#256

“Death V”

I have lived a painful life.  I have had no love.
Lisa ?????, my high school love gave my life a shove.
I never got the chance to be with her.

She has always treated me with such disrespect.
Her ignorance and rudeness you can sure detect.
There is not a girl that is rude as her.

But I still loved her and I tried to win her heart.
She laughed right in my face and tore my life apart.
She was self-centered.  She just cared for her.

It was back in ’99.  She has crossed the line.
Then I snapped and got revenge.  It felt so divine.
I tried to rid the memories of her.

I moved on and so did she.  Now I can live life.
I will try to find the one to become my wife.
If I found true love, I would forget her.

But seven years later, I am still so lonesome.
It is because I am not wealthy or handsome.
Now the memories are coming back with her.

She gave me more pain than anyone else could give.
But there were some memories from this life I live.
Those memories were happy ones with her.

When I first fell in love with Lisa, I was glad.
She could heal my lonliness.  She made me less sad.
I felt so in love each time I saw her.

I remember when she sat down right next to me.
That was my best time with her.  I was so happy.
She made me feel great when I looked at her.

I talked to her on the phone and heard her cute voice.
I did not say who I was, that was my own choice.
I was nervous when I conversed with her.

I wrote her name all over the boy’s bathroom stalls.
“I LOVE LISA ?????” written all over the walls.
I tried to get attention back from her.

Those first memories with her were the best of times.
Nothing else in my small life could not beat those times.
Those were the best times back when I loved her.

But when she found out, she made my life complete hell.
All of my true love and feelings she did repel.
I tried everything just to be with her.

Even though she took my love and threw it away,
I still think about the times that she made my day.
She made my day each time I glazed at her.

Those memories, the flow of time will never change.
I know that her feelings for me will never change.
She hates me, but I will always love her.

I have almost died three times.  I have lost my faith.
I snapped when she broke my heart.  Then she felt my wraith.
I have been through a lot in life with her.

I thought that I would be dead in life without her.
But I am thankful for the times I had with her.
Nobody gave me happiness but her.

She has moved away and she has forgotten me.
But ten years later, she’s still in my memory.
I can never stop thinking about her.

But I paid her back for the times she made me sad.
But I never told her that she did make me glad.
I was proud to live life when I loved her.

I finally apologized for what I did.
I am sorry for every little thing I did.
I wish I never got revenge on her.

But I see how happy she is in life right now.
She moved on with ease with no trouble anyhow.
Maybe what I did didn’t bother her.

She is so busy in life and she still has fun.
But she always comes out on top.  The battle, she’s won.
She is happy and I’m so proud of her.

Now I want to be like her.  I want happiness.
I have been inspired by her and her gladness.
I want to be so happy just like her.

She has gave me inspiration to help my life.
I don’t even care if she won’t become my wife.
I just want to have success just like her.

I am living life with more light than I can see.
I have faith in myself to be all I can be.
If I succeed in life, I will thank her.

So many poems with sadness and no end in sight.
Now I want to lift my life to a whole new height.
I want to have fun in life just like her.

This is a new road for me.  I want to improve.
For too long I have been stuck in a painful groove.
I have found the path and I do thank her.

Thank you Lisa for the memories you gave me.
I will use them to be as happy as can be.
I hope this message somehow reaches her.