#18

“Green State of Shock”

Everything’s gone green.  I don’t know what’s happening.
The tears that are in my eyes distort everything.
Why did this tragedy have to happen to me?

I devoted everything.  Now it is all gone.
All the love in my life is now completely gone.
Blurry images are the only things I see.

All colors are mixed with green.  I am very scared.
I needed her love to live, but she never cared.
Figuring out what to do really puzzles me.

No one will help me.  I have no one to go to.
Everything around me is mixed with green and blue.
Now I know that she’ll never want to be with me.

She found out way too soon.  I needed to improve.
I had things planned out but it’s too late to improve.
I want to leave this green surrounding and be free.

A headache and stomachache makes me feel bad.
She could have gone out with me and made my life glad.
The terrible fate that I can’t fix destroyed me.

The color green is the only color I see.
The brown desk is the same color as the green tree.
This green state of shock confuses and troubles me.

My reputation, my looks made hatred for her.
My facial looks and my life cannot be better.
Now the colors of her love appear green to me.

Things that hid in my past, I now see; but in green.
All of the pain that I forgot has been reseen.
Since she hates me, I’ll never reach my destiny.

I must end this vigor pain.  I know what to do.
Not just my sad and shameful pain, but my life too.
There is no other possible choice left to be.