#246

“Five Years”

Five years ago...
I first fell in love with Lisa ?????.
The feeling was so intense and sharp.
I was caressed with her looks and mind.
Just someone like her is hard to find.

I tried so hard just to get her love.
I prayed everyday to god above.
I gave it everything that I had.
Never got to be with her, so sad.

Five years ago...
I just recovered from a lost love.
Three years, I was lonely as a dove.
I decided to find someone new.
Then Lisa ????? came out of the blue.

She was not prefect, but I liked her.
Even though I tried to get closer
to her side, I never made it there.
She left me just standing everywhere.

Throughout the years...
I did all I could to be with her.
I got closer.  She just went farther.
Running through a maze without a goal.
When I got far, I fell through a hole.

She never had guilt for what she did.
When I looked for her, she always hid.
I was just a low-life with no love.
Lost faith in my life and from above.

Throughout the years...
I just wanted to be on her side.
I could not, no matter if I tried.
She always hurt me and gave me fears.
She always left me alone in tears.

I was depressed each and every way.
I was lonely each and every day.
There was no way to get what I need.
When I get her love, I will succeed.

Then came that year...
I could not handle my lonliness.
I was always full of emptiness.
I snapped and my anger took control
of my body, my mind, and my soul.

I released my anger out on her.
I probably bothered and hurt her.
But if I did, I really don’t care.
When I needed her, she didn’t care.

Five years later...
I look back at those five years with her.
Years of love, pain, sorrow, and anger.
Five years since I laid eyes upon her.
But I’m glad that we share no future.