Title: Turquoise Ring
Author: Kyoko_godaikun
Rating: Yaoi
Fandom: Ryo/Uchi
Summary: Ryo Loses Uchi gets him
back and loses him again.
Note: No evil!Ryo.
But it does have some angst
Good friends, that's all they were. At least that was what
Nishikido Ryo insisted. He liked the English term, friends with benefits. Ryo
swore up and down that he was straight, but he called Uchi his boy hole,
straight men sometimes used boy holes he had heard. Uchi Hiroki was simply a
friend with benefits.
Ryo told
himself he was using Uchi, but really he loved Uchi more then anything.
One early
summer night Uchi and Ryo went out drinking with dates. Ryo liked older woman, because they were less
likely to tell the press on them. Besides, they were more likely to sleep with
him. He had even found a date for Uchi.
He knew that Uchi hated going on the dates, but he did it because Ryo asked.
They where at a park. The woman had gone to the rest room.
Uchi tried
to snuggle against Ryo. Uchi was very drunk. He seemed to always drink too much
when Ryo forced him to go out with women.
The older
boy pulled away from him. "We can’t touch in public."
"This
isn't public," Uchi tried to get even closer. "It's just us!"
"You
can't touch me!" Ryo snapped. "I don't want anyone knowing I'm gay!"
"We're
boy friends." Uchi tried to object.
"You're
just a boy hole." Ryo said harshly.
Uchi looked
at Ryo. Suddenly he looked very sober.
"I want to break up with you."
Fine,"
Ryo told him harshly. "It's not like we're really together. All we have is
a friendship, with benefits."
"You
mean I mean nothing to you?" Uchi
looked on the verge of tears.
"Of course not. I only use you when I can't get a girl to
fuck." Ryo said harshly. He felt please with himself when Uchi began to
cry.
Just then
Ryo's date came out of the bathroom. He grabbed her, kissing her on the lips.
"What's
that for?" The woman asked.
"Let's
go back to my apartment." Again, he kissed her.
"What
about Uchi-kun?" She asked.
"He can
take care of himself." With that he turned and left.
The next
morning Ryo was told that Uchi had been arrested for being drunk in a public
place. The agency soon announced that Uchi was suspended.
Ryo blamed
himself. He shouldn’t' have been so drunk. He should have taken care of Uchi.
But when he tried to contact his friend to apologize Uchi refused to see him,
telling Ryo it was better this way.
**************************
Time passed. Ryo fell into a spiral of depression. The
depression caused by the fact that he didn't realize just how much he loved
Uchi until he was gone. That was all he could think about. His friend's face
haunted his dreams. He blamed himself for Uchi's punishment. Any time Ryo did
anything, the thought kept running through his mind. He was the one that left
Uchi alone and drunk. It was his fault that Uchi was suspended.
Then one day, it was announced that Uchi would come back as
a trainee. Everyone in the agency was excited. There was hope that if Uchi
trained enough that he would be allowed to rejoin his groups.
Ryo suddenly decided
he needed to train more. Perhaps then he could accidentally run into his
ex-lover. He practiced day after day without seeing Uchi. He decided one more
day.
He saw Uchi in the hallways with Kusano,
they were now room mates. They were walking close together. Kusano
said something into Uchi's ear, and his friend laughed.
Ryo tried to hide his
jealousy. He knew that one day Uchi would move on. But it
hurt. Watching Uchi with someone else make Ryo
feel like a stake was going through his heart.
"Hiroki," Ryo gasped.
Uchi looked up to him. Their eyes met for a brief second.
"Ryo...I mean Nishikido-sempai."
"Can we talk?" He asked his friend.
Uchi glanced at Kusano. "I'm
sorry sempai, I'm late for practice."
Then Uchi was gone almost like he was never there.
Ryo's heart began to race. "He’s back, He's back."
He hastily scribbled a note to Uchi. He had to talk to him.
To apologize for how he had hurt Uchi.
Ryo went to the Trainees practice room. Just outside the
room on shelves were the Trainees bags. He could recognize Uchi's. It was
lavender and purple and looked really girly. He wondered why Uchi still used
it. Ryo had meant it as a gag gift after winning it on a TV show.
Ryo unzipped the bag and stuck the note in. Perhaps, Uchi
could see it. Then perhaps they could be friends again.
Finally the long training session was over. Uchi's body
ached, but he knew it was good for him. Perhaps if he worked very hard he could
be a junior again.
He went to the
hallway and grabbed his bag. It was lavender and purple. Uchi had adored it
when he saw it in a claw machine. Kanjani 8 had been filming a TV show at an
arcade. He tried several times to win it with no luck. Then Ryo had given him a
bad ass smile, sauntered to the machine and with the first go, won the bag.
Uchi felt disappointed. One of Ryo's major rules was he
never shared his winnings with anyone else.
Uchi was surprised when they got to their apartment that Ryo
handed it to Uchi. "I can't believe I won something so girly. You better
take it."
The bag was very special to Uchi, for Ryo had won it for
him. Ryo who had never given anything to anyone gave him a gift.
Uchi opened his bag. There was a piece of paper inside. He
recognized Ryo's loopy handwriting. Ryo asked him to please come to his
apartment. There was something there he had to talk to him about. It wouldn't
take long, ten minutes at the most.
"What is it?" Kusano
asked he too was getting ready to leave.
"Nothing," he lied.
"It
isn't anything is it?" Kusano snatched the paper
away. "Oh god! It's from Nishikido-kun!"
"Hush!
No one must know!" Uchi looked both ways to see if anyone was watching.
"Are
you going to his apartment?"
"I
don't know," Uchi admitted.
"You
have to go!" Kusano told him. "Don't worry,
I'll cover for you."
***************************
Uchi showed
and changed into fresh clothes before he went to Ryo's apartment. He wasn't
sure why he did this, Ryo told him he wanted to talk to him for only ten
minutes. He hoped, perhaps after all this time the two of them could be
friends.
Summing up
all his courage, Uchi rang the doorbell.
A few moments passed. Ryo opened the door.
"Come in."
Uchi came
into the apartment. Ryo shut and locked the door behind him. Uchi went to the
couch and sat down. "You wanted to
talk to me."
Ryo sat down
on the couch with him. "I wanted to tell you I'm sorry."
"You're
sorry." Uchi repeated. He couldn't believe his ears. Nishikido Ryo apologized to no one.
"Your
suspension is my fault," Ryo continued. "If I hadn't left you, none
of this would have happened."
"It
doesn't matter." Uchi told him. "What happened was in the past. We
can't change it."
"Why
didn't you tell me you where coming back?" Ryo continued.
"I
thought you all ready knew," Uchi said softly.
"I
missed you," Ryo reached out and touched Uchi's cheek.
Uchi sighed
and closed his eyes. "Please sempai, don't touch me."
Ryo let his
hand drop. "You and Kusano?"
"We're
good friends." Uchi admitted.
"Will
we ever be friends again?" Ryo asked.
"No, we
can't." Uchi said sadly. "It’s better if we're not friends. Our lives
have taken different paths."
"What
if I told you I loved you?" Ryo asked.
Uchi
flinched. "Ryo-Chan, I can't be your boy hole any more."
"What
if I really did love you?" He persisted.
"Don't
do this; I know you use people's feelings for you against them." Uchi said
softly. "That's all you are, a con man."
"I do
love you." He took a ring out of his pocket. "I bought this for you.
I really want you to take it. Think of it as a thank you present."
"You
want me to be your boy hole again." Uchi guessed.
"Stop
using that word!" Ryo snapped. "We were together a very long time. I
never gave you a ring. I want to give you one now. Simply to remember what we
had."
Uchi took
the ring from Ryo. He opened the box. It was the Indian Turquoise ring that Uchi had so admired. He had always wanted it, but Ryo
said it was stupid to give a boy hole a ring.
He looked at
Ryo, really looked at him. His friend was crying, and for the first time, he
realized that Ryo really did love him.
"Would
you put it on me?" Uchi asked.
"If you want." He took the box from Uchi, and then took the ring
out. He took Uchi's right hand in his and slipped the ring on.
Ryo kept
hold of Uchi's hand, just looking at him. His eyes afraid. Uchi had never known Ryo to be afraid of
anything. Now it seemed almost like Ryo was a different person.
"I
forgive you," Uchi told him. He leaned forwards and kissed Ryo on the
lips.
**********************
Ryo sat on
the couch, he couldn’t' believe that Uchi was kissing him. He hadn't expected
this. All he wanted to do was apologize. But now Uchi was kissing him, and
suddenly everything felt all right.
Uchi pulled
away from him. "What's wrong?"
"I
never thought I would ever be kissed by you again," he confessed.
"You don't know how much I've missed it."
Uchi moved
closer to Ryo, and then he pulled his friend onto his lap. Uchi was taking the
lead. He always wanted to, but Ryo had always forbidden it. But it would be
different this time.
Uchi was
kissing him again. One hand went around his shoulders, the other between Ryo's
legs.
Just the
kissing felt so good so right, Ryo kicked himself for denying Uchi what he
wanted.
Ryo opened
his mouth, and Uchi pushed his tongue in. He loved Ryo with his tongue. He felt
Uchi pull his shirt up in back. Soon he was helping Uchi take off his shirt.
Then Uchi took off his own shirt. Then they were kissing again.
"Hiroki-Chan?" Ryo asked between kisses.
"Mummm?" Uchi was concentrating
on Ryo's neck.
"I want
to be your boy hole."
Uchi pulled
away from him. His hand went to Ryo's cheek. "You're not a boy hole."
Ryo moved so
that he was rubbing against Uchi's hardness. "Please, Uchi, please make
love to me."
"You
don't like being bottom. You say it hurts." Uchi reminded him.
"I
trust you," Ryo told him. "I want to be completely yours."
"All
right," Uchi agreed. "Do you have any lube?"
"In the bedroom." He got off Uchi's lap. "Let's go."
Ryo couldn't
believe he was doing this. Never in
their long relationship had he ever let Uchi top him. He found the bottle of
lube. He pressed it in Uchi's hand and kissed him.
Ryo pulled
his jeans and underwear off, and then he got into bed, lying on his stomach.
Just like he had insisted Uchi doing.
He closed
his eyes, he heard Uchi take off his pants, then climb up on the bed. He tried
to relax, so that it wouldn't hurt so much.
But Uchi
wasn't a selfish lover like Ryo was. Instead, Uchi told him. "I don't want
to do it that way."
"What
do you mean?"
"Get
off the bed for a moment," Uchi commanded. Ryo did as he was told. Uchi
took all the pillows on the bed, and stacked them on the middle. "Lay on your back on this."
Ryo lay back
down. Uchi got between his legs. Ryo closed his eyes, preparing for the pain.
But instead he felt a cool finger press against his hole.
"Relax
Ryo-Chan. I'm going to do one finger at a time until you're ready."
Ryo nodded.
The first finger entered, it hurt and Ryo couldn't help but clamp down. He felt
Uchi's hand on his cock pumping it. Ryo couldn't help it, he began to relax. A
second finger entered him; the two fingers began to make love to him as his
hand made love to his cock. A third finger entered him. Stretching him, but
this time the pain was a lot less. Then
finally he inserted his fourth finger. His fingers hit Ryo's secret spot, and
Ryo arched back moaning.
"Like
that?" Uchi asked.
"I'm
ready," Ryo panted.
The fingers
inside him were removed, but still the hand on his cock kept pumping. He felt
something hard brush his hole. Then it entered him. It hurt a bit, but nothing
like the pain he had experienced before. For the first time ever, someone
inside him felt good, really good.
"I'm
going to begin to thrust," Uchi told him.
Ryo nodded.
Uchi began to slowly thrust. In, out to the point were he was almost out of
him, and then back in.
His hand
left Ryo's cock, and he moved put his arms around Ryo. Pulling
him up onto his lap. So that Ryo was now sitting upright.
Uchi kissed
him again, deeply, hungrily. Ryo was now on top, and now even with Uchi buried
inside him, in control.
They kissed
as Ryo moved up and down. His cock trapped between their bodies, being stroked
with ever move.
"I love
you," Ryo gasped before he pushed himself down as hard as he could. Then
he erupted, he could feel Uchi arch back screaming Ryo's name.
Afterwards,
they clung to each other, until Uchi soften and slid out of Ryo's body. Then
Uchi wiped clean his body. Ryo took Uchi's hand and sucked off the sperm.
Uchi pulled
Ryo back down to the bed, covering them both with the covers. Ryo put his head
on Uchi's shoulder. He felt Uchi put his arm around him.
"Did it
hurt?" Uchi asked.
"It
felt wonderful." Ryo kissed him chastely. "I love you."
"I love
you to." Uchi began to stroke Ryo's hair. Ryo couldn't help it, he fell
asleep.
****************************
Uchi woke
with Ryo curled up on the bed beside him.
Last night had been a night of many first; the first time Ryo let Uchi
make love to him. The first time Ryo had told him he loved him. Ryo had even
given Uchi a ring.
What he had
to do next broke Uchi's heart. He went into the living room. He found a piece
of paper and a pen. Then he began to write.
"My
Beloved Ryo,
"Last
night will be a night I always cherish. A night which all my
dreams came true. I was the happiest man in the world when you told me
you loved me, and gave me your ring.
You know the
agency forbids trainees to even talk to debuted stars. What we have now is a
forbidden love. I can't risk you becoming what I am.
I must
complete my punishment. If I work even harder, perhaps I'll be allowed to be a
junior. Then perhaps someday I'll be allowed to debut again.
But even
though we won't be able to be together, your love will give me strength. If a miracle happens, and I am allowed to come back. I hope
you are there waiting for me.
I love you.
I am leaving you because of that love.
Please do not try to contact me. I will not change my mind.
I will
always wear our ring, to remind me of you.
I will
always be yours,
Hiroki."
Uchi went
back into the bedroom. He looked down to Ryo. He set the note on the now empty
pillow. Tears rolled down Uchi's face. "Sayonara my
love." Then Uchi left, never to come back.