#251

“Waiting”

When will it come?
Everyday, I look to the future.
And each day is not getting better.
I’ve been waiting my entire life
to find someone that could be my wife.
I’ve never dated a girl.  I have never kissed a girl.
And I just turned 21.  Having no love is no fun.
There are times I’ve cried all night in bed.
Suicidal thoughts creep in my head.
My heart is deprived in every way.
But I still have hope to see that day.
When will it come?

Finding a female that cares for me.
She will not care that I’m so ugly.
She will only look at what’s inside.
She will restore all of my lost pride.
Can females see me and not be mean?
Or is that just a pathetic dream?

I still wait for that day...
The day that a female askes me out.
I’ll say yes to any girl, no doubt.
Every girl I’ve asked out turned me down.
Thirty-four females have turned me down.
I was hyper, flirting all about.
Not I’m too shy to ask someone out.
That is how bad females have hurt me.
But I wait until a girl helps me.
I still wait for that day.

I am waiting for that special day
that my suffering will go away.
I just need a femle by my side
and tell me that there’s nothing to hide.
If this day will come, I cannot tell
considering I’m ugly as hell.

Maybe it won’t come...
No beauty will ever love a beast.
I’ll be loveless until I’m deceased.
I’ve been waiting for eternity
for that special one to cherish me.
I have tried so many times.  I’ve been hurt so many times.
I lay down and start to cry and I always wonder why?
Will a female come out to my aid?
Will she pull my heart our of the shade?
Just one female is all that I need.
Will the day come when she helps my need?
Maybe it won’t come...

Why are women so unsensitive?
Why don’t I get when I always give?
Just because I’m ugly, I’m hopeless.
Without motivation, I’m helpless.
I will wait until I’m old and grey.
I will wait until my final day.
I will wait until she comes to me.
I will wait for all eternity.
........

I’m still waiting.....