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Six: A Door Closes And A Window Opens
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Title: A Door Closes and a Window Opens
Mini-series: 6th story of `Arguments of The Soul and Mind' series
Status: Complete and unedited. Companion to my other stories of the `mini-series'.
By: Shinigami Goddess (Lionna)
Warnings: shonen-ai/ mild yoai Y'know me: angst, emotional, etc. Always torturing the characters. Some language.
Started: June 25, 2000 Completed: June 25, 2000
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I watch as Quatre is led away to the medic area, I just hope he's okay. I turn back to Wufei to find out what's going on… why he looked so distraught. I saw you again, this time you walking towards us. The words I really wanted to say were locked in my throat so I dealt with flashing a cheery smile. Relena was by your arm again but I was finally seeing the beginnings of annoyance. The lines on your forehead were creasing ever so slightly and your muscles were taunt as if you were in battle.
Quickly I distracted Relena with some comments about the last battle. She immediately began bubbling about how you had rescued her from Libra and how wonderful it was that you had finished off Libra before it reached the Earth. Wufei gave up on us and walked away and I truly wished to do the same. People say I talk a lot but they should look at Ms. Pacifist here.
You may not like her but there's something binding you to her. I hate how she acts like you're an item. You do look good together. I know that's not everything but I can't brush off the times that you didn't push her away or the reactions you give to her. You treat her differently than you treat the annoyance named `me'. You always said she was an obstacle between the missions but you never came too close to being rid of her. You've come closer to get rid of me for heaven's sake!
Damn… I'm frustrated and confused at the moment. It's the end of the war and I should be happy yet instead I'm stuck worrying if you'll survive after the war. You never thought you'd survive the war, that I know, and I know you didn't want to survive the war. We're all left at loose ends now. Trowa has someplace to go with that circus job of his. Quatre's got his work cut out for him with managing the Winner estates since his father is dead. But what about Wufei or you? I don't have anything to do either but that doesn't matter. I can always find something… hopefully.
I'm sure a certain someone would just love to have you as their personal bodyguard. Who will guard our backs, however? I'm not stupid or blind. There's still people who will hate us for being gundam pilots and killing so many. It's just how it happens. They wouldn't ever listen to `we didn't have a choice' or `it was for the peace of the colonies'. What sort of answers are those anyway?
Relena stopped talking some time back and I have to force myself away from my thoughts just to find Noin and Une coming towards us. I listen vaguely to note that they are working on setting up peace conferences throughout the colonies and on Earth. Sighing, I give a smile and wave them off.
"Duo-kun, where are you going?" Relena demanded as I turned. I had to grit my teeth beneath the smile so as not to shout at her. I continued on walking while tossing a comment over my shoulder.
"Heero's not the only one who fought, I need some rest and to check on Quatre. Later, Ms. Pacifist." I continued on and it wasn't until I reached the door that I realized I'd said her `nickname' aloud. Quickly I turned around a put a hand to my forehead. Sometimes I could really mess things up…
Relena was standing there with her mouth hanging open a bit and both Une and Noin looked a little startled at my show of sarcasm. I was quite worried what you would be like so hesitantly I moved my line of sight to you. What I saw made me gape. My hand dropped to my side as I stared at the slight upturn of your lips… a smile! An actual smile! Not a smirk or mocking smile you've used before… no… an actual smile. Slowly my lips turned upwards too. You must have realized I noticed for you immediately donned the blank expression and turned away. I didn't really care anymore. I now knew you could smile… and joke… still be able to feel. It meant that there was still a chance for you and some hope for me. It left me a little breathless as I turned from the room. I forgot all about the need to apologize. What is the point of doing so when I wasn't sorry anyhow?
I heard some arguments behind me as I left the hangar and down the hallway but I really didn't care. At the moment I needed to find Quatre and see what was going on before I went to get some much-needed rest. I couldn't even remember the last time I'd slept.
Sally met me outside of Quatre's room and I peered in quickly to find Trowa nodding off in a chair beside the bed while Quatre was already asleep. I smiled slightly and then turned back to Sally. She informed me that Quatre would be okay even with the blood loss and lack of sleep. She reminded me that I ought to get some sleep along with you and Wufei. I let her know that I hadn't a clue where Wufei was but that I'd get you and make you get some rest. She smiled, at my enthusiasm I'm guessing, before sending me back to find you and leaving to go find Wufei.
I was having quite a time keeping my balance with the reduced gravity and I was rather surprised since I was used to the lower gravity and floating. I love floating… usually. Well, when my head and body are connected I like it but at the moment it seemed I was detached. Just how much sleep had I missed? Ahead I could see a blurry image of the closed hangar door. I just hoped I could reach it before I passed out. After opening the door I had to pause for a moment to calm my head that was floating off again. Slowly I made my way towards you, calling out. You turned slowly and I would have said something more if I hadn't weakened that moment and needed to clutch onto the catwalk railing.
I closed my eyes, I didn't care much anymore. All that mattered and that I wanted was sleep. Even the thump of a booted foot hitting the `ground' every-so-often didn't matter to me. I just remember warmth coming about me as I slipped into oblivion.
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Owari
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