#88

“Suicide”

All of the pain.  All of the fear.
Praying that death will soon be here.

All of the depressions I had.
I cannot help being so sad.

All of the painful suffering.
Is this life really worth living?

There is just too much happening.
Life is so sad and depressing.
Life is cruel and unforgiving.
Life will turn you into nothing.

There is one thing that I demand.
I want to be buried in land.
A funeral of my freedom.
And I'll live in heaven's kingdom.

The girl that I love troubles me.
She hurts me so very badly.
I just sit and cry so sadly.
But she looks at me so madly.
When death comes, I'll feel so gladly.

But when will my death arrive.
To meet this goal, I must thrive.
There is no way to revive.
There is no way to survive.
To reach an end, I must dive.
into death as it arrives.

All of the pain.  All of the fear.
All of the times I went in tears.

All of the dreams lost in the sky.
I hope someday that I will die.

All that I fear is to come back
to this life and it's harsh attacks.
I can't win.  I have to give up.
When I die, I hope to go up
to heaven and it's large kingdom
of eternal rest and freedom.

I wish life was a fantasy.
I hate life and reality.
There is nothing good I can see
about life and everybody.
We just live to grow up and die.
People can live longer, but why?
Who would want to live more longer?
You would suffer alot stronger.
Just end life and live no longer.

I have been through alot of pain.
Life is just an annoying strain.
Just take a ride on a big train.
that would lead you to no remain.

Don't be afraid to end your life.
Just slash your wrist with a sharp knife
and journey to heaven's kingdom.
of eternal peace and freedom.

Every day, I pray for my death.
I can't wait to take my last breath.
There is no way to be happy.
I just wish death will come for me.

All of the pain all of the fear.
When will my death get into gear.

All of the tears that I have cried.
I am suffering deep inside.

Nobody wants to help me out.
There is no help to look about.
When I help myself, I can't win.
I do not know where to begin.
Everything I do is a sin.
My depressions aren't forgotten.
The life I live is so rotten.
Look into the clouds of cotton.
In the sky, there's heaven's kingdom
of eternal love and freedom.

There are people still suffering.
Life is fearful and threatening.
People feel pain so unbearing.
Then why are there people living?

You get one chance to live this life.
So you better keep living life.
And live through alot of torture.
And suffer under strong pressure.
Do you like to suffer and cry?
I would surely want me to die.

All that I have said about life.
End it with a gun or a knife.

All of the pain you can't deny.
Just get up and give death a try.

You cannot win in any way.
You could keep trying everyday.
You have to admit loss someday.
Life is a stressing game to play.
This is what I would like to say.
Reality is here to stay.
Unless your death occurs someday.

All of the grief I have been through.
You'd know if it happened to you.

All day long, I try everything.
When I try hard, it does nothing.

I have tried everything I could.
I am almost quite sure I should.
To get my fully loaded gun.
And stop what's already begun.
Look at me.  I have no pride left.
Life is one big criminal theft.
Life steals your true faith and pride.
Life can find the places you hide.
You cannot hide.  You cannot run.
Just face it and look in the sun.
Look at the clouds and at the sky.
Life is full of pain and boredom.
Die and go to heaven's kingdom
of eternal grace and freedom.