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only
when
something
goes
wrong
that
you
get
to
see
how
it
is !
substitution
of
appearances
for
reality
a
life
strategy
for
some !
what's it to do with anything except passing the time !
in fact zen , at least the real zen which in recent years has only been kusan sunim and kodo sawaki was celibate, tho i don't think that's practical nowadays, it's important not to be blind about women!
brad you are a long way from the real understanding that kusan and sawaki had, which of course is exceptional, today's zen is just a bunch of stupids yabbering !
there is a maturity in life which is the deflation of adolescent illusions !
love
is
two
dimensional
reply !
s
love
itself
three
dimensions ?
i
don't
actually
think
love
is
3
dimensions
however
believable
it
may
appear !
tell
you
something
i
will
never
forget
you're
a
mad
biting
dog !
if
you
have
any
sort
of
artistic
eye
in
this
world
it
doesn't
want
to
know !
out
spotlighting
in
the
mist
with
a
full
moon
then
gutting
the
wallabies
by
the
stream
occasionally
looking
up
as
the
misty
moonlight
varied
in
intensity
a
experience
typical
male
completely
confident
about
know
ing
just
drifting
from
disaster
to
disaster
a
s
tangible
as
an
axe
and
they
call you
insane
which
is
true
of
course
because
sanity
appears
insane
to
the
insane !
all
our
brains
are
in
our
guts
and
not
our
head
sometimes
i
feel
like
i
am
much
in
life !
you
will
grow
old
and
die
and
all
your
tidy
boundaries
won't
save
you
from
anything !
i
don't
know
how
many
miles
of
anywhere
i
have
been
today !
message
boards
and
blogs
little
pits
of
message
boards
and
blog
comments
basically
you
are
on
an
equal
footing
with
a
bunch
of
shits !
this
is
the
norm !
you
can
unequal
the
balance
by
being
the
owner
this
is
the
only
way
sometimes
you
have
to
make
a
mistake
so
bad
it's
only
through
being
severely
hurt
that
you
see
the
problem !
why are they doing all this training except to lose recogniton of what it is all about!
why am i here, infinity is leading me !
i don't know why i am here or where it's going or how long its going to last !
actually i can see maybe i will be gone now !
ye disbelievers and scoffers when you see it you know it and your sorts of concerns are not an issue !
a
start
what
do
i
mean
by
it?
can't
give
this
experience
to
you
but
you
are
obviously
far
from
it
and
you
needn't
be !
shit
i
must
have
been
poisoned
by
this
stuff
it's
like
lancing
a
boil !
john
loori
was
quite
schizophrenic
or
subtly
schizophrenic
he
didn't
like
anyone
altering
his
perception
of
reality !
in
the
end
i
only
stop
because
i
get
worn
out
played
out
stuffed
out
an
autistic
paradigm
there's
no
right
or
wrong
against
which
you
can
say
a
thing
should
or
shouldn't
be !
that
actually
is
you
can
see
as
you
get
older
and
more
and
more
out
of
sync
with
prevailing
attitudes !
quite
like
the
faith
mind
sutra
it
really
says
something
it's
not
abstract
"The Great Way is not difficult
for those who have no preferences.
When love and hate are both absent
everything becomes clear and undisguised.
Make the smallest distinction, however
and heaven and earth are set infinitely apart.
If you wish to see the truth
then hold no opinions for or against anything.
To set up what you like against what you dislike
is the disease of the mind.
When the deep meaning of things is not understood
the mind's essential peace is disturbed to no avail."
there is something to understand and if you understand you will have facility
you
don't
just
throw
attitudes !
anon108 this is what i really feel at home with ! apparently i am replying to a trolley bus!
this really takes me back, i remember them in down town auckland with their huge swaying armatures !
actually for a trolley bus you are pretty articulate, but perhaps actually reading and attempting to understand what i say is a bit out of your area of interest ?
like most posters here you lack the basic courage to be yourself in a factual and not wordy way, namely having some sort of real life identity !
if you can't be yourself then i am not going to make sense to you am i, my stuff is written from a position of strong personal identity and if you are at all familiar with zen ........?
wether zen comes into that sort of inquiry i'll leave as an open question !
who is being self indulgent?
the
one
who
refuses
to
look ?
not
pretending
and
actually
doing
something !
i
stopped
for
death
but
he
booted
me
out !
a
stupid
idea
transmit
sperm
to
women
that's
about
it !
that's
the
trouble
with
success
too
least
failure
doesn't
consume
i
think
the
problem
with
advice
is
if
you
have
to
tell
some-one
to
do
it
they
are
not
really
typical anonymous, no courage of identity
a flake top to bottom, no brains or work
just clinging to illusions
about yourself !
his is effectively the ONLY uncensored zen message board
the
reality is
people like me make zen look insufficient which it is
so you need to censor to create the illusion of zen being worthwhile
we
shall
see
what
happens
if
you've
got
any
sense
brad
you
should
take
what
this
board
is
telling
you
are
in
the
wrong
game
you
have
got
any
sense
actually
so
lets
look
forward
to
censorship !
when
men
stop
being
blind
about
women
they
start
to
understand
things !
it's
part
of
being
they
cannot
see !
midst
all
the
bullshit
and
fakery
they
are
the
genuine
thing !
the
inevitable
problem
people
have
is
they
are
unable
to
abandon
their
intellectual
investment
when
they
are
obviously
is
there
no
context
or
is
there
a
context ?
i'm
not
enlightened
or
i
am
enlightened
or
i'm
not
they
ape
the
form
but
the
content
they
can't
touch !
when
i
am
on
the
net
i
ask
the
benefit
to
myself ”
if
it's
not
there
i
don't
do
it !
and
also
ask
if
these
people
are
friend
or
foe
and
am
careful
not
to
help
foe !
you
can
deal
with
foe
for
a
while
but
when
you
have
taken
all
the
benefit
you
can
then
and
run !
well they are men and egoic
unable to contenance any need for improvement and the way to go about it
sometimes
a
negative
is
a
positive
result !
it's
hard
for
women
men
do
much
better
at
being
alone !
brad
warner
you
must
be
a
corpse
to
have
so
many
of
these
maters
anything
live
they
cannot
stomach !
it's
like
message
boards
they
crush
and
kill
whatever
they
are
involved
with !
flies
buzz
around
in
eternity
it
doesn't
make
of
eternity !
daughters
like
all
females
are
so
expert
in
pulling
the
wool
over
people's
eyes
they
don't
see
the
wool
over
their
own
eyes !
there's
toy
apocalypses
and
there's
the
apocalypse
tomorrow
is
the
of
today !
zen
wankers
just
look
to
the
original
face
you
will
see
it
blind
bloody
from
the
dark
cesspool
of
suffering
you
zen
frauds !
anybody
can
see
despite
it's
claims
buddhism
is
just
another
religion
i
don't
know
what
neo-
advaita
is
suppose
it's
a
religion
to !
a
belief
in
now !
it's
important
to
write
for
yourself
an
not
others !
rephrasing goethe
only
alone
that
the
soul
can
see
beauty ! ”
keeping
half
broken
down
things
working
is
get
there
you
get
there
may
not
like
it
and
sensibly
decide
to
out
just
have
to
look
ahead
and
not
look
back !
buddha's
just
a
bad
dream
you'll
get
over
it
life
appears
sane
if
you
look
at
health
a
s
an
independent
variable
that
is
you
just
live
your
life
and
don't
worry
about
health
and
what
happens
happens !
if
you
regard
health
as
a dependent
variable
that
is
what
you
are
able
to
and
can
do
is
highly
dependent
on
health
the
way
99.9999%
live
is
osip
mandelstams
wife
was
pretty
much
without
sense
and
he
didn't
have
a
lot
of
sense
either !
it
was
a malfunctional
marriage !
women
have
some
pretty
specific
breeding
agendas
that
override
all
practicalities !
the
old
persue
illusions
as
though
they
were
young !
you
can't
go
any
further
than
your
brain
will
let you !
always
constantly
moving
and
if
you
haven't
worked
through
it
properly
you
will
come
back
again !
when
you
let
it
go
it
starts
to
john
keats
was
a greater
talent
than
can
be
said
i
am
starting
to
be
able
to
what
i
say
i have this image of the commenters here sitting around a table at the end of time, gassing shall we say ?
the
way
i
do
things
and
my
priorities
just
makes
cry !
what
do
you
understand
by
i
don't
think
it's
really
the
dead
never
reply
if
they
reply
they
are
something
else
a
zen
you
walked
into
the
world's
most
sophisticated
trap !
rosehips
wallaby
and
possum
thryoids
and
wallaby
bile
strange
metabolic
spaces !
my
writing
is
like
ripe
wild
rosehips
a
blast
of
antioxidants
and
beta
carotenes
and
vitamin
C
shallow
pan
fried
and
steamed
VERY
NUTRITIOUS !
if
you
can
understand
and
accept
you
are
are
halfway
is
that ?
i
don't
know !
non-
human
can
give
rise
to
human
and
vice
versa !
trillions
have
and
will
get
it
what
the
female
calls
love
the
male
calls
i
relate
to
dogen
because
he
was
a bit
mad
like
me
not
sane !
no-
body
agrees
with
anybody
else !
we fall into holes all the time but never see it !
once or
twice in our life
we
see
it
and
what
it
takes
to
get
there !
then the perception
becomes
gradual
and
more
available !
what
does
it
take
to
get
there ?
abatement
of
self
in
different
ways
one
is
easy
others
not
so
and
more
circumstantial
what
is
intuitive ?
the
cut
in !
a
very
complete
checkmate
puts
the
checker
as
well
as
the
check
limps
half
blind
he
can't
see !
there's
something
there
half
not
he
may
have
been
mentally
ill !
wikipedia
and
the
net
have
a
whole
counter
intuitive
learning
curve
of
their
own
founded
in
am
afraid !
you
may
think
it
but
you
don't
have
to
say
it !
soften
to
myself !
a
great
weakness
of
japan
is
the
highest
level !
you
can
enjoy
it
without
The world and human life?
Ah, the shadow of the moon,
When it touches in a dewdrop
The beak of the waterfowl.
To what might it be compared?
Dwelling in the dewdrop
Fallen from a waterfowl's beak,
The image of the moon.
a
pond
the
moon
shining
in
drops
of
water
spilling
from
a
birds
beak !
it's quite
fun
to
take
a
quote
or
poem
by
some-one
like
and
then
make
sense
of
it !
as thought follows thought,
to avoid clinging to any of them.”
but
letting
go
of
wrong
ideas
is easy
when
they
are
seen
as
wrong !
this
is
an
attempt
to
restore
the
real
sense
which
is
usually
lost
to
us
by
changes
in
language
and
culture
you
have
to
understand
that
with
most
translations
you
are
not
reading
what
he
said
but
some
distorted
lightweight
version !
dogen
is
imperfect
you
are
imperfect
i
am
imperfect
don't
elevate
one
above
the
other
that
way
lies
i
think
successful
marriages
are
made
by
couples
more
different
than
similar !
they
need
that
wide
span
of
skills
to
get
things
to
work
in
the
real
world!
very
affectionate
lovey
dovey
couples
who
are
similar
often
crash !
moving
there
has
been
a
step
change
in
entertainment
disparate
fractionated
more
volunteer
or
entirely
volunteer
with
small
incomes
and
the
corporations
written
out
of
it !
i've
got
caught
in
a
dated
new
paradigm
is
to
separate
financial
and
volunteer
interests
hard
though
it
is !
just
don't
sink
your
time
into
the
endless
human
stupidity
available !
when
you
come
around
for
the
100th
time
you
see
some
things
you
never
saw
before !
i
know
you
think
you
know
better !
what
i
can't
bear
is
that
some-one
will
be
making
a
living
out
of
my
writing
zen
buddhism
is
quite
mad
and
can
only
come
from
a
lack
of
s - e - e - i - n - g
if
you
think
i
am
going
on
about
this
it's
like
a
bad
marriage
it
takes
quite
a
while
to
get
it
out
of
your
system !
the
problem
is
that
by
the
time
we
learn
anything
we
become
just ask yourself why people get so mentally crippled by zen ?
tattoozen replied :
because mentally crippled people come to zen looking for a cure. You got it backwards in my opinion.
my reply :
see how is it in fact ? what you say is partly true, but my real life observation is they get knocked down another step or steps with zen, easy to see with all the bizarre stuff believed, all that buddha fairy tale crap believed as real for a start !
there
is
no
fixed
absolute
position
of
understanding
it's
all
process !
you admire his strength
well then be strong yourself, go where you don't want to go which is what it is all about !
there's something different about writing poetry , it forces the brain to handle meaning in an holistic way that breaks the boundaries and forces a super strong fusion of a new understanding
is
available
to
converse
with
if
you
know
how !
how to write a poem
just
a
few
words
on
paper
is
all
it
takes !
just
a
few
words
on
paper
is
all
it
takes !
dogen
is
available
to
converse
with
if
you
know
how !
you
can
tell
schizophrenics
they
are
schizophrenic
but
until
they
accept
that
they
cannot
partially
escape !
and these false hypotheses get entrained
sitting meditation especially allows internal hypotheses to get entrained without reality testing and this is actually what schizophrenia is
good article on the problems
just ask yourself why people get so mentally crippled by zen ?
the
problem
with
charismatic
people
i
think
is
all
their
intelligence
goes
into
their
charisma
and
there's
very
little
spare !
i'd
rather
burn
than
die
a
slow
death !
husbands
and
wives
do
lead
separate
lives
to
some
extent !
the
finest
compliment
that
can
be
paid
to
writing
is
to
have
it
removed
from
a
message
board
because
it
is
too
effective !
know
that
mediocracy
makes
itself
by
removing
what
it
can't
cope
with
you
have
made
yourself !
btw
all
my
writing
goes
up
on
the
web
and
you
are
pilloried
for
ever
i
am
afraid !
: o )
and a bunch of crap !
people like you have such limited horizons you don't understand the limitations of translations for a start
will
concede
that
the
translations of
dogen
do
not
serve
him
well
but
he
has
very
clunky
fractioned
writing/expressive
style !
basho and wang wei and tu fu are far more expressive and better writers and expressors but of course your type just does not read around !
my honest advice is to write poetry yourself and you will get a better insight into dogen and buddhism's limitations and instead of just repeating crap you may start to gain real undertsanding !
am
always
startled
by
being
have
to
be
caught
in
a
web
of
insanity
before
you
can
be get
clear
of
it !
the
internet
is
steriods !
there's
a
lot
of
things
i
have
gone
through
that
i
never
want
to
go
through
again
the
endless
nuttiness
of
my
life !
i
don't
know
what
solitude
is
talking
to
myself ?
now writing is different, it gives enough persistence of memory to be productive !
i am all for some solitude though !
.99 cents
amazon take a third i think and maybe the writer only ends up with 30 cents after other costs?
the top writers makes $100 - 150k? p.a, maybe the third ranked makes about $30 - 40k?
niche writers for a large niche market
the whole boutique spiritual scene has been fragmented, its mass icons , tolle would be the nearest and oprah was a big help to him
has
failed
before
we
start !
i
don't
think
you
can
fail
at
everything
in
life
it
pays
to
get
a
few
things
right !
why
be
a
failure
when
you
can
be
a
failure ?
there
is
some
ease
in
doing
what
comes
naturally !
well stanislaw lem is better than zen ever could be! try the cyberiad !
he was the same guy who wrote solaris
where i think where brad warner is good is not scripts , or books or zen
but he's a good popular visual artist !
i also think as person he's not too bad which rules him out of the religious side of things anyway
the one huge thing in brad's favour which allows him the feedback we never want to hear about ourselves is not censoring these comments, absolutely unique in the zen world which shows you how phoney the whole thing is that they cannot have an online presence without removing what makes them look bad
you are getting older brad, tolle and byron have gutted your potential audience, travelling the way you do kills
does one have to say more ?
i think you would do well in advertising
the trouble with the net is that small timers like yourself are competing with the top of the bunch which at the moment is tolle and byron, half baked as they are but that's what the world pays for and pretty slick they can be too !
the last authentic zen teachers were kusan sumim and possibly kodo sawaki, been a drought since
i
was
100%
honest
in
what
i
said
you'd
lynch
me
if
i
was
80%
honest
you'd
still
lynch
me
if
i
was
10%
honest
you'd
be
the above by kodo sawaki
my
reply
the longer
live
the
more
i
realize
this !
it's
just
the
one
central
fact
getting
older
that
is
we
get
older !