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Explanation of "Zetsumei no Yochimu "
Ohayo all! Well this is my bit of "explaination" page to Zetsumei no Yochimu . There is much I probably need to answer for so I'll go through and point out what's up.
First all, I must give credit where credit is due: 1) The story idea is based upon the emotional story entitled "Regrets". I am sorry to say I cannot recall the author but hopefully the title should be enough. The main idea was sort of taken from her (Duo being sick and dying) so I thought I needed to give that credit. 2) The song "Bent" used in chapter two is by Matchbox 20 and I do not own the lyrics, I just use 'em cuz I love that song. 3) In Part Four: Breaking, there is the scene in which Duo and Heero are on the rooftop of a building overlooking the city. Their lines (which are not mine!) are: "Y-you're joking.... right?" "Of course I'm joking!" and Duo's actions and Heero's stunned response. Okay, what I mean by that is that those few lines are NOT ORIGINAL. I completely got the idea from one of the neatest anime movies: Please Save My Earth. The lines are pretty much word-for-word. Anyhow, just thought I'd let everyone know that.
Want to know the title now? Forgive my grammar errors that I'm sure to have with it, but from what I know Zetsumei = "death" or "end of life". Yochimu= "foresight[dream]" . So the title is "Death's Foresight". Why? Well I did just spend about three months (since beginning the story) trying to figure out what the hell I was going to call this thing. I went through some chapters, thought of "fading smile" or "no need for tears" [see prologue] or various other things. I just couldn't come up with a right name. Then I thought "impossible dream"! But I wanted that to be in Japanese and couldn't think of how you say that.... darnit. I kept thinking and since I was thinking along the lines of impossible dream -- which I thought of after thinking of the ZetsuAi/Bronze music videos -- I thought, why not use "zetsu" in the title? So then it was, what's the other word. Actually, I did originally have "Zetsu Ute" (incorrect, gomen!) before for "desperate song" but as I went through and looked up words for a title for a different story, I came across zetsumei and all these different words for the different levels of "dream". Hence, Zetsumi no Yochimu was born. ::bows:: ^__~ We've been doing literary terms in school so I'm stuck on symbolism. ;;U_U
So then.... how do I explain myself for this story? I'm not fully sure. Looking at the date at which I started, June 25-July 5, that was during a time just around when I went to the anime expo in Anaheim, California. It was also at a point in time that I had to write or go insane. I'm not trying to be funny there, either, okay? I was quite upset and depressed at the time and escaped into my writings. And so I began a story that I knew I could write. I wrote this because I know very well how it is to watch as someone you love and cherish -- that you think will always be there -- begins to fade away and eventually leaves you. Then again, I know the strain of trying to make everyone else feel okay and comfortable, not aware of what's going on.
Okay, enough of my babble. If there are any questions on anything, please contact me. I have gotten like no replies on this story. And minna, this is the work I'm actually proud to have written. This is the piece that I finally can write in the style I like... I've honestly been completely lost since I finished it and it's actually kept me up for nights on end just trying to think of something else to write.
Jya.
~Lionna~Shinigami Goddess~ & Muse-in-training: Eien
September 30, 2000