Afterthoughts -- three years later

3 February 2000

I've been renovating these pages, and as I was doing so this phrase on the last journal entry popped out at me: having to spend 72 hours at the LSUMC looney bin. That's so ironic, because I did that very thing a couple of months ago. Actually I spent two weeks there, and I went myself, didn't get dragged there... but that's another journal entry. I'm not ready for that yet. I just wanted to leave a note for anyone who has read this far so they can know how things turned out.

I did go back to Houma. I didn't get back with Sharyn, they assigned me to this pain-in-the-@ss dude who I basically had to tell what he wanted to hear. But I did get back on my meds, and I also did get back to working with June. I don't remember if I did more journaling then or not.

We worked and worked and eventually I decided I wanted to go to school in Shreveport. SuzyQ (aka Mary) and I also realized during this time that we did love each other very much. I suspect that was also some of my motivation to go to school in S'port. I moved back to Shreveport in June of 1997, and started school that fall.

First semester was awesome. I had genetics and other cool stuff. Second semester was the beginning of the end. I had several classes I had to "retake" (ie the classes I had taken at Nicholls didn't count) and had to be in these classes with freshmen. This triggered traumas buried so deep that June and I had not known to work on them. It took me until near the end of that semester to figure that fact out. It was during this time that wabbit and the others made themselves known.

Summer 1998 was spent doing research at LSU med school, biochem department. The problems with my hands became very aggravated, and I realized I had reactive hypoglycemia (that is, carbos gave me a heavy rebound reaction). Much of that time is still a blur to me.

There's much more that happened, but it will have to be written later. Sorry.

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