he feels the same
But at least I'll
have the chance
To say to me these feelings came
I miss him when I'm away
I need him when he's gone
I wanna hold him close
All night...long
But he cares for another
So why do i even bother
Cause i think i love him,
Thast why
Can't Let Go
©Heather McPherson
First Rights: Me
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I'm afraid to ask
If you do
love me too
Cause i dont want to
feel more hurt
because of you.
Ive tried to find
someone new
someone who could take the
place of you
But as you know
It didnt work
And i cant let go
Its hard to be me
lookin at you
From over here
It's sad to hear
But its true, my dear
And i ain't gonna stop now
Anytime soon
#19 (aka Sondra's Poem)
©Heather McPherson
First Rights: Me
Date: December 5, 2003
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I know you liked
Number Nineteen
But it just didnt suit
I realized you hadn't seen
My good songs
(and my bad songs to boot)
But I'm puttin neither
Here's one in-between
It doesn't suck
(I Hope)
And its not spectacular
Cause trust me,
You don't want one of my
Tragic love songs
Reminding you of where you are
And who you're with
Everyday trying to raise the bar
The movie's Hidalgo
Thought you should know
Remember,
The one with Viggo?
It's a little off topic
I'm sure you can see
But anywho,
Here's a poem
For you
From,
Me
:)
Home
©Heather McPherson
First Rights: Me
Date: May 14, 2005
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You're
so perfect for me
I hope you understand
How much you mean to me
You came into my life
When I needed someone to
care about me,
To believe in, to trust.
I was so lost when you found me
You've changed my life,
You've changed
me.
I've never been this happy
I've never had someone care about me this much
You know just what to say to make it
all better
Sometimes,
You don't have to say anything at all
When I'm in your arms,
It feels like home.
I've
never felt that before
I know you want a summer
Full of memories I'll never forget
but each moment with you is one...
Like
lying on the hood of your car
Watching the sun set
I'll never, ever forget that.
And I've never cared about anyone
more.
You're so good to me
And I wouldn't trade our time together
For anything.
So, thank you...
And Happy
Birthday, hun...
For Serge
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Forget (aka #19)
©Heather McPherson
First Rights: Me
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I love him
But he's so far away
He's out of my reach
Though I wish for him
Day by day
I've just started to realize
How much he means to me
And Im' scared
I'm afraid
Could i live without him
In any way?
Well its better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all,
they say
I need to do something
to get my mind off him
But if i do
I might forget
All that he's done for me
How happy he's made me be.
Even through the misery
the silence and unanswered questions
I thank him for going that extra mile
And being the only one
that really made me smile
Hold On
©Heather McPherson
First Rights: Me
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So my friends dont like him
They think he's a jerk
Tellin me all this
They think its gonna work
But most of them dont know
That i dont care
About all that
He's nice to me, and as a fact
Most of them dont know
How much he means to me
I'm not giving up
After all I've been through
I'm not forgetting it all
After all he put me through
Maybe if i hold on to
you
just a little longer
The least it could do
Is make me stronger
I Miss You
©Heather McPherson
First Rights: Me
Date: May 9, 2004
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I'm starting to lose part of
Myself
as the days go by
I'm being driven crazy by your memory
Since you've been gone
Since you left me
You don't know what you've done to me
On the
outside I'm calm, but
Underneath..inside... I cry
One for Me
©Heather McPherson
First Rights: Me
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Why do i have to be so in love?
Why do i have to have
feelings i dont want to?
Why do i keep thinking of
him
When i know,
He's not the one for me?
I wish i could see
The one who could be
Truly the one for me
But every time
I end up denying
Cause he's always the one i see
And i wish he'd be
The one for me
Why do i let my heart be broken?
Why do i keep trying?
Why do i go on
Knowing he's taken?
Why am i
Always the one
Who ends up cyrin?
Zaknafein
©Heather
McPherson
First
Rights: Me
Date:
August 25, 2004
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Looking
out
On
this place I called home
I
think to myself,
What
hell is this?
That
which has destroyed
My
innocence,
And
blackened my heart?
That
which has taken my solace,
My
comfort,
For
the sake of its pleasure?
That
which revels in destruction
Cares
only for itself?
Those
years of battles
Within
and without
Swords
flashing
Scimitars
like lightning
How
was I to know
It
would all lead to this?
This,
Which
I have brought upon myself?
The
only one
I
have known like me
Has
been taken
For
that damned Spider Queen.
Malice
unleashed her power
Ever
wanting to tear down the bond
Between
father and son.
Though
she valued his
Services
Far
too much.
My
hopes have been shattered
I
have been left all alone.
Your
life was my lesson
Trapped
is only a feeling
Not
a state of being
I
shall break these chains
That
held you back.
Blood
is stronger than this nightmare.
I
shall avenge you
But
know
Your
death was not in vain
You
are not alone.
I
am with you always,
Weapon
Master,
Father,
Zaknafein.
The Honest Truth
©Heather McPherson
First
Rights: Me
Date: August 2, 2005
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You say I’m making this harder
Than it was supposed
to be
Good, I don’t want it to be easy.
I won’t let you just throw it all away like this.
I’ve
been silent long enough
Now I’m going to fight for us.
You didn’t expect me to act this way,
When you
finished what you came to say
But I’m not one to worry about pride
I don’t care if you see me cry.
If
that’s what it takes
To get through to you
Then that’s exactly what I’ll do.
You know I love you;
You
say you love me too
But do you still believe it would be easier
If we were apart?
I made you a promise-
I won’t
go back on my word.
I’ll tell you how I feel
And I hope you’ll change your mind
But I don’t want
a pity vote.
Don’t stay because you’re worried about me.
I can take care of myself.
And don’t walk
away if you still care.
Life ain’t easy, and life ain’t fair.
Get used to it, live with it,
You know
we can work this out.
Unless there’s something more,
Something you’re not telling me—
But if that’s
true, then don’t be preaching to me
About honesty.
So, honey, here’s the honest truth:
I love you; I’d
do anything for you.
I’m going to fight; I won’t bail.
You’ll never be just a friend; you mean too
much to me.
I see where you’re coming from, I really do,
But try to do the same for me.
I know you’ve
done so much for me already,
Given up so much of yourself.
For my sake.
For me.
I never asked for it, but you
did anyway.
But I’m asking you this,
I want this one last thing:
Don’t give up on us.
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Fate
©Heather McPherson
First Rights: Me
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It's strange how
the more you rarely see him
the more you realize
he's out of your reach
How you can't have it your way.
And its funny how
the one you see often
that you're good friends with,
the one you always used to think about
the one that ruined you world
is the one you look to
to brighten your day
These two
so different
and yet, the same
make you feel
amazing,
amazingly great,
For the first one
only when you see him
off your shoulders,
he takes the weight
and the second
when you dont have to think
when you dotn want to remember
that there was one thing stopping you two from beign together
And that
is this little thing called
Fate
March 7, 2004 (aka Angie's Poem)
©Heather McPherson
First Rights:Me
Date:May
15, 2004
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Well, hey girl
You've been buggin me from Day 1
Warning me
Trying
to get it
Through my head.
He hurt me once,
You said
"I told you so"
He hurt me twice,
You said
"I'll
kick his ass"
He hurt me again
And whaddya know,
You thought I learnt at last.
But hey, I thought you knew me
better than that?
Hahaha yah you know me better
Than I do!
At least you knew I'd go right back
To where I was
before.
Through grade 9
And a summer after that,
We thought it go straight through grade ten.
I never even thought
of when
I'd ever get over him.
But it started all over again
He hurt me once
you said,
"When will you learn?"
He
hurt me twice
You said,
"I'm sorry hun"
He hurt me again
And whaddya know
Once again, You thought I learnt.
Well
believe me,
All your nagging
All your jokes
Finally paid off.
I thought i learnt this time too!
I had myself
convinced of it
Only to learn
How much it still hurt.
But really
I DID listen to you
Took to heart what you
said
I appreciate it all
Even when you knew
He was playing with my head,
And i wouldnt let myself believe you.
So,
I'll have you know
It took a while,
But I dedicate this day to you.
It's the day I got over him
March 7, 2004
Blame It On The Snow
©Heather McPherson
First Rights: Heather McPherson
Date:NOVEMBER
28TH, 2003
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Its always different
From
one year, to the next
Never the same,
Never what you expect
You see that you've changed
In all eyes but your own
You
can see just how you've grown
And yet only you've been shown
Keep feeling so alone
When you're reminded
By some
force unknown
Of what happned on this day
How he got away
You wanna blame it all on something,
Take it out on
something
So Blame it on the Snow
You don't know what to say
How'd it go astray?
you thought about him everyday
You
still do to this day
But he was blown away
Like the storm that took you home
Losing your chance
Disappeared in
a glance
When the DJ said
The roads will be closed
There goes your chance
There goes your dance
For all your
sorrow
and woe
Blame it on the snow
The next day
He came to you
You were feelin blue
He asked why he
couldn't find you
She told him y'all,
if he didnt recall,
Had to leave
You couldn't believe
That he had said
he
had taken time
To look for you
and then tell you
But it woulnd't have needed to happen
and it'll never happen
again
Cause you get back up
When you hit a low
But you can still always
Blame it on the Snow
The Sun Comes Up
©Heather McPherson
First Rights: Me
Date: Sept 17/18, 2005
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I
miss you every second
Of every minute
Of every day
And I don’t see how I can go on
Without you here to hold
me.
You need to know how much I need you,
How much I love you.
You need to know
How much I still care,
How
much I’ll always care.
I’m so scared
Of not being with you
It’s all I’ve known for so long,
You’re
all I’ve known.
What do I do without you?
It’s too damn hard
Knowing you’re so close,
But you
won’t kiss me like you used to.
And in the words of Gram,
“And the sun comes up without you,
It just
doesn’t know you’re gone”*
I just want you to be happy…
But thank you for everything you’ve
done for me
You really did change my life.
And I want you to know this too:
I love you.
And when I wake up in
the middle of the night to cry,
You don’t know how much I need you beside me,
To hold me and tell me it’ll
be alright…
*from Brass Buttons~ Gram Parsons, but slightly altered (she=you)
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