#206

“The Flow of Time”

Here I am.
Going through adulthood.
I loved a girl.
I tried, but I never had my chance with her.
We have both grown up.
My chances are gone,
but I desperately need her by my side in order to move on.

It seemed like a week ago...
When I first fell in love with her.
I always tried to be with her.
I never got too close to her.
Years went by as I tried and tried.
So many years went by as I cried.
Too many years went by.
Time went fast.  Time did fly.

Now it is too late to try to win her heart.
You want to feel her love, but you cannot start.
We are separated due to the flow of time.
Only if I could try to get her one last time.

But I think about the future.
She will be farther than she is right now.
Later in life, she will be a true adult.
She will find a man, then they will marry,
then they will start a family.
This will go on while I am in the dark.
I have no idea of anything about her.
All that I know is that I still love her.
And I beg to God to please make all my dreams come true.

A few years from now.
She will have long forgotten me.
She is raising her family.
But even to ten years in time,
I will still pray that she is mine.
The memories make me so lonely.
I feel helpless.  I wish she could be mine.
But I can’t because I’m all out of time.

I can’t stop thinking of her.
It is like the memories are carved within my head.
She doesn’t know what she is doing to me.
I sit and cry helplessly everyday.
My heart bleeds with tears.
I wish I could change the flow of time,
because I need time to heal.
I wish I could go back in time,
so I can try to make her mine.
But time goes on...
and so does my life,
and so does her life.
There is nothing I can do.



“The flow of time can be so cruel.
It is different for each person.
Time flows just like a river.
You cannot change the flow of time.
What doesn’t change in the flow of time,
are the memories you lived through;
the memories that last a lifetime.

Those memories, time will never change.”