#194

“Still the Same”

Since Ninth grade, things are the same.

I was just a lonely boy with a new female.
I always wished I could be with that one female.
But the last year of the hourglass fills in time.
Even three years later, not one girl has been mine.

I never had a kiss, hug, or a date ever.
And this still goes on and might go on forever.
Since I was eleven, there’s no female that came.
I am almost seventeen and it’s still the same.

It was a year ago when she graduated.
With her, it has been 3 years that I have waited.
She ignored me all the time.  The excuse was lame.
And the hourglass goes on, and it’s still the same.

It seems unbelievable by the way it sounds.
From 2 years of depression, I’ve gained forty pounds.
I’m not too fat, but I’m not very muscular.
That means I will be ignored and not popular.

I’m an outcast of this thing called society.
I really thought I had every right to be me.
But the system threw me out and I’m all alone.
Through six years, it’s still the same.  No changes have grown.

Terrible lies, cruel females; trusting’s hard to do.
It is hard to tell if they’re heartless or they’re true.
If I fail to get a girl, it puts me to shame.
I will stay lonely; that means everything’s the same.