#25

“D.W.L.”

It is bound to happen.
I am definitely sure it will happen.
Of course, for anybody, death must happen.
But my love for her will make death come sooner.

Everyone has problems.
My love for her has caused serious problems.
Yet, I still must face all of my big problems.
When I do, you will never see me again.

Everybody needs love.
What I am afraid of is death without love.
The reason that I’m alive is to find love.
When she turns me down, I’ll lose my will to live.

Look and see what’s inside.
She’ll see my outside and ignore what’s inside.
I suffer from my feelings that are inside.
When they are let loose, you’ll see the pain in me.

I’m scared of my future.
There’s only one right answer to my future.
Without the one I love, heaven’s my future.
That’s my way of life, I have to suffer it.

I want the girl I love.
I suffer vigor when I think about love.
I’ll never get my chance to be with my love.
I have never deserved this, but that’s my life.

My destiny’s so far.
The love I need to get is somewhere so far.
The life I need to live is somewhere so far.
I’ll never make it to my fifteenth birthday.

No one understands me.
I’ve been hurt once before.  Now, death comes for me.
No one’s been hurt like me, everyone hates me.
I have no help, so I must fight for myself.

I’m so lonely in life.
I need the one I love to be in my life.
With my vague luck, I can’t trust this evil life.
I’ll never suffer like my painful first love.

It is almost over.
The look in her eye shows my life is over.
When she says the painful ‘no’, it is over.
The last words that I write will all be in pain.

I can’t hide from the truth.
I must know, before I go, all of the truth.
I must have her turn me down if that’s the truth.
I see pain, fear, and death when I see the truth.
I must know the truth and nothing but the truth.
The truth is that I might have Death Without Love.