I was born on Erastid. The sun stood high on the sky outside Maradon, Saldaea, and the wagons were in a ring, with my mother’s and father’s in the middle. Father was pacing outside, he was always nervous when my mother gave birth. Somehow I know all this, dont ask me how, but I know this was the way it all began
for me. After my mother delivered me, she held me close to her, and kissed me. I reached out, and touched her face. If I close my eyes, I can feel it infront of me. I will never forget that.
~ Flash ~
I am a little more than a year old. I am sitting in my mother’s lap, and she is holding me tight. She sings softly to me, and I cen smell her. She smells like mother’s should smell. Warm, soft. I love my mother more than anything. Next to us another girl is
playing. She looks alot like me, her hair red, and her green eyes sparkles in the light. She is my sister, and I reach out for her, wanting to touch her.
~ Flash ~
I am two and a half years old. I am sitting down playing with some cones, building a farm with goats and horses. My sister is right next to me, brading my hair. It is very hard, since I didn’t have alot of hair then. She doesn’t care about that though, and she combs it. Then she jumpes over and sits next to me. I kiss her cheek, and tries to make her understand what
I am building. I dont think she understands, but she listens to me anyway.
It is getting darker, and mother is calling for us. My
sister picks me up, and carries me to mother. I gladly falls into her arms, and buries my face in her hair.
She’s a redhead too...Mother carries me inside, and sings to me softly. I get all sleepy, and I am asleep when she puts me in my little bed.
~ Flash ~
It is the same night, only a few hours later. I wake up hearing my mother scream. She comes running in to the wagon, and lifts me out of my cradle. She cries, and I touch her face gently with my hand. She holds me tight, and she runs out of the wagon, in to chaos. It is too dark to really see anything, but I hear shouts,
and I see my father, trying to reach us. Mother runs against him, and we are all together. I look around. I see monsters, terrible monsters. They are slaughtering everything in their way, and I get scared. I start crying, crying for my mother to take me away from them, crying to make it all go away. Suddenly my father screams. I can see that something is not right wtih him, the sword sticking out from his chest. My mother screams to, and she falls down on the ground, next to my father. I am laing under my mother, and I see her taking my fathers hand. She holds me tight,
and I see blood coming out from her mouth. I stop screaming for a second, and we look at eachother. I can see how life is abandoning my mother, and I cry softly. ~ What is happening? ~ I am thinking. ~ Where is my sister? ~ I shout for my mother, trying to make her wake up, but she cant hear me. Her eyes
are open, staring at nothing. I want her to sing for me, like she always does, but her eyes doens’t seem too see me anymore. I scream to my father and mother, why cant they hear me?
~ Flash ~
I sneak in to the kitchen. The cookie-jar is right there, and I can almost reach it. If I only was one inch longer, I could grab it. I am trying, trying to reach it...And it falls down. The silence is broken by the jar crashing into pieces, and the Mistress is there a second later. She grabs my arm hard, and tells me words I dont understand. I am only five years old,
and I have not learned bad language yet. She holds my arm so tight, it hurts. I try to get away, to wriggle my arm free, but she only grabs it harder. She slaps my face one time, two times, and then everything is dark. I wake up some time later, in my room. It is only a little cubby-hole next to the kitchen, and I
sleep on a blanket. My head hurts, and my arm is bruised. Try to open the door, but it is locked. I fall down on my blanket, crying. What happened to the soft woman who used to sing for me, and smelled nice? She would never do anything like this too me, she loved me. I cry myself to sleep.
~ Flash ~
I am running to the Lady Karesa’s room, she has called for me. I dont want to be late, she get’s so upset then. I slow down outside her room, she doesn’t like it when I am running either. I smooth my grey dress, and knocks at the door. She tells me to come in, and I enter the room.
" -Yes, mi’Lady?" I say, and I remember how I feel when I say that. I feel cold, like I dont have any personality. I am just the Lady’s maid, not a person. She doesn’t see me, she sees a maid. She wouldn’t even notice if I was replaced for another maid. I try to find the curage to stand up to her, but I know I cant. I am only a servant, not a Lady. It is not for me to
decide who I am, it’s they that shape me to that they need at the moment. I curtsy, and she tells me to go find her daughter, Gina. I dont like Gina. She’s three years older than I, twelve years old, but she acts like she’s a Lady already. Gina doesn’t like me
either, and she let’s it show. She know I have to do what she commands. Once she told me to shave my head.
I didn’t do it, I refused. She became furios, and told
the Lord. The Lord is nice though, I like him. He
talks to *me*, not the maid. He told Gina to stop, and
he gave me a pat on the cheek, telling me to be
strong. I like the Lord.
~ Flash ~
" -Blythe, we are leaving now. Hurry up and get the
last bag!" the Lady told me, and I ran inside. It was
Erastid, and it felt like it was important to me. My
nameday...No one here knew that, and I didn’t tell
them. I pick up the last of the bags, and run out from
the house again, putting the bags on the wagon.
" -Get in now, we are already late!" the Lady said,
and I jumped on in the back. We traveled for a few
days, and I did my usual chores. Washed the clothes,
and since the Mistress of the Kitchen wasn’t with us,
I also did all the cooking. The family was going to
the White Tower, Gina wanted to test herself for the
ability to channel. It is time now, she is 15 years
old, and she is already behaving like as Aes Sedai.
She sits on the wagon, throwing small stones at me.
She tells me to get off the wagon, and walk instead. I
do as she tells me with my heart filled with sorrow.
Somewhere in the distance I hear an eagle, and I look
up in the sy, trying to spot it. It soars up in the
sky, free, and it can do anything it wants...I let out
a sigh, I shouldn’t complain. I live a good life at
the mansion, I have a roof over my head, and food. But
something tells me this is not meant for me...
We travel for a few days, and then we finally are
there. My long red hair is dirty, since Gina has not
let me wash it for a long time. Gina demands to see
the Mistress of Novices right away, and I come along,
carrying her bags. When we are admitted, I stand in
the back, trying not to be noticed. I just look at the
Aes Sedai behind the desk, and I wish I was like that.
Dont have to serve someone else, do as you wish...I
catch myself staring at her, and I blush. ~ Where are
my mannors? ~ I think, and looks down at the floor.
The Aes Sedai walks up to me. She looks into my eyes,
and smiles. " -This young girl has the spark inborn.
Your daughter doesn’t, but she will probably be able
to learn to channel." The Aes Sedai said, and I can
only stare. ~ I, channel? ~ I start crying of
happiness, finally I get out of this family, this
torture. I want to find the real me, the one I lost
years ago. " -She’s not staying, she’s my maid." The
Lady said, and glares at the Aes Sedai. Almost all my
hope vanishes, but the Lord takes the Lady’s hand. "
-No, darling, she will stay. And so will Gina. We have
other maids...It’s only good that she stays, she can
look after Gina." Gina glares at her father, and then
at me. The look she gives me is filled with hatred,
and I almost whimper. I know that my life will not be
easy here, when Gina is around.
And that is the story of my life so far. Who knows
what will happen next...
Blythe is short, with long, curly red hair in an angry
colour. Her skin is very fair, and her eyes are green.
She is very pretty, but very fragile. She is very shy,
and she accepts her role in life as a servant. She
will do exactly what her "boss" tells her to do,
without complaint.
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